I'm very close to my goal. Few more weeks, and I should be in maintenance range. The lowest I will aim for is 133 as it's smack dab in the middle of my maintenance range. But I'll intentionally slow my weight loss as soon as I get to 136. Maybe float down another pound or two as I close the gap in my calorie deficit to find maintenance.
I think I'm going to miss this process, honestly. Now I realize that maintenance is practically the exact same lifestyle without the deficit, so I'm certainly not going to be changing how I eat or exercise much, maybe just add 100 calories at a time until I stop losing. I'm NOT giving the lifestyle up.
But, I think I'll miss the excitement of seeing a new low on the scale. Or having people ask how much I've lost now. Or getting to buy a smaller size. Basically, since November, losing the weight has occupied a lot of my thoughts. It's been my hobby, pretty much. I have truly gotten passionate about it.
Now I realize that I'll have other goals to work towards. Maintaining in itself is a goal (maintain for one week, for one month, for one year, for five years, etc). There are fitness goals, I still want to run a 5k. I have plenty of toning left to do. I'll always be excited about tasty healthy low cal recipes and food finds. But I truly sense that I'll miss the actual loss of pounds aspect. It's almost like I've enjoyed the thrill of the chase, and I'll miss that. I think I'm going to feel frustrated and anxious when the scale is no longer moving down, as if I were in an endless plateau, but the goal is for it to not move. I'm so glad I'm finally here, don't get me wrong, I'm just wondering if I'll miss the thrill of the transformation process.
Does that sound strange?