I am here again after reaching my goal, and then gaining it all back and then some. I hated the looks and comments at times that people gave me. It was humilating. I hated when I would see someone who had met me as thin, never new I had been fat. Then they see me now.
I would go between the people who just couldnt' get why I would do that to myself again. To people would say. "Oh you were looking way too thin and sickly."
AAAAAAH! I can't make other people happy. I have to focus on what is going to make me happy. So that is what I am doing. I am tired of not being happy.

I was transferred a few times and when I went back to a location for a second time I had gained over 50 lbs. Someone actually asked me if I was pregnant. When I said no he asked if I had just stopped working out. I wanted to die. I hid in my office for a few minutes but had to go back out and face everyone. I cried the whole way home. Don't let it get you down. You're obviously making an effort now and that's what you need to focus on.


