Thanks guys - I was definitely WAY overstressing about the boyfriend, you were all right and he was totally fine - his dynamic is very different from mine, in that he's super laid back, if isn't saying anything about the relationship, it generally means everything is ok and he's happy, whereas I'm, erm, not so laid back, and tend to start to panic over completely innocent scenarios - and I try to spare him from that panic because I'm aware that it's mostly me and my anxiety and nothing to do with him, and he tries to be more spontaneously affectionate so I don't worry so much. I had an AMAZING interview with a guy who's going to be incredibly helpful in the internship/fellowship process today, and I have at least 10 more pages of thesis done over break, which is something if not everything I hoped for. The last big one on my list is the fellowship app for my dream program which is due in a week, but I have this week to just focus on that and nothing else.

OH, and to Justwant2be's post - yeah, I suddenly realized I'm in the last 3 or 4 days of my blue pills, meaning I'm definitely also premenstrual. The pharmacy gave me a different generic than I had been used to (theoretically both are generics for the same drug so they SHOULD be the same) but I think it's been making my PMS WAYYYY worse - mostly in terms of insane amounts of emotion kind of welling up from nowhere - like, say, random bouts of uncontrollable crying.

I can't thank you guys enough for your responses - it helps so much to have a space to come and talk and vent, and I'm not going to lie, the fact that it's mostly women (not that we don't all love the 3fc guys!) means that so many of you have such excellent advice in situations like this. I know it's totally sappy, but I totally feel like I got my hug.