lightbulb just turned on in my head
hi, i'm wand,from TN. first let me thank every one here, you'r post has done wonders for me. i am sooo glad that i have been blessed to find this forum.OK.. my light bulb... my hubby and i was eating dinner last night and i done a salad, then a normal meat and 1 veg. then a few strawberries.(i don't know how many cal. this is because i'm not good at counting yet)we had gone to a food bar,i looked at the food on bar and it felt like it was pulling me to it, i wasn't hungry but i NEEDED that food..HAD to have that food... i didn't go back but by the time i fleft i felt like i was turning my back on a dear friend.. something about this feeling bothered me all evening, THEN right before i went to bed i hit the lowest low that i have felt in a low time.. even more so then when i lost my job....THEN i nearly died,, i was adicted, yes, adicted, me, a person that tried always to never get adicted to anythig, i don,t do drugs, i don't drink, i don,t party, i even 17 yrs, ago gave up my colas because i felt i was adicted,,now i must face the fact that i'm an addict, to food...OMG, i am so at my lowest, but now i understand why i eat.when i'm not hungry, when i'm mad, when im happy. when im bored,etc...i'm using food as a drugs, so now i'm asking every one to remember me in your prayers, for i have a bad addiction i' GOING to kick.. thanks, sorry this is so ling, but i needed this off my chest,,,wanda
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