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Old 08-08-2009, 04:35 PM   #1  
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Well I am back. I slowly began to wonder off my little path 2-2 1/2 months ago. Little tiny things of letting myself slip up, not exercising everyday anymore etc... and the little things began to add up until I had all but stopped even caring again

OMG I lost 20lbs I felt amazing, I looked way better. Even though I am still overweight and still have plenty more to lose. But it just felt like once I reached this point I could "loosen" up which led me to falling apart.

All through June I was like oh well I have done so well and tomorrow I will do better so today I can cheat alittle, it is no biggie. I was going on vacation to visit my family in July and told myself that I would be really good then so right now I can give myself some wiggle room. Swearing that come july I would lose a bunch of weight.

Stayed with my family for all of July and did horrible! I pigged out hardcore. Ate things I hadn't eaten in forever. I walked once!

Now I can pinpoint where it started to go wrong. I was doing so good, lost 20 lbs and got off insulin at the same time. And somehow in my mind it just triggered chaos. I don't really understand how or why. I can see all the little mistakes I made- giving in to little treats, thinking I could handle alittle bit of a good thing but then pigging out on it instead of only having alittle bit. Letting myself slack off and be lazy today, which led to being lazy the next day and the next...

Until I am to a point now where it is like I don't even care anymore. I went shopping and right away went back to my old habits. Pizza, mac & cheese, chicken nuggets, nachos, ice cream. The only thing I am sticking to is diet soda, and that isn't great since before I almost never drank soda but mostly just water.

My sister, SiL and myself all talked right before I left and decided we would do better. We would blog together, keep each other in check and encouraging. My sister is about 80+lbs heavier then me, and she is doing amazing. My SiL is about my same weight though much shorter and she just had a baby 3 months ago.

So I think with their help and encouragement I can do this. I can get back on track. But at the same time I am scared now. Idk if that makes any sense?? but it is like I did so amazing and felt so good- inside and out. and poof it all felt like I dropped it for no real reason. Why did I do that? and will it just happen again?

And working along side other people is scary. They live together all the way down in texas & I am in NY. So we all won't be face to face but talking online & on the phone alot, checking in every week. I can see the positives about it, being supportive of each other. Giving advice. They really want my help and advice since I was doing so good and lost 20 lbs and they kept saying how great I looked but that kindof puts me in a weird place like i have to live up to it and do better then them. and that I also want to inspire them, i am very worried about my sisters health if she doesn't change. and all at the same time i worry that if i do really good and they don't i will rub it in their face and make them feel bad.

It just feels like such a delicate little tightrope to walk between making myself feel good and not making others feel bad..i guess?? i don't know if any of this is coming out right lol

Anyways I just wanted to vent lol. I am ready to push myself and get back into the flow ofthings once again. I can do this!
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Old 08-08-2009, 05:56 PM   #2  
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Welcome back!

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Old 08-08-2009, 06:50 PM   #3  
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All that pigging out and you didn't gain back any weight? That is amazing! Welcome back. You'll do fine!
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Old 08-08-2009, 07:47 PM   #4  
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Glad to see things are turning around for you now. Believe me, I've been overweight/obese all of my life, I have lost it and gained it back 3 times, but I do not give up! Congratulations on jumping back on the wagon! Life happens sometimes, it doesn't make us a failure, take care of you. Best Wishes.
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Old 08-08-2009, 11:08 PM   #5  
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Welcome back !

I think it's great that you will have so much support (besides everyone here !), but as far as being worried about losing weight and they don't, you need to focus on you and what you need to do to reach your goals Encourage them and be there for them, but let yourself have that victory when you achieve it.

You can do this !
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Old 08-08-2009, 11:47 PM   #6  
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Well my dear you sound like in me!

In my instance I have a fear of failure!! I always feel that if I try hard at something and I fail it hurts, and I knowingly fail (self-sabotage) it doesn't hurt as much. A couple of times I almost fell off the wagon BUT all the people here at 3 fat chicks have been my inspirations!!! When I felt like giving into temptation (and giving up) I would go through threads and realized I wasn't alone!!!

I go to WW and the nice thing is you get 35 flex points a week to "spend" on whatever you feel like having!!! That has been my saving grace!!!!

20lbs! Thats quite an achievement!! We can do this chickie!!!! It's taken me 3 months to take off the first 20lbs but my thinking now is that that 20lbs is GONE FOREVER!!!! And now I'm ready for the next 20lbs to come off. Its gonna be a very slow journey for me but this time I'm in it for the long-haul!!!

We can do this!!!!

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Old 08-08-2009, 11:48 PM   #7  
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Originally Posted by Lori Bell View Post
All that pigging out and you didn't gain back any weight? That is amazing! Welcome back. You'll do fine!
lol i wish. I gained about 5lbs I know that isn;t a ton but it sucks still. I wanna be going down not up lol

Thank you everyone for your support! I look forward to being back
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