Midwife stole the words out of my mouth (although I would have never been able to express it so eloquently as she did). The analogy with the ocean it absolutely perfect.
I think I am a person with a lot of will power. But - the will power does not work the same way in all aspects of my life. For example, when I do something with hands (as in the process of creating something) I can be a perfectionist and completely anal and I will make myself redo stuff over and over until it is perfect or until I know that I have reached the level of perfection that I was capable of [i.e. it is not 100% perfect but I gave it my all and I know I cannot make it better]. Watch me install a floor, apply a wallpaper, sew a dress. It simply HAS to be JUST SO.
Sadly, when it comes to food, my will power is not so strong. Like midwife said, there are days when my in sync with the flow and it is going fine, and then all of a sudden not only I struggle to keep my head over the water, I start to drown. Sometimes it takes me a while to pull myself up by my bootstraps and start the process all over again.
I find it so much harder right now, when I have been struggling with plantar fasciitis for 3 months already and there is no light at the end of the tunnel. It seriously limits my exercise options and when I don't exercise (or not as vigorously as I used to) I will power (wrt food) is getting weaker and weaker and I feel how easy it is to fall back into the vicious cycle of feeling down -> eating -> feeling more depressed -> eating some more -> ad libitum.
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