This old fat grandma is getting worn out with these kids.
I was tired before they got here... and now I am so tired I almost want to cry.
My son told me he would pick up the baby last night about 9:00-9:30 because his wife is breast feeding but the others would spend the night. Well... they showed up at almost midnight.
So I got to bed about 1am and the toddler woke up at 3:30am.
So not only am I tired... I am sleep deprived too.
My dear hubby got up with her about 4:30 (because he always wakes up at 4:30) but it was nice for him to take over awhile. but I could not go back to sleep. They were sooooo noisey. Loud tv and just playing. I quit trying to go back to sleep after awhile.
Well... I better get back with them. I will be back later.
Have a wonderful Situp Saturday !!!! go outside and enjoy SPRING !!!!
I'm back. I DID NOT succumb to food for solace last night...well...maybe I did, a little, but my choices were better than what my normal ones would have been. I made a batch of Krusteaz mini muffins (I'm thinking that if they are 1 point per regular size muffin, then 1 pt for 2 minis?) Anyway, I had 3 points worth! (6) After a good dinner of a boca burger with lettuce, onion and tomato on whole wheat bread, with lite mayo and ketchup, (6 points) I didn't want to blow the good that I had done, even if I was stressed.
Wow, Baylee...that's some story! (How the heck did you steal BOLTS of material??) Did the woman ever get caught?
I'm sure the humiliation of being caught (the alarm went off at the door) and the shame of allowing herself to be so stupid are enough to prevent this from EVER happening again. She has yet to tell her father, though. He came in this morning from work and saw her phone on the coffee table in the living room...asked me why it was there. I was still in bed and mumbled something about that she would be cleaning her room all weekend. He was exhausted so he went to bed. I didn't want to tell him before he slept and I didn't want to be the one to tell him. She should be and will when he gets up later. I hate this. We are so close, normally, and I don't know what to say to her now. We were supposed to go shopping for prom shoes today. Should I let her still go to the prom? (Friday night) Will he allow it? I know my parents wouldn't have...I would have been grounded for life. I don't want to be like they were, but I don't want her to think that this will blow over without consequences. I don't deal well with conflict. I try to be reasonable, because my parents rarely were...but I don't want to be a pushover, either. sigh...
I will tell you this....I will not give in to the food monster that is always lurking...I had 1/2 cup ff cottage cheese this morning (1) 1/4 cantalope (1) 3 strawberries (1/4) and 4 mini muffins (2) with black coffee...4.25 points total... (High volume/low points, right, Michelle?) Plan on yard work and definitely a walk later.
Thin...you're right, somehow Mom always finds out, but I guess the kids found out too, huh? PSSSST! Mom and Dad have some goodies here!! BTW....a glo-stick?? hmmmm...
2cute...I hope you can get lots of rest today and "recover" from the visit with the grandkids...take a nap in your lovely new boudoir!
Michelle, could your dog teach my dog how to rake? Better yet, if we could get them to scoop their own poop!
Theresa, hope you and your son made out OK at the doctor and are feeling better. Did you get your walk around the lake in?
Malia...Congrats on entering virgin territory! What a great feeling! You hard work is paying off...keep it up! The fair sounds wonderful, give us lots of details...
Lucky...how are the closets coming?..I'm doing mine in stages...last week it was the clothes...this week has been shoes and vacuuming the DUST! cough cough! I may even get to the shelves today, just to be done with it. Still snowing there? I'm sending thawing, Springtime vibes your way {{{{{{{{{{THINK SPRING! }}}}}}}}}}
Mary...you are going to be one busy lady, come May...what with all your meetings AND the job! Gotta love a paycheck, though!
I hope I didn't forget anyone...gotta get off my A$$ and get something done around here!! Have a wonderful Saturday, everyone...
I am sooo tired...gymboree again today...plus the little guy woke up at 3 a.m. I did get him to go back to sleep but then he was up at 5:40 this morning...which is our usual time when John is working...but since its his weekend off I was hoping Andrew would sleep later...no such luck!
Thin...I hate to be the bearer of bad news...but I figured all the points up in the salad...and if the amounts are what you said they were..then its about 4 points per cup if you get 8 out of it! I do have to say...I would give up the 4 points..I was sooo good! I could eat the whole bowl! As far as the fish cakes...they were ok...I probably wouldn't make them again. THe green goddess sauce was bland...I put some salt in it but it didn't help much! Tonight I am making crab stuffed portabello mushrooms for only 3 points each! We have a restaurant here that makes them and we LOVE them. Mine is a low fat version so hopefully they will taste as good! I will let you know! If you still want the fishcake recipe I will type it up. Just let me know!
Kat...high volume low points works for me! I want the most I can get for my money...or points! LOL This morning I made a veggie omelet with scallion and tomato (0) and 1 egg and 1 egg white (2) and 2 T of low fat cheddar cheese (1) and two slices of WW toast w/butter spray (1) so for 4 points I was satisfied! Then when we got home I made the apple salad for 4 points. TOday I will start my lunch with the zero point veggie soup!
Baylee...my soup is all zero point veggies and vegetable and chicken bouillon cubes. Sometimes I add some cooked pasta to it to make it more filling and have a salad with it or fruit salad. I too need to know how the heck you got away with BOLTS of material???? I stole a box of chicklets when I was about 3 or 4. I didn't know what I was doing but I know my mother was very upset with me!
2Cute...I know that feeling of getting up early or in the middle of the night! I am so tired right now. Andrew just climbed into his bed hopefully he will take his nap and I can take one too! Pleaseeee little boy...please go nite nite!!
Well I should finish folding laundry...it never ends! And change the sheets on the beds then take the little guy out in the back yard. He loves it outside! I'll be back to check in on you all! So you better come out and post!!
The visit with the ENT doc was GREAT!!! I can hear again!!! It wasn't as bad as I had feared it would be!! (Guess that just proves sometimes our fears aren't all we build them up to be huh?) He cleaned all the infectious fluids out of my ears, and gave me some drops (more drops ) and said that in a few days my ears should be back to normal!! Kind of scary after a week of nothing but laying around, I woke up this morning with energy to burn!! I've already swept and mopped my kitchen floor, got the laundry going, cleaned the dreaded bathroom, and managed to get my son busy on his room. (That is a miracle in itself!! So I figured I had earned a break....and decided to spend some time with the greatest group of girls in the world!!!
Kat-Sweetie, I know you have a very tough decision ahead of you on whether or not to let your daughter go to the prom on Friday. I understand not wanting to be like your parent were, (I practice that rule of parenting myself!) maybe one way to handle it would be to sit her down and talk to her, and let her know that you understand how important prom time is for her, and that IF you decide to allow her to go, it in now way means that she is off the hook for what she did. Maybe make her substitute doing some extra things around the house in exchange for allowing her to go? Then after prom is over, right back to her punishment. I know my son got into some BIG trouble last summer...and it broke my heart to know he could do such a thing....seems he got mad at his best friend, and decided to make some harrassing phone calls, turns out his friends mother answered the phone one time, and when she got on to Caleb, he called her a B****. She called our local police dept. (My hubby used to work on the police dept, and so they all have known my son since he was born), well, I think when he saw the dissapointment in my eyes, and then the disgust of everyone on the police dept, that was enough to make him feel really small. He had to apologize to his friends mom in front of all the policemen and his father and I, then we made an agreement that for the hurt he had caused to his friend's mother, he would go over EVERY weekend for the month and do whatever chores she needed help with. I think he learned his lesson? I'm sure you will make the right decision!!! We're all here for you!!!
Well, it's beginning to storm here,,,I wanted to respond to everyone, but I had better get this machine shut down. God knows I don't want to lose touch with all of you!!!
I will be back later to try to catch up.....Have a GR8 Saturday, and stay OP!!!
Hey...me again. We just had our "pow wow," it went very well...much better than I had expected. We all agreed that she would write a letter of apology to the store and one to us. We talked about bring true to yourself and not being swayed by others... we just talked and aired things out...a couple of tears, no yelling, (Well, maybe a raised voice) and actually a few laughs...she told us how much she appreciates us as parents and we told her how proud we (usually) are of her. We really have a great relationship...I hope this lapse in judgement will be her last...
Gonna grab some lunch and we're off to a college fair...and prom shoe shopping.
OOH...Michelle, could you share the stuffed mushroom recipe? I have had a hankering for them this past week. I have all the ingredients...or, at least the basics...
Love to all...you have no idea (well, maybe you do!) how much being able to come here and vent helps me! Thank you all!
8 portobello mushrooms
1-8 oz block fat free cream cheese, softened
1/2 cup finely chopped green onion
1/4 cup light mayonnaise
1 tsp. lemon juice
1/2 tsp. Old Bay Seasoning
Dash ground red pepper
1 lb crabmeat
1/2 cup (2 oz) shredded reduced fat/sodium Swiss Cheese
1/2 cup dry bread crumbs
Peheat oven to 425*. Remove brown gills from the undersides of mushrooms using a spoon, discard gills. Remove and discard stems. Set mushroom caps aside. Beat cream cheese at medium speed of a mixer until smooth. Add green onions and the next 4 ingredients. Beat well. Stir in crabmeat and cheese. Spoon mixture evenly into mushroom caps, sprinkle with 1 T beadcrumbs and place on a baking sheet. Bake at 425* for 15 minutes or until tops are browned.
Serves 8
3 points per serving
I save some of the swiss cheese and put it on the top of each one like they do in the restaurant.
Enjoy!
I never made them yet so I dont' know how good they are. But anything with cream cheese is right up my alley!!
Thank you, Michelle!!! That looks delicious! I'll let you know how they turned out.
Theresa...I didn't see your post before...ours must have come out at the same time...thank you for your kind words...I'm glad you're back to your peppy self!
Malia I am on my way.....everything is covered in snow....I can't believe it.
This winter won't end....it is suppose to be 52 tomorrow and 60 by the end of the week. The farmers are getting nervouse because they should have their corn planted by now.
Will respond to you all later...need a rest from packing to go to see Malia!!!!!
Just trying to get the boy to sleep in his bed right now. He keeps getting out. He is sooo tired though!
I wanted to let you all know that I made those stuffed mushrooms and boy were they good! I ate two and barely go them down they were so rich! All for 3 points with a plate of veggies. I used the lump crab meat in the frozen section of your grocer. It was a bit pricey but well worth it. That was at 6 tonight and I am still full!
I am just trying to stay out of the kitchen for the rest of the night so I can bank some points. I am really thirsty right now and my contacts are drying out but I dont' want to get up from this computer until the little one falls asleep! He is yawning right now and rolling around his bed trying to get comfortable!
Lucky....snow for you still? YUK!! We had 68 today and its going to rain tonight and all day tomorrow into Monday morning with possible thunderstorms. I hate thunder!! We really need the rain because we are in a drought!
Ok Baylee....my next question is....who taught you HOW to steal those bolts of fabric? LOL I was laughing hysterically picturing you and those girls stealing fabric!
Theresa...glad you are feeling better!
Well I guess I am out of stuff to babble about for now. I will just have to surf the net till the boy goes to sleep. I wish he would hurry because I want to go to bed too.....
I have been hiding from my friends. Why? I don't know. Ashamed, I guess. I don't know what happens to me. I feel like a psycho. I'm going along........just fine.......willpower is at an all time high........SOO on program....and then boom.....I stop dead in my tracks. I have been off program since last Sunday. Not bad off program.....just off kilter. You know, it's kinda like when you are out of church. (Hope I don't offend anyone.....I'm not really getting into religion, this is just the way I feel) You go to church regularly.....every Sunday. And then one Sunday you think, "I'm really tired today......I'll go next week." But then, something comes up, (or so you think) and you miss the next Sunday. Then before you know it, six Sundays have passed and your totally out of church. That may sound wierd to some of you, but that's kinda how I relate it. I'm going along.....44.5 pounds gone off this massive body, nearing the 200's, and I completely blow it and I have no idea. And don't get me wrong....I haven't gone back to my old eating habits. Days of eating a 20 piece Mcnugget meal......a big mac and a strawberry shake......I have still been drinking water and believe it or not, journaling. But I've not really been keeping an eye on the points and I'm sure I have been going over my limit every day. I like being back on first shift, but this has been my first week back and it has been horrible. At least on thirds, eating OP seemed so easy to me. I came home from work and went to bed (if I was lucky) but seldom really felt hungry. I was really eating an average of two meals a day. I would eat one meal at home before I went to work and then eat at work. This week, I've been taking my lunch and doing really good with my eating at work and drinking my water, but when I come home, it all falls apart. DH has switched to 1st shift too, and now we are home together in the evenings. At first I was delighted with the idea, but now I'm not so sure. We have eaten out 3-4 times this week. And I keep telling myself, "Well, I'll just eat what I want today and will get right back on track tomorrow." But you know what? Tomorrow never comes. I can feel all my progress slowly sliding backwards and I'm scared I'm not going to stop. It's like my willpower has went right out the window. And I've asked my DH to help me.....that I can feel myself sliding. And he does say a few positive words to me and make me feel like the next day will be a better day.....but then I come home and he says, "Let's not cook tonight.....let's go out and eat." And it starts all over again. When my willpower was in full force, eating out was not a problem. But here lately, it has been a total downfall for me.
Also, another thing that is affecting it is.....when I joined WW, I pre-paid. I paid $108.00 for 11 weeks. Well, my last week was last week and it was time to continue this week. And this little devil in my head keeps saying, "You've run out of weeks, take a week off and then start back next week." And I know that's stupid and crazy.....but it's happening. I'm on a downward spiral, and I feel like I keep reaching out trying to grab hold of something.......of anything, that can keep me from totally going under. But everytime I grab ahold, I'm able to hang on for a few minutes, but then my hands start sliding and I fall another 100 feet or so. In the back of my mind, I keep telling myself that I've worked so hard and I just can't undo all the good I've done, but the strength of my willpower is so weak......it scares me so much. I have been down this road so many times. Losing 40-50 pounds (more or less) and then at some point, I just lose the strength.....the power........the "fire".....and then I go back to my old fat ways. Girls, I can't let this happen again. I can't give into all the old feelings. Even at 302 lbs, I have almost felt light. I have been able to breathe better, sleep better, feel better, move better.......live better. And now I'm starting to feel that old bloated, sick, fat and flabby feeling again. And truth be told, (and I haven't weighed, so I don't know for sure) but I don't think I've gained more than 5 pounds....if that. I don't know. Can you gain more than 5 lbs in a week? I am so stressed out. And to come on here and admit all these things makes me feel like a failure. And I know I shouldn't. I know you have all been where I have been and some of you still are. I know you are my friends and love me just the way I am. Yet even knowing all these things does not make me feel any better. And the fact that my family can eat anything they want and do.....right in front of me.....does not help a thing. (DH is sitting right behind me now eating pizza) And don't feel bad towards him and say that he should be more loving and supportive and not be eating that in front of me. He should. He does not have a weight problem anymore and he should not have to alter his life because of me. I want to be so strong that him eating pizza in front of me will not bother me. I want to be so strong that nothing will bother me. And even as I just typed all that, I just called him an insensitive pig and told him he shouldn't be eating pizza in front of me. See what I mean?? I'm going crazy I think. Well, I guess I've strained your ears for long enough. I have to go now. I will be back. I will not leave you guys. I don't know what I will do when I get off the computer. I pray I will be strong. I pray I will not eat. For those of you that pray............pray for me. For strength......for my life. I do love you. Just being able to talk to someone about my true feelings this week has made me feel a little better.
I decided to not fight it and went for a walk in the snow. The snow is coming down fast, bouncing around in the air. It is very heave and perfect for making a snowman.
My yard is full of trees, so much so you can’t see the sky. When I look up and see all the branches white with snow it is quite extraordinary. (But I still wouldn’t mind a blue ocean too!!!!)
I need inspiration so will be surfing for awhile...
Lucky what part of Minnesota did you say you were from?
we went out to lunch today at Shoneys but I did fairly well but I ate a lot yesterday. not much news check in later
BTW....a glo-stick?? hmmmm...
It wasn't as bad as I had feared it would be!! (Guess that just proves sometimes our fears aren't all we build them up to be huh?) He cleaned all the infectious fluids out of my ears, and gave me some drops (more drops
) and said that in a few days my ears should be back to normal!!
Kind of scary after a week of nothing but laying around, I woke up this morning with energy to burn!!
So I figured I had earned a break....and decided to spend some time with the greatest group of girls in the world!!!
I have a confession to make......
Why? I don't know. Ashamed, I guess. I don't know what happens to me. I feel like a psycho. I'm going along........just fine.......willpower is at an all time high........SOO on program....and then boom.....I stop dead in my tracks. I have been off program since last Sunday. 
Not bad off program.....just off kilter. You know, it's kinda like when you are out of church. (Hope I don't offend anyone.....I'm not really getting into religion, this is just the way I feel) You go to church regularly.....every Sunday. And then one Sunday you think, "I'm really tired today......I'll go next week." But then, something comes up, (or so you think) and you miss the next Sunday. Then before you know it, six Sundays have passed and your totally out of church. That may sound wierd to some of you, but that's kinda how I relate it. I'm going along.....44.5 pounds gone off this massive body, nearing the 200's, and I completely blow it and I have no idea. 
And don't get me wrong....I haven't gone back to my old eating habits. Days of eating a 20 piece Mcnugget meal......a big mac and a strawberry shake......I have still been drinking water and believe it or not, journaling. But I've not really been keeping an eye on the points and I'm sure I have been going over my limit every day. I like being back on first shift, but this has been my first week back and it has been horrible. At least on thirds, eating OP seemed so easy to me. I came home from work and went to bed (if I was lucky) but seldom really felt hungry. I was really eating an average of two meals a day. I would eat one meal at home before I went to work and then eat at work. This week, I've been taking my lunch and doing really good with my eating at work and drinking my water, but when I come home, it all falls apart. DH has switched to 1st shift too, and now we are home together in the evenings. At first I was delighted with the idea, but now I'm not so sure. We have eaten out 3-4 times this week. And I keep telling myself, "Well, I'll just eat what I want today and will get right back on track tomorrow." But you know what? Tomorrow never comes. 
And I know that's stupid and crazy.....but it's happening. I'm on a downward spiral, and I feel like I keep reaching out trying to grab hold of something.......of anything, that can keep me from totally going under. But everytime I grab ahold, I'm able to hang on for a few minutes, but then my hands start sliding and I fall another 100 feet or so. In the back of my mind, I keep telling myself that I've worked so hard and I just can't undo all the good I've done, but the strength of my willpower is so weak......it scares me so much. I have been down this road so many times. Losing 40-50 pounds (more or less) and then at some point, I just lose the strength.....the power........the "fire".....and then I go back to my old fat ways. Girls, I can't let this happen again. I can't give into all the old feelings. Even at 302 lbs, I have almost felt light. I have been able to breathe better, sleep better, feel better, move better.......live better. And now I'm starting to feel that old bloated, sick, fat and flabby feeling again. And truth be told, (and I haven't weighed, so I don't know for sure) but I don't think I've gained more than 5 pounds....if that. I don't know. Can you gain more than 5 lbs in a week? I am so stressed out. And to come on here and admit all these things makes me feel like a failure. And I know I shouldn't. I know you have all been where I have been and some of you still are. I know you are my friends and love me just the way I am. Yet even knowing all these things does not make me feel any better. And the fact that my family can eat anything they want and do.....right in front of me.....does not help a thing. (DH is sitting right behind me now eating pizza) And don't feel bad towards him and say that he should be more loving and supportive and not be eating that in front of me. He should. He does not have a weight problem anymore and he should not have to alter his life because of me. I want to be so strong that him eating pizza in front of me will not bother me. I want to be so strong that nothing will bother me. And even as I just typed all that, I just called him an insensitive pig and told him he shouldn't be eating pizza in front of me. See what I mean?? I'm going crazy I think. 
Well, I guess I've strained your ears for long enough. I have to go now. I will be back. I will not leave you guys. I don't know what I will do when I get off the computer. I pray I will be strong. I pray I will not eat. For those of you that pray............pray for me. For strength......for my life. I do love you. 
Just being able to talk to someone about my true feelings this week has made me feel a little better.
