I really don't know 'why' except that I felt so good about my loss. Maybe you're right Jay - I thought I was done?!? Or, maybe I'm scared to lose anymore because I might bring attention to myself - I've had two or three people comment on my loss recently and I become rather self conscious when that happens.
I was definitely aware that I was 'engaging in sabotage' and kept telling myself to stop but I was almost robot like. At first I was thinking that it's not so bad to have a bit more once in a while but then it got out of control. I continued to think that I shouldn’t be doing this but it didn't seem to help. I guess I should have stopped myself before it happened.
I felt almost sick this morning and it took me a second to figure out why. When I did, I realized that I needed to get myself back on program. I am glad that I felt better about the situation and was able to go out and exercise. I hope that I'm back on track.
Thanks for your support.