Keep it up Ruth, you can do it!
On a down note, a coule of days ago I got an email telling me that my grandmother and mother had died.
My grandmother I expected--she had been failing and died of stomach cancer. My mother (heart attack) was out of the blue. I'm up and down, but am in better shape than I was a couple of days ago. I'll try to pop in in a little while after I process all this a bit more. I feel quite alone in the world right now, as all that are left are my father (in CA, and I didn't even meet him until I was 21) and his parents who I don't know at all. I guess time will be what helps the most.