I am down to my lowest weight ever! Then I'm going to have a holiday! :rolleyes: I'm going to be ultra good! I promise! I'm going to spend lots of time shopping, and lots of time walking round, and I even got my kickboxing instructor to do a workout routine for me to do every day! :D I can do it I can do it! I'm not going to weigh in when I get back from hols, I'll just keep back on track and see what happens next month! :D

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Anthony Fromblue :o :lol: he goes out with someone from emmerdale I'm so knowledgeable. :tape:

Alison well done :D

2frus is that 7 pounds? I think that was my lowest weight :devil: :lol: but seriously you rock etc. :carrot: I don't use words like 'you rock' off the net I'm just trying to sound young... :p and failing.

Veggie at this rate, you could be mistaken for a 13 year old!!!!!

I've lost my Turkey weight!!!! Now I have to get on and lose something for New Years Eve. Sigh.........

I'll have you know Heat is aimed at 13 - 39 so it is not sad at all that I read it. :dz: :bb: :chin: :sssh:

I'm here Frus :wave: just in time to wave you off :cry: hope you have a great holiday in Japan :beach: we will miss you so much :( I can't wait to hear all about it :D congrats on reaching your all time lowest weight too :bravo:

Its ppp-persistently raining here :rain: :( i'm going chrissie shopping to buy my lovely little grandaughter a birthday and chrissie present..can't believe she is 3 next month :yikes: where did the time go ? :dunno: i've seen a talking..singing Furby advertised that I want to look at and we get 20% discount at our store for the next three days so i'll see what they have too ;) I hate not being there to see her little face when she opens her presents :cry: thats the best part ;) Right i'm off to get ready ;) have a great weekend everyone :wave:

I've just raided Ikea for some house stuff. Why can you never leave that place without buying about 5x the amount of stuff you intended, none of which has any practical purpose.

Mind you, I was lucky to get there at all, at about 5.15 I got cornered by the mad Scottish woman at work going on and on about my weight loss and trying to get me to tell her exactly what to do for her to lose half a stone. It wouldn't be so bad, but she's 8 stone 8 :faint:

I managed to escape shortly before 6.

8 stone people are so annoying. My 9 stone sister was annoyed she'd gained 2 pounds in the 4 weeks she hadn't been to fat club. :p

I had a weird out of body experience today. As part of the cleaning of the box room I took out two bags of fat clothes and donated them to the charity shop. Well the charity shop now looks like my wardrobe. And all these people were looking at the clothes admirably, remarking how there are never any size 26's in the shop!!! It was very odd!!!!

Some of my favourite clothes have gone, and I miss them!!!!! I know i'll have new favourites, but it still seems bizarre!!!

I've been all domesticated today, tarting up the house. I even unpacked two boxes that have been under the stairs since I moved in over 2 years ago!

The funny thing was that I found my diary from when I was 15 in one of them, and there wasn't a single mention of me being fat in it. I know that I was, but I seem to have been entirely unconcerned about it. I thought that it had bothered me a little more than it actually did.

LOL Kyk :rofl: so when I visit Ramsbottom will half the women in the village be wearing your old gear? :lol: that would be so funny to pass someone in the street wearing your old blouse :eek: :lol: speaking of weird :crazy: I dreamt I won the lottery! :cloud9: and all of my husbands friends were celebrating and saying what they were going to spend the money on :dunno: I hope it does'nt mean that i'm going to lose my "shirt" :rofl:

I'm in a good mood today :D

I went shopping for new tracksuit bottoms and found some that were reduced by quite a bit in the Allsports closing down sale. They had them in various sizes, XL were labelled as 16-18 and L were labelled as 14-16 so I decided to try some M on. Except when I picked them up they weren't the 12-14 I was hoping for, but actually said 10-12 on them. I put them down and tried the L, and as I expected they were a bit on the big side. Deep breath taken, I scurried out of the changing rooms and picked up the M again. And they fit perfectly! :faint: Granted there is a degree of stretchiness in them, and they're almost certainly closer to a 12 than a 10, but still, they fit!

Also I've lost the weight I put on while I was on holiday. I knew that last weeks Monday morning weigh in of 188 was mainly water, and now I'm back down to 180 I can file it in my dossier of evidence about "why scales always lie" ;)

Well I've had a good day, my friend Pete at work made me walk at lunch time! He needs the exercise too, he even made me walk up the three flights of stairs to my office. Which I am going to try and keep up.

Whilst we were walking we had some deep and meaningful talks. He has recently split up from his wife who is an alcoholic. He was talking yesterday about how his kids have been affected by this. Today I mentioned I grew up in a family where alcohol use was a big issue.

Thinking about it tonight, I have always been really aware of my tendency to drink. I don't drink in the house, except at Christmas, I don't drink much at social occasions and can shift effortlessly from the wine to the soft drink, and only get drunk when I really feel like it, once a year maybe.

But a light went off in my head today. All I've done is replace alcohol with food. I eat when I'm stressed, when I 'm down, to celebrate, commiserate........etc. I have always avoided the term compulsive overeater because those times don't happen very often and I didn't feel I really fit into that category - and doesn't that just sound like an alcoholic in denial????

I'm not one of these, all our problems go back to our parents, and I'm fat because they made me fat. I'm fat because I made me fat, no one else prepared the meals, ordered the fattiest dessert on the menu, sat in my room at university with six assignments to do and medicated the stress with a packet of chocolate biscuits. I did that.

I have the power to change this behaviour forever, not just for the last 10 months, but for life. And it was such a fabulous feeling when I realised this today, I just had to share!!!

I really want to go to NYC in 2006 so my weight loss has to succeed for me to go! :carrot:

Hope we're all okay! :)

Kyk - good for you for having such an insight :hug: ! I love it when something just clicks into place in your head, and a lightbulb suddenly goes off - it somehow makes this journey worthwhile.

I agree that as adults we have to take responsibility for ourselves, and harping back to childhood and rehashing old grievances and unhappiness doesn't really solve anything - but it IS useful to discover the catalysts for your current behaviour patterns - and it's fun to blame your parents for everything sometimes :p !

All the best - and thanks for sharing!

Janey :cool:

Just off to fat club :eek: I haven't been that good............................


But I haven't been that bad I hope. :devil: