Had a crappy weekend! Having a wrong side of bed day.
Having a "maintenance week" and tapering the exercise because of grading on Saturday. Ate so much at the weekend I might have 2 "diet days" today and tomorrow just to stop feeling sick!
I don't know what to do. Meant to go to a new fat club tomorrow but it is only 5 days since last weigh in and I haven't made much effort. I don't want to get weighed after 5 days
I've also been left with the dog sitting while my sister has gone to Manchester.
I had my non-diet week last week, last days of it were meant to be today and tomorrow, but I am back on the wagon. I miss eating healthily!!!!!! I was surprisingly restrained over the weekend, I only had one helping of dessert at the wedding on Saturday, the old me would have grazed at the buffet table all night!
I'm on "maintenance three weeks" at the moment, mum's here and I'm not overly convinced I'll lose (particularly not with a trip to see my godmother, a trip to Marrakesh and a big meetup in a pub with rugby friends, so I'm just concentrating on not gaining.
I've lost my real mother. I sent my picture to my mum (well the one on the other end of her email address) "What a transformation. Your face looks so great and I like your hair colour. You are doing so well. ". No negatives, no nothing, just a purely positive comment, it made me feel so good. I feel really encouraged to keep going now. I have had a bit of a wobble, but I really enjoyed this maintainance week, I had a great time at a work conference last Wednesday, and the wedding, I let myself drink, eat and be merry. Now I just want to get down to a size 18 (I think I am just about there) and go shopping!
Went to Lacrosse last night! I have my coach's TOTAL respect! He's bowled over by my bike! (It's not that big honest! I'd be more impressed if I was riding a 1000CC HOG or something!) Then when he found out I did kickboxing he says, "Bloody ****! (In a really cockney geezer type way) You really love your sports don't you?". I was psyched! And also realised that yeah I really do love sports - when did that happen?!
I took that as the best complliment so far! A coach thinks I'm sporty!
I told my friend and she said, "Well you do love sports..." but it's so anti-inner-fat-chick! I guess it's taking me a while to realise that I'm not still the fat girl who's picked last for teams (although I'm still the worst at lacrosse but I'm getting better!).
Kickboxing tonight - just to prove to myself that I really do love sports!
Well Done Chris I was just about to shout WHERE'S CHRIS? again
Going to have a mammogram in a bit there should be a law against it was talking to Jill at work yesterday and she said that a young girl had been talking about wages and she'd said "I was only earning X at my last job so I came here because they pay so much more" well the X she was talking about is MORE than what I and some of the others are earning here I said to Jill "I would have asked her how much she was on" This is ridiculous! some people did'nt bother to turn up yesterday wonder why?
It does sound ridiculous! Good luck with the mammogram (is luck the word?)
Frus - I know what you mean with the being thought of as sporty thing, a new trainee started at work a few weeks ago and keeps on telling me that she "doesn't know where I get the motivation to go to the gym every morning" and is completely in awe of my athletic feats.
She clearly didn't see how much fatter my arse was than it currently is, if she had she'd know where the motivation came from...
I went to another fat club only to discover it is a bit like my old one. My new consultant seems to think my old consultant hates her job and we are doing her a favour not going to her group. All very odd. There is a dance class next door to new fat club so when I got bored I just hummed along to the music in my head. There is only so long you can smile and clap I find.
I don't want to get weighed after 5 days 
today - having porridge with apple for "morning snack" 
I will be repeating that a lot if I go) if it is bad. 
I'm a bit scared 
you look so happy 
I was just about to shout 
WHERE'S CHRIS? again 
there should be a law against it 
was talking to Jill at work yesterday and she said that a young girl had been talking about wages and she'd said "I was only earning X at my last job so I came here because they pay so much more" 
well the X she was talking about is MORE than what I and some of the others are earning here 
ridiculous! some people did'nt bother to turn up yesterday 
wonder why? 
