Ugh.. it's not my official weigh in till Monday but I popped on today and it said 142lbs which is up 1.8lbs :|
But I am having a really **** week... started some new anti-anxiety medication that I'm getting hideous side effects from (which my doctor said to expect and will subside within 1-2 weeks but one of the things which is apparently normal is they're making me MORE anxious) plus it's my TOM and I have some sort of cold coming on with a really sore throat and blocked up painful ears...
One weird bonus is the medication is making me feel really nauseaus so making it very hard to eat so well.. maybe I'm lose weight after this week of **** has passed!

Sorry I know this was a whingy post. Just feeling a little sorry for myself today

Awww, PB, I hope you feel better soon and that the meds make only an improvement, not harm xxx

Back already, I only had a quick swim.
You are right, I totally forgot about it being Saturday morning. It wasn't too full but lots of kids. There was a swimming lane so I went in there out the kids way.

On the plus side I swam nearly half an hour- about 500cals apparently!!

On the MINUS side I went along and I was wearing a black vest thing and shorts. Maybe I stupidly imagined that wearing that would some how totally disguise the fact of my size : It did NOT, and some teenagers made me very aware of this by shouting fatty and whale at me. i know it's just kids but that hurts me so bad, it makes me feel like I myself am a teenager again and having kids be cruel to me and things. I am never going on a Saturday again, I must have been STUPID!! Ughh!!!

So, I think the swimming was a success, just maybe weekday mornings will work out best for me.
xxx

That's alot to fight all at once PB ease up on yourself. Your general trend is down and you are eating healthily and exercising....that's what matters.
Take care

Awesome on the swimming Joselo!

It makes me so angry those kids shouted things. That's awful. Good on you for staying for the half hour though and swimming! Screw them honestly!

Edit: I think we posted at the same time: thank you mountain walker! I really appreciate the encouragement cos I need it atm! <hug>

But I am eating right mainly (little erratic lately) but not exercising.. thank you anxiety for ruining that for me. That's partly why I finally bit the bullet and went to the doctor for the help because I can't even bring myself to go running anymore which I think was helping (with the anxiety as well as weight loss!) but anxiety just gets the better of me. I think I need to come up with some sort of indoor exercise to do..

Joselo,
The fatty taunts etc are about them looking clever to their mates and nothing to do with you....hard though it is to ignore.
Here's a point a view. I know I am fat right??? So if someone calls me fatty or whale feaures or whatever all they are doing is stating the bl**dy obvious! And how dim are they???
Well done for the swimming though!!!

Jose.. if I'd have been there, I would have shown those kids my new boxing moves.. without gloves! > NOTHING makes me angrier than bullying and cruelty. But just think - what have those teenagers accomplished in life if it makes them feel good to shout names at people who are improving their lives? You hold your head high! F**k them!

MW - No gaming sesh until next week, but i have big things planned lol One of games (bayonetta, a v.sexy witch that kills angels lol) is ready to be completed. Then I've got Wet, a female headhunter/assasin voiced by the girl who played Faith in Buffy, and if i get bored of that I've got little big planet 1 lol I might even have mass effect 3 by then too if my WI next saturday goes well lol

MM - sounds like thats muscle or water weight. I had that last week. it will probably dissapear in the next day or so if you take it easy. I don't envy anyone who has to do exams or essays.... URGH!! can't stand the thought of going thro that again lol

PB - you poor love. Starting new meds is horrid. But why, if they're for your anxiety, do they make you worse? or is it more of a hormonal in-balance to start with? I'm sure you'll be fine in a few more days. Just take it easy, and try to do something you enjoy.


Okay, so its my offical WI day... and for the week i'm 3.2lbs down which is awesome!! it makes up for last week when i gained that stupid 1lb, but its gone!! so yeah, upping the cals hasnt really affected that at all. I'm also feeling better in terms of those headaches, so it must have been cal related.

so yeah 3.2lbs this week, not far to those 200s...
BRING IT OOOOON!!

Good luck everyone who's wi is this weekend too, i'm sure you'll all be fine!

*Hugs* Thank you all. I know it is but stating the obvious to say I am fat but I still find it so hurtful and upsetting every time.
I am just thinking, if this happened to someone else, I would for sure say it reflects badly only on them, not me, such behaviour. I am proud of myself that I did it. I am free Monday morning so I might go then again.

LC, Well done!! Keep going, I am glad to hear your astute calorie alterations have benefitted you generally.
xxx

bloody ****! did it take me that long to type my last post?! Jeez!! i need a coffee lol

Right, Jose - People who make those sorts of comments are covering up something. I agree with everyone else too, they need to take a look at themselves. teenagers are nasty little people who really know.... well not much lol
I would never have gone on a saturday morning, but you did, and at the time you thought nothing of it!! Sooo freaking brave!! you're motivating me to get a swimsuit (yeah... i havent owned one for years) and start getting fitter that way

Argh my hand hurts from typing... i need a coffee.... i'll be back in a bit lol

Ha ha, more fool me! I think since I am working today, I sort of forgot it was a Sat! I shall not make that mistake again!! Maybe the vest draws more attention to me? I dunno. Maybe one day i am brave enough for topless!!
I agree about teenagers. I know some are nice but in groups they are often so mean. I even disliked teens when I was one... ESPECIALLY then! But this is a generalisation, I know.

Anyways, I am trying to forget that, and think about how many calories I burnt, and how I will definitely be under my limits, with that!
Right, I better be off to work. I am supporting some workshops this evening, which is great because I love that part of my job, and keeping busy in the evenings is the best for me, as evenings are my main over eating time, hehe
xxx

well done for the swimming Jose i am so glad the horrible teenagers havent put you off, you are really brave and strong for doing that

Lozz well done on the loss that is so fantastic, you will be in the 200's in no time

PB sorry you are feeling so down, hopefully the meds will even themselves out, it takes a while for the body to ajust to new chemicals and hormones etc

finished my shift for the day, got loads of housework and an essay on dementia awareness to write, luckily the brat is at her grannies for the day i am going to need the peace and quiet to get this work done haha had some lovely veggie soup, a stuffed chicken olive and green beans at work yummy!

PB lots of anxiety meds make you feel like poop. I take 2 "mad pills" as my husband so lovingly calls them as I have a fairly mild bipolar thing going on and I really feel that after all these years of my old GP's doling out antidepressants my new stuff is doing the trick. All the research points to meditation/yoga as the best things and exercise in general as very therapeutic for all mood disorders . Since I have been exercising regularly I have been much more settled too.
Think of how you would be if a friend was very anxious? You would encourage them to treat themselves well by being active and eating well. But would you would also give them a big hug and reassure tham that this will pass. Now imagine that you are your own best friend and behave likewise. I hope that makes some sense??
I think that we are so used to beating ourselves up for becoming overweight that we have lost the ability to be nice to ourselves.
I hope that helps.

Afternoon all.

Jose, good luck with swimming! Very brave of you to go on a Saturday. Even as a kid I hated going when the pool would be full of kids, they're terribly irritating in swimming pools.

Last summer, my brother lived with me for a month (and his cat, which mine just loved...) and we decided we should go swimming regularly, but never actually got round to it. Recently I tried on my swimming costume and it fits well, so I asked him if we could maybe try swimming at last. Sure, he said, just as soon as his new back piece is finished - he'd got a new tattoo covering his entire back that day. And it's still healing. Sigh... I'd go alone, but it's far too intimidating.

Mountain walker, you're walking whatever the weather? Brilliant! That takes dedication, and possibly also wellies.

Plan for the weekend: eat very little and sweat lots. Second weigh in here on Monday, I want it to be less than last week, even if only by 0.2!

Well done dude, that's great!

Shame you had to be subjected to those horrible remarks though, that's awful. Please don't let that put you off, some people are just so damn rude.

I was naughty today and bought yet another dress. Three in a week, oh my. I have never shopped like it! This weightloss is making me care so much more about my appearance. I hope I'm not becoming vain though!

Feeling vvv happy today, officially lost 1.5 stone now, 21 pounds and 10% of my starting weight

Seeing a friend tomorrow that I haven't seen since I starting losing weight, hoping she'll notice

My mum told me today that she got a 'has your daughter lost weight?' from her friend earlier. Happy days.

Have a lovely evening everyone xx