Hello everyone. Just popping in to say hi and apologise for not being about much. Lots of stuff going on in RL and I've not had much time. My weight is staying steady-ish so at least I'm showing I can maintain under pressure even if I seem to be a million miles from target still.

Hope everyone is well - good luck with the wi's and hope to be back with you all properly soooooon x

Picking up the thread as food as the only source of joy...
Food should be enjoyed but in all honesty when I have a binge I don't really enjoy what I am eating just wanna stuff more in. Joselo working on your portion size will help you enjoy food more not less I promise! I read in a book once that if you eat to fill the hole in your heart not the hole in your stomach you will be overweight and that sort of summed me up!
Has anybody come across the theory of mindfulness??
Just done 40 lengths of the pool as the weather is totally pants here in South Wales. Guess I will have to hunt out the waterproofs for the next few days for my walks!!!!
Keeping the sadness at bay today by keeping busy!!
Have a good day everybody!!!

MW - glad you've been able to keep yourself busy today. And the more exercise you get in the more happy hormones you'll get out of it too.

EM - missing you!! Well done for maintaining whilst sorting life out. Come back soooon Xx

Well another uneventful day. Which is just the way i like it lol. the weather here was ok until about 5pm... then the heavens opened... Looks like i'll be walking to the jobcentre with my trusty hello kitty umberella.... Yes... hello kitty... and i dont have any kids lol... Im just a bit kooky lol

Food wise today, stayed just under calorie goal and still got enough for half an orange later if needed. I can't believe its not WI yet... Grrrr. I'm down to 303 something this week but cant put it on the sheet as it's not official... Grrr I don't want to wish my life away, but come on!!! Being back at 1500 cals a day has really helped. Even if I spend it on a snack of 1 shredded wheat biscuit and some hot drinks, maybe even a slightly bigger lunch, its deffinitly has made a difference. I'm not as moody and my head feels loads better, not 100% but some of that is weather related.

Right best be off and email mother lol, need to fill her in again on the progress.

Glad all is well for you LC!

I weighed myself today! The first time I got weighed at the doctors I was 400lbs, which is what made me decide to lose weight, as I thought I could only br about 350lbs/25stone... ooops! Well, the trouble since then was finding some scales I can use, but then I found some at a local clinic/gym place. I weighed myself there and it was 406lb!! I hope this was only for discrepency of the scales, as I was sure I cannot gain that in a few days!

Anyways though, I went back to those scales today, and it said 404lbs, so I think I have lost 2lbs. It is a start anyways!
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That's exactly what it is babe. A start. And before you know it, you'll be loosing consistently and seeing the changes. Believe me it'll happen sooner than you think. Let me know when you're ready and I'll plonk you on the spreadsheet too if you like.

Even when June is done I'll be keeping up with it. I like to see the numbers get smaller lol

How has the food been going today btw hun? Are you finding mfp useful?

What spreadsheet is that?
I still find it really hard to stick to the food limits!! I think I did ok today, I haven't added it up yet though.
2 down, another 250 or so to go... oh well :/ Did I ever tell you that? I am quite small, my target weight is only about 11stone maximum. I can NEVER imagine being that, I am just aiming for some kind of improvement!

Ellie - good to 'see' you, hope RL sorts itself out soon x

MW - welldone with the swimming Weather awful here too, I WANT SUMMER NOW!!!!

Jose - well done on your loss. It might seem small, but it's a loss, you're moving in the right direction, so WELL DONE YOU! That loss was while you're still getting in the swing of things, think how well you'll do when you get things a little more under control! Don't worry about how far you've got to go, you've started. That's all that matters! Think about setting some mini goals, maybe start with getting out of the 400s, saying goodbye to them forever, how great would that be? You could make your first target for the future losing 10% of your total loss, so that'd be about 25lbs right? So, once you've got to 400, your next goal would be making it to 381, and then you've done a whole 10% of your target already. Looking at it like that helps me to make it seem achievable! My last 15lbs is broken down into tons of different 'mini targets'! First I need to get out of the 12stones, then I need to get a normal BMI, then I need to get to 11stone and then finally get a few lbs under for a security blnaket. Makes it sooooooo much easier than just seeing one big number!

That is a great way of looking at it... as you and LC say, mini goals! I don't think I've been in the 400s long but I am sooo keen to get out, that just does not sounds good. It is over 28stone in UK 300lbs will be much better. I am the same height as you TC, I guess we are aiming for a similar place.

I just can't believe I took my eye off the ball so much. I just assumed I was hovering around 25stone, maximum. I swear i nearly cried the first time I was weighed recently! (OK, I DID cry!!) How did I not notice I'd actually out on a few stone?? Maybe ignorance is bliss!!
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Just saw this, sorry!! I agree! When I am on my own I (used to!) just eat mounds of crap to the point of being very uncomfortabely full. I find it I am eating with friends, I enjoy every bit and really appreciate it, even the more modest portion. But then I could eat a tone of the stuff alone at home, and it isn;t even the same. Funny things.

Jose, the spreadsheet is on the first page if this topic. TC put the first post on and it has a link to the sheet. take a look, have a think about it. No rush. in the mean time, you might have taken your eye off the ball. But now you can and ARE doing something about it. That is what matters right now. I think we all had a bit if a cry when we realised something had to improve. So don't feel silly about it

Just raided the biccie tin, and walked away empty handed! Hopefully things are slowly changing.... I so so sooooo want a normal relationship with food!

Jose, I remember the first time I stood on the scales and saw the full damage of my over eating, SO what did I do? I didn't dare get back on them for another 3 months....! In that 3 months I probably ate more knowing that I was so so heavy, so the damage was even worse by the time I actually started doing something about it.... So, the fact you decided to do something about it straight away is awesome!

Ooh, ooh, can I be on the speadsheet too? I just started nattering on the thread and forgot it actually had a purpose, lmao! I donno how you're working it but I was 173 about three weeks go and I hit 165 yesterday.

Jose, congrats on the loss! And, as has previously been noticed, this was on a week where you were having a very wobbly start, haha! Stick to your guns, remember we're all supporting you, and you go fire on all cylinders to your next mini goal! Imagine yourself at 390!!

I'm on it now MM. I'll post again wheb you're on... Shouldn't take too long. X

MM - you're all set. When you weigh in next week scoop down to your name follow it along and pop your new weight in the next blank purple box. everything should then recalculate and you'll be sorted.

Managed to get it done before my net book crashed again!! Gah!! Thank goodness for smartphones lol

Yay! Cheers, Lozz!