Don't feel bad, we are here to support you. You need to do this your way. If at this time you are treading water so to speak, well that is so much better than gaining and harder to do that lose in some cases.
I have a little phrase that I tell myself and my family too, for that matter, "I (we) need to change what I (we) feel that fun is. I (we) need to stop assosicating food with a good time, there are other things that contribute to a good time and those are the things I (and we should) intend on focussing on."
cheers, cj