Howdy!

I think I may just be getting better. I spent all evening last night hacking and by around 1am I could feel some of it breaking up, I started sneezing a lot and blowing my nose.This morning hasn't been to bad despite the box of tissue I have to carry around. At least the cough isn't so violent this morning!

I love the idea for the exercise challenge. I think I will be heading towards San Francisco. Not sure exactly how far that is yet but figure its a good walk.

The fall tree is another super idea! I did this way back when and it was a lot of fun. The best part was getting to see those leaves fall. Can't wait to see yours Melissa.

I am terrified to weigh in tomorrow! I feel like I have gained. I've pretty much been a big lump all week and if I don't workout no matter how well I eat I just don't lose. Dh was trying to be thoughtful and brought home a shake for me a few times to soothe my throat. Ack! I can just feel the fat jumping back on me!

Sara, girl you need to display that reward chart proudly! I'm sorry, but not to be harsh, your BF?, or was it your dad? I can't remember! Either way, he has no clue what you struggle with each day. Just how would he handle your journey if the roles were reversed?? I am more than sure he would love your support and know that no matter what you will always be there for him. Maybe you need to give him a reminder of what it would mean to you, but make it clear that negative comments are not welcome. He's supposed to be lifting you up, not tear you down!
Always know that we are here for you, I personally love your idea for rewards.

miafluker- Hi!

Hun.e.B- Sounds like you have a busy day and evening ahead of you! Take care!

Butterfly50- A lot of us like to work out at home for the sake of comfort and privacy. Not a thing wrong with that. I don't wear a shirt when I work out, just a sports bra, unless my kids are around, then I wear my sports bra and a tank. I wear loose pants so they won't cling to me. I hate that too. I started wearing a sweat band on my head. I could care less what a geek I look like...lol... I don't particularly enjot sweat stinging my eyes either...

Amany- Aw, I hope you get to feeling better.

iwantnewpants- Buckwild... lol... that was something else.... she was so mad, that "mysterious accent" of hers just took off.... lol...

sapphire35- Hi! I hope that your little baby gets to feeling better. Poor baby.

lovethatsara- Hi! You DO deserve to reserve rewards for yourself. You know you deserve it, this is not an easy thing to do.

Sugar-N-Spice- Glad to hear you seem to be recovering a bit. Don't worry about the weigh in. Just do it, and whatever happens, happens. If it doesn't tell you what you want to hear you could drop kick the doggone thing back into the closet until next week if you have to. lol...

Amanda, I hope you are feeling better today. Can't have you getting sick when you are doing so well with everything, can we? Lots of rest, lots of fluids, and lots of cuddle time with dh is what I prescribe! One thing I gotta say is my dh really makes it comfy for me when I'm not feeling well. Sometimes it makes it hard to even wanna get better! LOL

Aqua, how ya doing today? Yep, definitely not going to worry about weigh in tomorrow, I know it's not going to be what I want. I may just skip the whole thing and not worry about it til next week. Why mess with my head?

Liz, great to see ya chicky!!! The look on Flav's face when Buckwilde's accent disappeared! Priceless!! Like I keep telling the other girls, sometimes I really have to refrain from wanting to switch channels, cause frankly, those "girls" scare me! lol

Trish, how are ya mama? I hope today is another super day for you, you're doing so well!

Melissa, we need to clone you. You are in 10 places at one time!! I guess on the plus side this could work in favor for you, no time to dwell on food, right? lol I hope everything goes well tonight at the school and lots and lots of people sign up to support the school!! You have done an awesome job the last few days, I am so very proud of you. Keep it up lady, good things are happening!!!

Bonnie, it's good to see you.

If I forgot anyone, I'm sorry. I'm headed out to go get my kids, but I wanted to drop in real quick!!! Be good ladies, I'll be back later.

okay i forgot to put on my pedom but i did 20min of turbo jam today wow im tired hope you guys are okay im need a nap

I am back, little one is to young to get antibotics. At least thats what the doc said. So she has a really bad sore throat coming along. She is suppose to let it run its course.

Sara: Don't get mad but my goodness, if he was my man I tell him to go **** himself. But I know thats not the proper approach. So I agree with everything that Danielle said. He's got this attitude of, " just do it already, if your going to do. No incentives, No rewards just do it. He's basically saying you know you need to lose the weight, so lose it". But you know what that is definitely the wrong attitude to have. We need they're support so much, yes we're doing this for ourselves, but we're also doing this for them as well. We want them to be proud of the person there with or at least I do. We want them to care about our goals and be apart of them as well. This is hard, it is not easy and I know he can see how difficult this journey is. So he needs to be way more supportive and not so negative. That will on discourage you, as it did already. Ignore it and keep on going with your rewards. Don't get discourage you can do this SARA with or without his support. It will be harder if he doesn't conquer but you will succeed. Stay with us we are all here for you. I'm sorry he is being a jerk but I do believe he will come around.

Danielle: I'm so glad your feeling better. San francisco sounds fun. We're all going to be on the road for a while.

Mia: I'm so glad you have distance and a pedometer. Now you can be all over the Tour De Highway. The body for life diet definitely looks doable. I really have to watch my carbs. Because I like them alot and I will gorge on them. So I kinda just gotta stick to fruit and veggies and meat right now. I do do a few carbs here and there. Maybe twice a week right now. If its working don't stop still the weight drops.

Amanda: Sounds like your feeling better. We need yah, stay up! It sounds like your practicing a little voodooooo. Are people going to be able to stand around you? Hope it works. If it does I'll be asking you send some my way.

We will definitely hook up when you come to St. Louuie. I was thinking man I better make sure my weight is all gone by then. So therefore you are another incentive for me to really lose the weight.

I went online gmail and they have chat... it went like this:

Me: I've thought a lot about what you said, about the rewards, and they are too expensive most of them. I'm going to rework it so their more realistic.
Matt: Rewards are good, as long as they are realistic...[
Me: it made me really upset though, that you’re not being supportive of me though.
Matt: I am supportive, but you have to be realistic
Me: yes I realize with that that it wasn’t realistic rewards, that it was too expensive and our budget wouldn’t cut it. what i’m saying is that I come home happy everyday and want to tell you how i’m doing but when I do your usually negative and sometimes I feel like maybe I shouldn’t talk about it
Matt: The only thing I'm negative about was how much the rewards cost... other than that, it's all good.
me: i'm talking about what you always say " nothing will work other than running that’s it, don’t bother doing the videos until after you lose weight it wont work nothing works other than running" or when I did do the videos you made fun of me. I want to tell you things I want to let you into my life more
Matt: But I was trying to help. Running will lose the weight, and the videos will get you in shape. The videos/walking can NEVER take the place of running. And you hardy even -run-
Me: I know I hardly run anymore. I know you’re trying to help I know that. The other day I told you I was happy about loosing 15lbs so far and you just said okay. And last night u said to loose 20lbs isn’t that great it’s not that much...it’s a big deal to me
Matt: It is a lot, but it's not worth a hundred and something bucks either... not when you’re supposed to be doing this for your own health
Me: I am doing it for my heath but u should be happy I’m loosing
I’m starting to think you would like me better skinny....
Matt: I am happy. I want you to be healthy, the actually weight doesn't matter to be. But it seems to matter so a lot to you. I don't want you to die of obesity.
me: I guess what i’m really feeling is neighbors that I don’t even talk to say I look good, and my own fiancé doesn’t even say it
Matt: You do, but your slacking on the running. Nothing pisses me off more than someone being lazy, and I haven't seen you run in like...forever. So yeah, when you -talk- about getting healthy and you won't do what needs to be done to accomplish that goal, I'm going to get pissed. You’re cheating yourself.


I guess i didnt do as good as i thought i was going to.

hi im back i needed that power nap
i decided im going to tweak the challenge a bit sonce i also do workout videos im going to do minutes instead of miles so it takes roughly 20hours to new orleans so thats 1200 minutes since i did 20 minutes today then ill have 1180 left

Sara...you need to tell Matt how incredibly unsupportive he's being. And by treating you the way he is he is holding you back from success. Its not a wonder you are in the struggle with weight that you are when thats the kind of support you've got at home. Now I'm sure he feels he's being supportive but all he's really being is passive abusive. It doesnt matter what your rewards cost, you deserve them if (and WHEN) you reach your goals!! matt is supposed to be your soft place to fall, and in my opinion hes telling you that you are a failure. Now how is that going to motivate you? the old saying goes, just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesnt mean that they dont love you at all. The same goes here, just because you arent fighting this battle the way that he wants you doesnt mean you arent fighting the battle at all. We believe in you Sara! I know you are going to win this battle! Always know that we are right behind you helping you in anyway that we can!! You can do this! You are gonna do this!! And NOONE can stop you!!!

~melissa

Hey everyone.

I promise to get to personals later. Just wanted to say hello and that I'm going to make myself workout. Gosh I don't feel like it. I wish I didn't have problems with my sinues.

Sara - What it really comes down to is that your fiance should be supporting you. Not raining on your parade. Whether or not he understands why you're going about the way you are. You should not have to be put on the defensive about this.

Any time I'd talk to my husband about working out in the past he'd bring up doing wind sprints and shadow boxing. He thought they were the best thing to do along with brisk walking or jogging. I had no interest in doing them. So he let it be. Since then he's watched me do my videos and told me he was proud of me. When I went off to water aerobics he told me to have fun. Lately, I've asked him to show me how to do those wind sprints and I had him show me some shadow boxing moves. If he'd been bashing me over the head about this stuff, instead of supporting me, there's no way in **** I'd be letting him show me this stuff.

I have a plant hobby. My husband doesn't like plants at all. But guess what he bought me for my birthday? Two HUGE floor plants. Right now as I type this he's putting together a stand he bought for my plants. I didn't ask him to. He just knows that I enjoy my plants and he supports that.

I think if things continue the way they have with your fiance and you regarding your weight loss, it's going to cause a lot of resentment. It will also be stressful because you will want to have discussions with him that you won't be able to. He's suppposed to be the one person you can always rely on for a sounding board. You could eventually become discouraged. My point is that his attitude about your weight loss plan is harmful. Not neutral. Harmful. So tell him to get off your back! And let him know that you expect his support without sarcasm or criticism.

I'll be back a little later. Bye ladies!

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST GOT TURBO JAM, I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE IT, I WANNA START TONIGHT BUT I AM GONNA GET ALL MY MEASUREMENTS, WEIGHT, ETC. AND THEN START ON THE WEEKEND OR MONDAY. I AM SO EXCITED, YAY!!!! I'M A LIL EXCITED!! HEHE! I JUST WANTED TO LET U ALL KNOW.

Our school is participating in the Terry Fox Walk tomorrow (if u dont know who Terry Fox is, then its a shame). I think it is 2 or 5 km, so that is exciting! Anyways, just wanted to let u know about turbo jam and im sorry i havent been on but u know, homework comes before anything else, other than family and working out. I will update as soon as I can with the turbo jam progress.

Lata, Heather

Aqua: Chick what are you up to lately. You have been really low key.

Mia: You gonna turbo right to the moon if you keep that up! Good work out!

I think minutes are alot easier to accomplish than Miles. Some people get 1100 minutes a month. For instance; aqua is averaging 60 minutes a day. Maybe we can try another challenge in minutes also.

We might ask the other ladies about that tweaking you did! lol. No, whatever is best for you. I'm just glad your participating.

Heather: Hi, sounds like your knee deep school. Education comes first of course. I'm so glad you got your turbo jam! You have been waiting a long time. I think you were getting ready to scratch someones eyes out if it didn't show up soon.

Sara: Boy Amanda and Melissa gave you some really good advice. He definitely knows how you feel now. Don't back down. And don't get discouraged.

Gotta go take care of this sick little one of mine. Boy is she crankie. BBL

Ok, I'm not exercising tonight. Dang it, I feel like crap and it's not going to happen. I'm starting to get some pain in my right ear. This will be a less than sparkling exercise week for me. I plan to get up early tomorrow and back on the wagon.

Bonnie - I'm glad you got your house back. Now you can do what you want. No, it doesn't make you sound bad. You're a woman enjoying her house. Nothing wrong with that. I like to exercise in a sports bra and gym shorts.

Liz - Buckwild was a hot mess. In fact that should have been her name. "Hot Mess"!. I have to admit that I enjoyed watching her. She was so darn funny. In real life, she would have gotten on my nerves though.
It's good to see you back. How was the walk?

Trish - You're in the exercise zone. You got the bug baby!
I hope the baby feels better soon.
I'll definitely be in St. Louie in my skinny clothes! If I'm not preggers by then. That's kinda what I'm hoping. But maybe I'll still get something tight and revealing. Just look for the pregnant broad with in the cut off halter and spandex pants!

Heather!! - I love it when you drop by. I hope you love Turbo Jam. Make sure you report back to us after you've done it.

Aqua - Come back, come back, come back to us!!! Hope to see you soon chicky.

Danielle - I'm so glad you're feeling better. I'm still back and forth. Better one moment and feeling worse the next. Thankfully the weekend is upon us. It's getting cool here. What was the temp in your neck of the woods today?

Melissa - Just reading your posts make me tired. Girl how do you do all that?! You're inspiring me to get my act together though. I really need to become more organized. If you can do all that you do there's no reason for me not to do all the things I want to accomplish.

Mia - I'm glad you found a way to track your miles. You're going to do really well at this weight loss thing, chick!

Sara - Be happy!! Please just be happy.

Ladies, I ordered the book Protein Power today. I'm not planning to use that diet, but I want to gather all the useful information I can to tweak my own plan.

Did you guys hear that Pumkin from Flavor of Love is planning to marry another woman?? Hmmm..... Now that's interesting. I wonder if he singed on for this show expecting to find true love. Oh well, NY loves him. And she's back.

Well, my husband is putting me to bed now. He's fussing about me being sick and staying up too late. Have a great evening lovelies.

i got mine today too! i did half of cardio party then passed out

Amanda: I will definitly report back with wut happens

I am not gonna start till monday because it says that u should consult a physician before you start any exercise program so I hoping I can get an appointment tomorrow. I am also starting with the learn & burn so i dont pass out, haha. Anyways, I will let u know how the doctor goes, etc.

Heather