Hi, everyone. I came here once and left soon after due to my father passing and some much needed arrangements. I just wanted to come back and tell you a little about myself. Also, if you have anything you could share with me, I'd appreciate it. I really need to be in a cohesive group of gals instead of just floating willy nilly around the planet.
I am Beth. 34. A mother of two children, a girl and a boy, ages 12 and 11.
I used to be a runner, die hard runner. I ran races and miles and miles every day. I had to lose weight just to do it and then I let it all go. It is what I am working for again. I recently purchased a treadmill (expected arrival date is October 26th) to help me with that goal.
Although I have lost weight a few times, this time I can't seem to do anything and stick with it. I have never been so flighty in my life. I want to lose the weight, I need to lose the weight, and then, "Oooo, Taco Bell." I hope that makes sense.
I realize losing weight is an emotional ordeal. I don't think it's about the food. My marriage is solid, but has many ups and downs, which are tied to my husband's bi-polar disorder. I believe I have shut off emotionally to be able to keep even when he is not. I believe I started wanting to lose weight again after I realized I couldn't change him or really help him. I have to help myself. I have to value myself enough to make myself a priority or no one else will.
So, here I am! I hope you will accept me back ... again! Even if I'm not doing well, I'm not bailing out.