~curvy Vixen #5~
 

We are the Curvy Vixens!!!! Why? Because we aim to have our curves in the right places--and according the dictionary a Vixen is a female fox! Remember the 80's? A fox is a good thing!!!! :lol:

Please feel free to join in and chat with this lovely group of ladies! :grouphug:

WELL..My phone calls are done!! I did alot of cleaning. The laundry is endless thou. I wonder how many calories I burned???

Finally...a new thread.

Things are good here. Just picked Nic up from work. Stayed on the plan all day long. I bought some gorgeous flowers today...bird of paradise, heliconia, roses. Thats about it. I got out for a little while today. Im dreading doing the grocery shopping tomorrow. Gotta stock up on lean cuisines. I just know all the people at the store can tell that we dont cook.

Ok, will post later...

Love,
Deanne

Hi ladies,

It's been a busy couple of days. I took my daughter (Alexa) and her friends to "cosmic bowling" on Saturday for her b-day. It was fun. Then most of yesterday I helped my other daughter (Jessica) finish up a science fair project. She did it on "Are cats predominantly left or right-pawed?". She had a lot of fun with it. I think it turned out great. I hope she gets picked by one of the judges and possibly gets rewarded for all her effort. Last year Alexa got picked, and won 4th place for all of her 4th grade. And honestly, Alexa is the kind of kid who tends to win or do well in many things. And poor Jessica knows that she doesn't always do as well, despite her best efforts. But I really think it turned out great--and would love for her to feel good about it. I think she does already feel good--but getting picked by a judge would make her feel really special. Although, I told her that no matter what it is great.

Anyway...this is my last week at my old job. The week started out the same as always--but I know by the end of the week I will be a little emotional to say goodbye to some of the people, especially one lady who is like a sister to me. But at the same time, today the management was talking about the layoffs again and only being safe through December. So that tells me that this is the right time for me to move on.

Hope you are all having a happy and healthy day!

Hi everyone! I am home for a nights sleep before I go back to the hospital with my dad. I am glad goddess kim is keeping you all informed. He is improving, but he has had
the crap scared out of us. He told me last night he couldn't keep going and that the good Lord was going to take him this time. That is NOT my dad! I have cried till my eyes are literally dry. He was pretty much to himself today and we can't seem to make him understand what happened to him. He is so scared. I am going back in the morning and spending the next couple of nights with him as my mom in law will be here with my kids. My friend picked the up at school today and came home and got them in bed. My hubby had to go back to work today, so we are doing what we can. I am living on a few hours sleep a day and it is killing me. Needless to say my diet is non existant now. I will get back on track eventually and I am SOOOOO looking forward to mine and Kims walks again! It is just so hard to stay on something when you are not eating many meals at home. The church has sent food, but it is not diet friendly. I am just thrilled to be getting it and not having to worry about it. I am depressed that my diet went to **** in a handbasket, but I will have to make myself get back later.
I am going to bed now. I am totally exhausted. Just wanted to say HI and that I miss you all. Thanks for your prayers and thoughts. I will be back ASAP!

Hey chicks...

Karen- That science project sounds so cute! Oh and when do you start your new job? Are you excited?

Kim- Its so great to hear from you! Im so sorry that you have had to go through this. Dont even worry about your diet right now...you can get back on it anytime you want. For now, concentrate on your dad. We miss you!

Lets see...I took my effexor last night to see how I would do with it at night. Not good. I was restless all night. So, I slept in for a little while this morning. Im having watermelon and sugar free redbull for breakfast. Ok, thats it for now.

Love,
D

(((Kim))) hugs to you. I hope everything is ok with your dad!

Karen- good luck with your last week of work. I left my job last June ( I can't believe it is a year I'm home now) My mother had a stroke and Heather was suffering with migranes. There were so many doctor visits and I had so much stress it was best I leave for my own sanity. I cried my last day. It wasn't the hospital I worked at that I'd miss it was my co workers. I worked with them for sooo long. I still miss them. I do keep in touch with a few and have gone out for breakfast and dinners. My suggestion is to get a small phone book and have each co worker write their phone and address so you have it as a keep sake.

Deanne- lately I loath grocery shopping. I see everything I want to eat!! Make sure you eat before you go!

I have to drive that hour drive to westchester for the urologist heather is seeing. I hate this drive. One hour of windy curvy roads. Then we are going shopping for a prom dress, her new bf has asked her to his senior prom.

Jamie is still very sick. She slept all day yesterday and her temp is 101. No word for the doctor as of yet....

post latah.. love ya vixens~

Hi gals, :wave:

I am exhausted and think I need to get to bed ASAP--but wanted to check in real quick. My daughter had her science fair tonight and won 4th place. She was so excited, and I was thrilled for her!

I am in a class now--and wish I wasn't with so much going on. But I didn't want to put it off because I have to do team assignments and am in a good group I can count on. I didn't want to risk taking a few weeks off and getting with a bad group. But it is a struggle to keep up with homework right now. Ugh! I have to stick with it, only 4 classes left!

Lynn--I would be worried sick if I was you with your daughter being sick so long. I am sure you are. Did you ever get any kind of clue as to what is wrong with her? I hope she starts to feel better soon!

Deanne--Are you back on track now that hubby is back at work? How is the new kitty? I like sugar free red-bull too! Good energy drink!

Kim--I can only imagine how hard it must be for you with your father being sick. It is terribly hard when our loved ones are hurting and we feel helpless to make things better. Hang in there and keep us posted!

Well gals, I am headed for bed now. I have been getting to bed way too late and that is gonna kill me! I need to get a good pattern going for the new job--starts May 23rd, this coming Monday. What shall I wear on my big day? That has already crossed my mind. First impressions you know! I want to look and feel as good as I can that day. It will be like being the new kid at school. So much to think about!

G'nite ladies!

Hey girls...

Karen- Im sure you'll do great on your first day. Find the outfit that you feel most confident in. Oh and yes Im back on track...FINALLY.

Lynn- Wow, you are just go go go. It seems like you're in and out of doctors all the time. Sounds stressful. I hope you're doing ok. Hows weight watchers going? My online payment is due soon. I can't decide if I just want to do WW at home or keep up with WW online. I have the stuff that Kim sent me so I could do it at home. What do you think?

Ok, Nic and I had chilis last night but I was good. Salad, plain mashed potatoes. Ok, I got a call back from Ritz Carlton about a job. Problem is, they dont pay much. They order all of their laborers from the Phillipines and Nepal so its cheaper labor. U.S. pay is higher. Anyway, they will give me a housing allowance and transportation allowance since Ill stay with Nic rather than at their compound. If I got a job with ITT on the base, they pay about $15-$20 an hour PLUS sign on bonus, end of contract bonus, trans. allowance, housing allowance, and per diem(about $900 per month). Thats ALOT of money considering that Im only 21. I think that it would be a better job with ITT. Ok, blah blah blah.

Im going to eat...

Love,
Deanne

ok after fighting with this site i finally found you guys. It wouldnt refresh and show me the new thread.. arrrggghhh.. sometimes technology is a pain in the ***.
Things are plugging right along here. I've been sorta helping my hubby build stuff upstairs.. we're finishing out an expanable area.. actually its 2 rooms and 2 hallways, but we havent gotten the flooring down yet so there isnt much i can do really. He's putting in braces and what not in the rafters so the new walls will have support under them once he gets to the framing point. All sounds greek to me, but he knows what he's doing. It'll give the kids a media room to hang out in so they are excited about not getting fussed at over messing up my living room so much lol. Today i get to help carry 4x8 sheets of 3/4inch plywood up stairs.. woo hoooo.. lol sounds fun NOT...
Hope everyone is doing well.. and congrats to those that posted losses..
Lynn, I hope your daughter is feeling better soon. I stress with sick kids.. i feel so helpless and Mommies are supposed to make it all better you know.. sigh..makes you wish you could fix it all for them

Hey Kim....I was wondering what year the ww stuff is from? Oh and Im putting that thing in the mail tomorrow. Sorry its taken so long. When Nic was off of work, I stayed as far away from that base as possible.

I have epilepsy and I remember my mom being so upset because she couldnt do anything about it. I can only imagine how Moms feel when their child is sick.

Love,
Deanne

The weight watchers books are from last year.. I went back in January and they were still selling the same books so they are pretty much current. They added a little booklet about the second plan they have.. the core plan i think its called, but i didnt keep that since i had no plans on using that one..and dont worry about not sending that out.. i avoid the post office as much as possible lol.. i understand

The post office here isnt the problem...its the army perverts :) Oh and my husbands coworker perverts...

Where is everyone? Kery, Jessica???

Oh i remember those guys. lol When my hubby was an E6 in the Army his soldiers used to hit on me right in front of him at the bars...it was just stupid. They would pay dearly at work the next day but it never stopped them. Military guys all think with their little heads.. like I would EVER cheat on Dan ... let alone with a guy that worked for him.. lol I actually had one guy say he would only hook up with married women because they wouldnt be looking for a commitment from him..

Hey Ladies, i have'nt been on in a while. I have just been off the wagon and struggling to get back on, its like at times is it worth it, or am i worth it. I just cant get my state of mind back to wanting to loose and keep it off. I have been eating out, and eating horrible things. I have even looked into diet pills. I have done them before but didnt want to get on them because i know the weight wouldnt stay off if i do that. I just need help. I need a buddy to keep me on track. I have also been stressing about trying to get another job. I have interviewed for this one and i am one of the top 2 they are looking at, so i will find out the end of this week or begining of next. i really hope i get it, its a little more money and so much closer to my house, which would help with gas. ok well i hope i didnt make all of you down. I think i just need to get back with posting on a regular basis. well talk to you all later, Love you.

Jessica :?:

Just a quick post..
Jamie went to the doctor today, still high fever.. she wants more blood work. She wants her to see an infectious disease specialist...

Yesterday, I bought heathers prom dress. ( her bf is a senior). I'm so tired... all I do is run and go nuts.. if I had to work I'd be in a straight jacket.. off to the lab for blood..
post later..

ohhh what does her dress look like??? I'm just so curious lol.. my sister in law bought her daughter a prom dress.. i was appalled at what and how much she spent..450bucks on a dress for a 17 yr old and it is WAY low cut in the front and the back.. but sigh.. i'm just the uptight aunt...

Hey girls...

Jessica- Im glad you posted. Ive noticed that when I fall off the wagon, it helps to post to y'all. Getting back on the wagon is a slow process to me. I usually cant just say, "Ok, Im back". It usually takes a week for me to get back totally. After eating huge portions when Im off the wagon, I have to get my stomach back to eating normal portions. Anyway, Jessica it just takes a little while. Be patient and keep trying. I need a buddy too. I need someone that is on the internet daily. Someone that I can post my points and everything with. Are you just counting calories or are you on a plan?

Lynn- Im so sorry you have to go through all of this with Jamie. Im sorry for her too. I feel so bad that y'all are having to deal with all of that. Keep us posted, ok? How is everything else with you?

Kim- How are you doin? Hows the plan?

My effexor tastes so awful that I have to take it with something other than water. Usually go with diet coke because its zero points. I didnt have any this morning so I had to take it with milk. It was 2 points for a half of a cup. Ugh...it irritates me to have to waste points on that. So, for breakfast, Im just going to have an apple.

Ok Ill post later...

Love,
Deanne

My plan is chugging right along.. of course i have slip up here and there.. like the jelly beans.. jelly belly jelly beans to be exact i had probably a dozen of them so it wasnt a huge deal..I think my weight loss is starting to slow down..not that that is a terrible thing, i'm just noticing there is a difference.

This thread is sloooowwww.

I am really feeling like I need someone to be accountable to. I wish that there were WW meetings here or that there was someone here that was doing WW too.

Im in this weird mood today. I dont know what it is. I feel like I need to get out of this country for some reason. I need something. Maybe its that Im so used to change and since there isnt any change going on, I feel deprived. Nic and I are planning a 2 day trip to Bahrain(i used to live there) for our anniversary, maybe that will help me.

I have a very hard time differentiating between just being down and being depressed as a result of being bipolar. I dont know if what Im feeling right now is just the good ol' blues or flat out depressed. Im not trying to bum anyone out. Im sorry. Just needed to vent. I dont know how to handle myself sometimes.

I did blow my diet today. I think Ill be ok though. Nothing major. Like I said to Jessica earlier, it takes a while to get totally back on the wagon. Im going to keep posting to y'all so that I can have some accountability :)

Ok, Ill post later tonight...

Love,
Deanne

Hi Vixens,

I am busy cleaning out my desk--and have a lot of crap to dig through after 5 years at my job! Oh what fun! Today the office took me out to lunch. A lot of people came--like 25 or something. I was surprised! We had a festive lunch at a local Mexian restaurant. They gave me a card and a 50 bucks as a parting gift. That was really nice. I will check back more later...gotta get my desk clean! :D

While I was cleaning out some files I came across something I wrote for a Critical Thinking class a while back. I thought you may like to read it...so here it is:

LIFE, AS I SEE IT...

Life is like a roller coaster ride.

Some days are up like the mountains.

Some days are down like the valleys.

Some days seem to pass faster than a locomotive,

While other days seem to go as slow go as a snail.

As a child, life seemed like one big amusement park ride,

full of fun and wonder, not worrying about much more than the moment I was living in.

Now as an adult life seems more like work, as all of life's responsibilities fall on my shoulders.

House payments, bills, medical appointments, being on time-all the big hurdles that I must face everyday.

When will I find time to play and ride the roller coaster ride again?

Certainly not today, I have deadlines to meet, things to worry about in this black hole we call life.

How do I ever manage to be an optimist? I continue to look at life, as though my glass is half full.

But everyday I face a new dilemma, another hurdle to jump over-another problem shows itself to me.

I check problems off my 'to do' list--I just got my oil changed and the car is ready to roll again. My life is in check once again! Every day, a vicious cycle-the cycle of responsibility that comes with growing up. I no longer ride that roller coaster ride. Although some days I get to pop my head out of the valley and momentarily ride an old ride. The momentarily thrill of being a kid comes rushing back to me all over again...I can feel the excitement rush through my veins, as the wind sweeps through my hair and carries me briskly on the carefree track again. Perhaps all I have done is grab a happy hour cocktail, but those few minutes in the span of a day I am on that roller coaster ride-laughing and feeling like a kid at heart. Perhaps therein lies the reality-to ride the roller coaster ride and be at the top for a few minutes is what it's all about for me. This is where I find my smile again, on the top of the ride-looking down and grinning from ear to ear.

http://idealclothing.net/item.php?id=1891
this is here dress..
sorry for the quick reply.. today is heather's birthday and we are scooting out for dinner.
Deanne~ I'd like to say that I too have a hard to comparing my depression to just feeling down or the real thing. Keep your chin up.. sorry guys. I have been so busy... I will post more.... latah.
love you all..
love
lynn

wow.. I'm the last to post yesterday!!

My eating has not been good at all. I think I gained. I'm suppose to weigh in today and I know I can't. I'm pre menstral also... crampy, bloated.. etc...
Jamie's throat is very swollen and she can't get the antibiotics down. She is cutting it into tiny lil peices.

Heather wanted to eat at friendlies last night for her birthday, that place is deadly for me. I had grilled cheese, fries, a large sundae. I'm still stuffed.
I am going to walk this am, but I really dont want to..... I have to take her to the doctor later and I have a hair appt at 2p.

I'm still on 25mg of zoloft. Everytime I go lower I get anxious, headaches and dizziness. The pharmacist said that is very common. Takes a few days for you to adjust to the lower dose. I have no time right now to be dizzy.
I will post latah...

Hey Lynn...I feel for Jamie, I really do. I can't imagine feeling that bad. I hope she starts feeling better soon.

You quit taking zoloft and then had to get back on it, right? When I quit taking it, I got the dizziness really bad. As of right now Im glad to be off of it. I think it may have actually made things worse for me. Ive taken it at 2 different points in my life. One time it worked great, the other it didnt. Its weird how medicines effect different people. I do like the effexor though.

I seem to be in a funk right now...I cant stand to leave the room. Im not eating like I should at all. Depression sucks. Nic and I went to Chilis last night and I actually cried in there when I was telling him what was wrong with me. I feel like I need some accountability. BAD. I need a kick in the ***.

Anyway, Im going to get dressed and maybe go do something. Try to lift my spirits :)

Love,
Deanne

((deanne)) here's a great big hug for ya! I know how you feel, trust me, many a time I cried to Jim about this and that, sometimes just nonsense that was bothering me in a down time. I grew up in a very abusive household. On the outside everyone thought we were perfect. We had a new bike for christmas each year and my parents had us dressed like the catalogs in JC Penney. Everything matched. We were physically and mentally and verbally abused. My brother chose drugs to deal with his garbage, I chose food. I have forgiven my parents, as they had their own issues to deal with and never dealt with them, but it took a lot of therapy to do that.

I've been weaning of zoloft for a while now. Every time I go down to 12.5mg... I get sooo dizzy.... I have tried all the rest of the anitdepressants, zoloft is the lesser of the evils. Wellbutrin was the worse...

Lynn...I feel so selfish for whining about nonsense. I have not had anything really bad happen to me in my life. Im sorry for whining as if i have. Your story opened my eyes to see that I should be very thankful. You're an amazing woman to have dealt with things the way you have. Thank you for the kick in the *** :)

Wellbutrin was given to me by a doctor who talked to me for 5 minutes. Little did I know, you are not supposed to take it if you have had a history of seizures. It was **** to get off of.

Lynn, thanks for being here for me! I have made a vow to get off of my *** tomorrow. Im going to get up early and do the grocery shopping. It always gives me a boost to go shopping and be smart about it. For some reason, its motivating. We HAVE to get up early to go to immigration. So, tomorrow will be the perfect day to force myself to get out of the house.

Love,
Deanne

WOW...where in the world is everyone?

hi deanne ( hugz)
I didn't tell you my story so you can stop whining!! I wanted you to know my history alil bit... :) You can whine all you want.. in fact.. whining is good for the soul :)

I have so much to do around here.. it is noon and all I have done is put a load of laundry on. Jamie is sprawled out in the family room, it is a diaster in there, cups, plates... I'm leaving her be as she is still sick. I took a flash light and looked in her throat, OMG, it is sooo gross. There are large pus pockets ( sorry to gross you out). I had her gargle with peroxide and it didnt' seem to do anything. I'm going to call the doctor back on Monday. The good news is her fever broke.

I made a menu out this am for my food for the day. I feel if I write it down, I stick to it, then I cross it off....

LOL...Im going to whine about how no one is posting!!

how are you today?

Deanne, are you taking anything for your seizures? dilantin? Are you activally having seizures? or had them in the past???

I know where is everyone??????????????

I havent had a seizure in years. So, I dont take anything anymore. I used to take depakote. Anyway, I dont know where the **** everyone is. I miss talking to everyone!!

Love,
Deanne

I'm glad you haven't had any seizures that is scary...
well it is the weekend and everyone is out and about.... what are you plans for tonight??

well, Nic just called and asked if I wanted to go out. So, I guess we're going out. This shift ends next week. So, he wont be able to go out much for 2 months. I wouldnt mind a beer anyway. What are your plans?

I'm renting a few movies tonight... staying home... Heather's new bf is coming over. .. have to stay here and monitor :)....LOL
I'm off to clean and shower.. and grocery shop... be well... and email me... love ya...

that doesnt sound too bad...have fun!! Ill talk to you later :)

love ya
Deanne

Hi y'all,

I have been so overwhelmed between my last day of work, getting ready for the new job and my class assignments! Leaving work on Friday was tough. I really won't miss the work, but I will miss some of my coworkers--especially one friend I grew really close to. I know I will miss seeing her every day--we always made each other laugh. But life goes on--and I know moving on is the best thing for so many reasons.

Anyway, I did something huge today--I decided to join Jenny Craig. I was just so tired of myself--and feeling like I needed to give something different a try. I have joined WW at least 4 times, so I feel like I just can't make that work for me. Granted, I think its a great plan. But Jenny Craig is more one on one with a consultant--and you start out eating there food (so I won't be having to think so much about what should I eat right now). Then after you lose half the weight you start incorporating other foods...although I do include things like fruits, veggies, yogart, crackers, peanuts and milk that are not in their foods. They have a lot of tasty foods on their menu that I brought home with me--including a cheesecake and chocolate cake dessert. Sounds like my kind of diet! Ha ha. And if you have plans for an outing you can plan for that...so it's not like you can never go out to eat on the plan--they include a dining out guide to help with that. Anyway, I am excited--and just going to take it one day at a time.

Deanne--I hope you are feeling better and out of your funk. I know how you feel. I was feeling rather funky Friday after the day I had--shed a few tears about a lot of stuff on my mind. Just know you are not alone!

Lynn--I peeked at your daugthers dress at the link you posted. That is some dress! It is crazy how expensive dresses are. I think I read in a magazine recently that the average prom dress is $250. That is insane to me! I sure don't remember spending that kind of money on a prom dress--and didn't go in a limo either. Oh well...kids are spoiled more and more all the time. How is Jamie? I can't believe she is still sick! How long has it been? I would be worried sick! I hope she gets better soon!

Well, I am going to go do some cleaning...that just never ends!

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