My mom decided to scare us and visited the emergency room last night. She had a stoke a few years ago and since then she occasionally has seziures. This sounds like it was not a full blown one, her care taker was being precaucious, which I am grateful for. Anyway, she was only there for a few hours and they sent her home. Today she seems to be fine. We'll visit her later.
Yesterday was not a great diet day, because I did some stress eating. . But I did go to the store and I resisted the beer. Milestone. Although I could have really used one last night. I'm going to check out cool runners too.
Got to run & pick up my son from school. Later!

Tanzie, jolly, Apple, hi there. Trying to decide whether to get to the stable of stay home and do the piles of work. I need some time to regroup, I think, think about how I'm going to try to move toward my goals.

Apple, I hope your mother is OK and that this was nothing. My father had a heart attack just a week or so ago, the same thing, only in the hospital a day, tests showed no need for surgery, scary though and it reminds us all of our mortality. Live while you're here. Enjoy the people you know in your life while you can.

Take care, all!

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Hi guys!
What a busy day I had. We now officially own our own business. I went to the state house in NH (Concord) today and filed all the necessary paperwork, and paid fees. I met my mom and dad for lunch today as they were in Concord to see a doctor, and dad is going to be started on radiation therapy. I've been eating, haven't been journalling and have been kind of a mess, to be honest. So much has been going on.
But, tomorrow is my ww meeting and I am going. I think I might do a no weigh in pass as I think the scale would only depress me. I'm going to start over tomorrow and just figure this past 5 days or so is one of those times for me. I hate saying this to you all again, seems like I am always starting over, but at least I am not giving up - I'm truly not. Just took a bit of a diversion.
On top of this, my brother in law has been in remission for Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma and he had another biopsy done today and they think it's come back on him. Not a fun situation. One of my good friends was diagnosed with bone cancer (same kind my dad has) but in her spine the day before my dad last week. What is this? I feel like I am swimming in a "sea of cancer" and it's really not fun at all.
At least the new business is a positive thing for us, but stressful. Bad timing.
So, where does leave me, kind of an emotional wreck. It leads me to the refrigerator and dining establishments, which is not a good thing. I ate out a few times, I had french fries and ice cream. I just "crashed" and had all the stuff that I knew I shouldn't be having. Today was better, it's almost dinner time and I have not blown it as badly as I have since Friday, but it's not a letter perfect day, either.
BUT, having all these people around me with cancer is really something to think about. Do any of us want to be the ones with this next? Taking care of ourselves in terms of eating and exercising is so important, isn't it? Don't give up guys, I'm not giving up either. Lower that fat content, eat the frozen yoghurt instead of the ice cream, have mashed potatoes instead of fries. We all can do this, even if I didn't over the weekend. I have just got to gain control.
So, guys, I'm here. I've not had time to read all your posts from the last few days, so don't know where you all stand, but wanted to give a full update here. Forgive me for not keeping up. I know you all understand.
I did, at least, spend 20 minutes on the treadmill this morning. I really fought with myself before I did and I almost didnt do it. I even said to my husband "would you love me still is I was 300 pounds?". He raised his eyebrows and didn't answer me.... that alone sent me straight to the treadmill!
Trying again, and again, and again,
Linda
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Sorry to hear about the worries with so many of the family members here on the thread. Blessings and good health to all. Sometimes I feel it's a not so gentle reminder to all of us not to take things for granted. It's so easy to get caught up in the insignificant things and ignore the stuff that really matters. So tomorrow focus on one thing that really matters in your life...

Hello all! I agree with many of you, that life throws us these curvbes to remind us to live, enjoy,each moment and not take each other and the blessings we do have for granted.

Here's to us!

Today was the first day of the "official" Couch-to-5k program. It went well. Calves were sore, which is to be expected. But I made it through.

Finally starting to feel almost like me again. Starting.

Have an interview with another recruiter tomorrow. Hopefully it will get me some work.

Good luck Raven!

I think the hard part about all these challenges we are facing is keeping ourselves in the present. I have this wonderful little baby who will be ONE next month and time is going by so quickly!! I want to enjoy him in the here and now. It's hard when other circumstances force you to live too much in the future. Weight loss is like that too. we imagine our new and improved selves while we are stuggling with the present "shape", and get frustrated when our goals are difficult and SLOW. Lets be happy with our progress today and tomorrow will be better!
Spending so much time with my mother and my husbands parents too make me worried about growing old. It's obvious with all 3 of them what has worked for them and what hasn't. Staying active is the most important I think. Use it or lose it. Including your brain.
Anyway. I read and article about sugar last night. Sugar has never been something I have worried much about. I still don't. BUT I didn't realize that one scoop of ice cream has 7 teaspoons of sugar!! Whoa! I'm still eating ice cream but that fact alone should keep me from pigging out on scoop 2 and 3.....
See ya later....

Good morning everyone. Just a quick post before I head to the gym. It is hard to feel motivated today. Yesterday was supposed to be a jogging day. However, I woke up to a cold rain - and I am not THAT devoted. I had set the alarm for later too, since I had worked the night before, and did not have time to hit the gym. This morning I am just sooooo tired. But I know I need to go.

On a good note, Justin got his stitches out last night, and the vet thinks all is looking good. Hurray! He is really moving well on three legs, and hopefully I can walk the two of them together soon.

I have been suffering from very frequent acid reflux again. I have been careful with the nighttime eating, so I know it is stress. I guess in large part what you said about living inthe present, Apple. I tend to worry so much about what I should have done, or what might happen, that I make myself have extra stress. I need to focus more on the now.

Enough for now. have a great day all

heh jolly, hope you feel better. really glad to hear justin is doing well. just wanted to jump in and say hi!

Heh. Jolly, my present causes me enough stress. Adding past and future would probably just make me keel over on the spot.

Have that interview with the recruiter this morning. I keep thinking about her "dress professionally" comment, and mentally going over my lack of "professional" clothing. It just seems like we are judged so much more on our appearance than we are on our actual accomplishments and/or skills in this pathological society of ours. Put me and my 20 years of experience next to a young, slender, polished woman just out of school, and guess who gets the job? *sigh* Ohwell. There's that positive attitude of mine showing again!

Today after the interview I would like to do some pilates. I'm trying really hard not to focus on the scale. I just want to get into the habit of working out again. One thing at a time.

raven. "present causes me enough stress"!!! hear, hear!
oh, you bet, dressing is big. you've got to look the part, unless you have tons of money! then you can look any way you like! so, did you not get the job?

oh, raven, misread that, you still HAVE the interview. well, good luck!

Hey all. Good morning, part two. Well, I did not, in fact, get my lazy rear to the gym. I am going to set the alarm a little later tomorrow ( I work tonight), and do the run I missed Tuesday. I WILL get it right. My dog is doing really well, Red. Thanks. I also emailed my missing friend again, and apologized again, and hope she will start speaking to me. We shall see.

Good luck with the interview, Raven. I hope you get what you are looking for.

Well, all I'm looking for now is some form of income to keep myself going so I can feed my kids, my horses, and keep training as a hoofcare specialist.

*shrug* It was just an interview with a recruiter, just the kind that make you feel horribly inadequate.

I'm so glad to hear Justin is doing better, Jolly.

Thanks Red .. how is YOUR present doing?

Good morning. I ate well for the past two days! Hurrah, Hurrah, ton of exercise Tuesday, just walking yesterday. Am going to learn to schedule in down days! You can do it, jolly. You are awewsome! Rave, ALWAYS focus on what you DID, what you CAN do, never on your inadequacies, except perhaps as a tiny mental note to sometime do some work in that area, if it is at all a factor. Remember, if you think of inadequacies your energy will be down and dull. Think of you at your best and THAT will come through, they don't have to know you're thinking about horses's hooves or something! You'll just carry yourself through well and that will win them over! Gotta run now. Try to write more later, I will. Ciao!