Mike finally took Gaby at 2:00 pm, he was late to the park. I had left at 11:25 and I guess he arrived 10/15 minutes later.
We agreed on 11:00.
So, we meet at Burger King and he is in the back parking lot. I pull up and can see Gaby starting to smile.
She knows her father.
I got her out of the car and she let him hung her- she pointed to Burger King and said "play".
Mike said he didn't have any money for that.
By now I am exhausted and didn;t offer any money. So we load her things over to his pick up.
She starts to cry and cling to my leg. I put her in the carseat and said that I loved her, that she is going to the beach and will have fun.
She covers her eyes with her hands and cries.
Mike picks up a thick pocket book and says he is reading it. I couldn't see the title, but said "thats nice."
He said it is about self esteem.
I just say "oh good".

Why he is telling me this I don't know. He said he had to get back to the coast by 3:00 pm which gives him an hour to drive 90 miles.

I just watch them leave and she is looking out the window looking in my direction.

Miss her tonight.

I did talk with an old friend, so that was nice.

Poppin in for a minute before I go off to bed.

Got tons on laundry done and did some shopping for things we needed at Wally world.

Sorry I haven't been on here posting, just been busy. I went to see my grandpa today to visit and see if I could borrow a suitcase...he was busy working on the house trailor next door for my sisters in-laws...they plan on moving there for a few months....or longer have no idea how long. Would be good I suppose, but I'm not a big fan of my BIL family. They are a close family and aren't really into outsiders...at least that's how I see it.

I did get to visit my sister though. Seen little Lucas...smiling up a storm! So cute.

I'm going to be really busy before I leave Monday so I may not have time to post...but I will try to.

I'm off to bed.

Night all!

The trials and tribulations with my sister are at a end. She passed friday night in her sleep at the nursing home. I had seen her that afternoon and though she couldn't respond I still sat there for about an hour before saying goodbye . A friend who also knew her is going to go with me to spread her ashes. I have desided that we'll drive along the Pacific Coast Highway till we find a suitable turn out and say a final fair well there. It's a spectacular drive,as I remember, and I'm sure there'll be some place suitable.

I'd thought the dieting was a desaster but somehow I actually lost another 3 lbs. Don't ask me when.

Feeling blue. I knew this would happon and am thankfull her suffering has ended but miss knowing she's in the world and all the regrets of a life she could of had but missed out on. So sad. So much lost.

Dear Pam
I am so sorry to hear about your sisters passing, finally she is free of her tortured life and pain, it is sad that her life was so sad and such a loss , hopefully now she is truly at peace, I know that you miss having her in the world with you, all my thoughts and prayers are with you, You were a wonderful sister, and you did all you could do,and I am sure inside her heart she knew that ,((((HUGS TO YOU EDDIE AND FAMILY)))

Hi ladies,

Pam - so sorry about your sister. I'm so glad your friend is going to help you with things. (((HUGS))) to you!

Marti - Have fun!!!!!!!

Susan - aww, so sorry it was hard leaving Gaby. Sweet little thing!! I don't know what else to say......

A big hello to the others....