Hi grass! Still have my computer on. Thanks for the advice on the jerk boss. I didn't mean to just address it to NBK. It's just that she was just on another thread so I thought she was out there listening and we had talked about it a little in a PM. But yeah, I did here too. This was the guy with whom I'd been friends for over 15 years and who, as far as I see it, decided to act like a pr!ck and pull the rug out from under me workwise in order to keep himself looking good for his retirement package. So sad. So like him really. He is incredibly stubborn and in stupid ways. I'm always the one that will make the first move in a standoff, a cold war. Always the one to try to restore ties so to speak, and more often than not, I really don't see myself as the one that started the whole thing. I guess, it just has to be the "bigger" one who does such. He may not even be there today. But I will see. A lot depends on my mood and circumstance. If we meet in the hall or something I'll probably say something. I don't think I'm going to go out of my way to make him feel good. I did enough of that!

Oh grass, you didn't say anything about the meg ryan messy cut. I love that cut though I can't say as much for Meg Ryan. In fact, though I used to like here, there is something about her these days that is so incongruous with that cute, boyish cut that it really makes me dislike her more. The cut is so innocent, tomboyish, fun-loving and forgiving. But I see her as a very conniving type, very calculating and ready to stick you if she doesn't get her way. But you go for it. I don't know what you look like but it sounds like it would fit your personality!

very conniving type, very calculating and ready to stick you if she doesn't get her way?

wow - no one has ever said those things about me before haha!! Just kidding - I know what you meant. I'm going Saturday. I'm a little nervous. This is the shortest i've ever had my hair and if they screw it up I don't have far to go before I'm shiny bald

Good luck with the boss. Business is such a nasty business!! It brings out the worst in some people!! I hope things work out.

Talk to you soon. I've made it to 8:30 without snacking. I'm not hungry - just bored.

Grass, I was talking about Meg Ryan!!

Red- sorry to dissappear, had to go hang out at home and wait for the glazier to come and fix my window.. damn it's hot. lol.

LGH - cheers! YOu have a friend called "short messy bob" AND he's coming up to see you.. as well as you getting a hair cut? Awesome.

I don't like meg ryan either. I think she simpers on screen and I hate that. but that's just me. I don't find brad pitt attractive either (Shoot me now, I know)... he he

OOh yah picked up my tickets for the trip today.. woo hoo...not long now!

Oh yeah red.. why not say, in a really loud voice, so everyone can hear
"happy birthday! You must be really looking forward to retiring this year, now you're XX years!" ha ha ha then say, you know you look so much older...

ok that's the b!tch in me coming out..

That could be good, NBK. He's not here today though. Probably taking the day off to cry or something. He's 57. I, total *****, was going to say to him, "How old are you? Was it 67 or 66?" And when he said, "I'm only 57" I would say, "No way, you look MUCH older!!"

And he's real sensitive about "getting older." . . . I think my soft spot has definitely diminished.

Just a quick good night before bedtime-
little- good luck with the haircut- good for you! Sometimes change can be a good thing. Are you going to do the scene from When Harry Met Sally once it is cut? I think you should take your bf out and reenact it. I have to confess- I have done that scene- with a blind date that was being a total jerk! He left me at the restaraunt.
*******..anyway..

Red- I did the ritual at work and some of my fellow workers joined in- management thinks I am crazy but what is new there?
I ended up saying :


To the old, long life and treasure,
To the young, all health and pleasure;
To the fair, their face
With eternal grace,
And the foul to be lov'd at leisure.
To the witty, all clear mirrors,
To the foolish, their dark errors;
To the loving sprite,
A secure delight;
To the jealous, his own false terrors
-Ben Jonson

It seemed right for the occasion- it was fun!
Anyway- glad you told me about it.

As for work and all the politics that it involves- I know it is too late now but I say:

"Work is a necessity for man. Man invented the alarm clock."
-Pablo Picasso

I do say suck it up and say Happy Bday- I am betting that will make him feel worse than ignoring him because you are the one being the better person. It will probably spark feelings of guilt if he did you wrong.


NBK- I am sorry to hear about the blood disorder- hope you didn't mind me asking. Are they giving you B12 shots or something now to make it better? I know it has to be hard not having a lot of energy. Hope I wasnt too nosey- just worry when I hear one of you is sick or hurting in some way. The mother hen in me I suppose.

Okay- well I am out of time- need to sleep. Early day tomorrow and I work all day. After that I have a dinner meeting and then a later meeting. I should finally make it home around 9 o 10pm unless my last meeting gets out early and I can get to church tomorrow night- then it will be more like 11. Okay- I am sure you will all sleep better knowing my schedule.
Have a great night everyone!

CG- no problem. I am pretty open about things. No issue talking about my mutantness. now if only I could be as ripped as wolverine! hmmmm hmmm wolverine...

well have a great weekend! I'll try to check in sometime
Take care
Tiff

Good morning guys! Red - I knew what you meant I was just having fun with you. I'm not a big Meg Ryan fan either, except for her short hair cuts. I think she plays the cutsie role very well but she has a hard time breaking out of that role and me believing her. I also wonder if that's really who she is...doesn't seem that way. But who am I to know?? Stars get both ends of the public life drama - like it or not....we get the wrong impression of them so many times...both good and bad.

I am officially throwing my scales away. I go on vacation and lose weight only to come home and gain it right back??????? I weighed myself the first and second morning of my return and I was a solid 135 now I'm right back up to the weight I was at before vacation 137-141. Go figure. I guess I'll just keep plugging away and see where I land. I'm eating well and will start walking again this weekend. We'll just have to see where that takes me.

Talk to you guys soon! Meri

Hi there everyone! It's Saturday morning here and I have just a couple minutes to get ready and out. Another late night last night. Ugh. Shouldn't have done this. Sometimes I think though it's best if I sufficiently disgust myself with my behavior. It then serves as the final straw to really change things. That's the way I quit smoking. I was smoking from early morning, lighting my next cig with the last. It was so disgusting. I was out of work and full of anxiety but my own despicable behavior just made me go, "Enough!" and I stopped cold turkey, never went back and that was about 15 years ago. So, I'm thinking this stupid "socializing" with the guys at work has got to change. And it will. I had no fun last night. It was NOT worth it. The longer I hang with these people the more I will become like them. It's not the drinking that's the problem, it's the company I'm keeping. OK, I had tried to meet with others but of course because it's always a last minute thing with me people are usually busy. Anyhow, hope to catch up with you all later! Thanks Crime girl, for the horoscope yesterday. Just full of beans, aren't you?! Glad you did the bean-throwing thing at work. Certainly a a unique version of it.

Here's a photo of some children throwing beans. Did you look like this, Crime girl?

Red I'm completely disgusted at you!!! (did that help move things along any? If not, scratch that - you're a big girl. If you want to go party - go party...it's dealing with the results that's the disgusting and hard part for me!)

I read in my book today about how naturally thin people eat. They savor every bite, eat exactly what they "want" to eat (usually eat healthy so they actually crave healthy foods too - but will have the cake when they want it). It takes them 20-45 minutes to eat a meal because they take their time with each bite and enjoy the **** out of it - as if it were the most tasty thing on earth! They don't watch TV or drive or rush - they just enjoy their meals...and I'm writing like they're some extinct animal.....well they kind of are...anyway I decided to give it a try. I told BF what I really want for dinner we cooked it and then I relooked at my plate and decided I didn't really want one thing after all so I didn't eat it and then I ate really slowly and loved every single bite of my dinner. We turned off the TV and turned on the Jazz and just talked and ate. One of the best meals I've had in forever!!! I coudln't have bought that meal eating out!!!! I had grilled steak and a small salad with spring salad mix, avocado and peppers. Olive oil to dress and a tiny bit of spagetti squash. It still feels out of this world. I have a hint of a craving for ice cream but I'm full - completely full and I ate 2/3 what I normally eat. I left 1/3 of my small steak on the plate because I was FULL??????? I hope this works at every meal

Tomorrow is hair cut day - I'm getting excited. I hope I don't look like a dork when it's done. If I do - so what, it's not the stuff doesn't grow!

Talk to everyone soon! meri

Grass! I like it. I will enjoy your disgust of me! All right! Now I don't feel so bad.
I just like to party too much. Work hard, play hard. I think I need to do a little bit more work and then I'll feel happier about the partying.

Heh, that dinner sounded lovely. If you have the time to take, or can make it, you're right, this is the thing to do. I can't say I could ever leave anything on my plate. If I'm at home I'll just put what I want on the plate. I guess at restaurants I leave things though over here the portions are small.

Good luck with your cut. If you think you'll like it you probably will look good in it. I hope you're going to a good hairdresser. The cut really is everything with bobs. I always have a version of a long bob or medium bob I guess it is and I always pay a ton for a good cutter because I have seen how bad it can look, how boring and matronly, with a bad cut. But like you said, it'll grow out, so if you don't like it, don't sweat it.

Wow, it's really quiet on here lately! Where is evreryone - me included????

I have been catching up on sleep and BF and life since returning from vacation. Trying to avoid the fact that I lost weight on vacation and seem to have gained it back. I won't tell you all the profanity that brings to my lips!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGG I'm starting to think i'm just suppose to be this weight.....but I can't change the diet anyway, so I will just see where I land.

Do you guys know what I hate?? of course not! I hate it when I feel all nice and skinny and I get pictures back that say otherwise!! They say I look like humpty dumpty.

I did well with not cheating last night. I ate supper at 6:30 and didn't really need anything afterwards. I did have some detox powder which I probably shouldn't have had. It's sweet - so I was still feeding a craving....

Tomorrow we're going to a superbowl party and they are having a chili cookoff. I will eat some and just hope I don't get a sick stomach.

Hi everyone!
Wow- Little grasshopper you are right- it is quiet on the board lately. Okay- I will make more of an effort to get on here and see what is going on with everyone. Who is with me??

I have a busy weekend ahead of me- I have about 300-400 pages to read until I comprehend them, a thousand errands to run, a house to clean, and bills to pay. I need an assistant to run my life while I concentrate on finding a job for after graduation and getting through school. I may have to quit my job before I go insane. Sigh.

Red- thanks for the pic of the little girls throwing beans- I looked much goofier than that but I had a ton of fun. Everyone toasted the holiday and the little ceremony helped bring cohesion to my office. Everyone loves a celebration and there was tension on my floor- this little stunt got everyone talking about how weird I am so it had good purpose. This of course was only an afterthought for me. I did it because it sounded like fun!

Don't sweat going out with the "boys". A night of drinking is not going to kill you. If you think it is hindering weight loss- make a deal with yourself- if you go out drinking you owe yourself 30 more minutes of weight lifting for the next day. That should help balance things out. Also-a lot of the people that you see that look like they have their life together - don't. They may be able to work out and eat right but that doesn't mean that they are enjoying their life. For some people- this area is easier. It is probably easier for you to make friends and enjoy your life than most people. We get some good traits and habits and we create some bad ones too. It wouldn't hurt to hang out with someone who has the eating and exercise thing down but you sound like you have a good handle on things. I should hang out with you. You can't be perfect all the time and you shouldn't try to be-cut yourself some slack. You are only human. Have fun in your life. Okay off my soapbox.

Red's horoscope for the day:
Today you will take a step torward a bigger goal. You will have strength and determination of spirit. Don't get discouraged if it feels like it should be a bigger victory. It takes baby steps to get where you are going.

Little grass- when you get back from the haircut- get on and let us know how it turns out. I am sure it will be great. I also want to say that I think EVERYONE (even supermodels) don't like what they look like in photos. I have a really skinny best friend and she thinks she looks like a blimp in her pics. It is hard to be objective about yourself. I bet your photos are wonderful.
Sorry that your weight has been flucuating but I am sure it will come back down once you get back into the swing of things and maybe detox that bad stuff out. Be careful with the chili and don't make yourself sick but have fun at the party!

NBK- I am glad that you are okay- I know- I panic. Sorry to be so nosey.
wolverine huh? I just want his claws and ability to go postal. Are you talking about the comic books or the movie? Hmmm..I defintely dont want his hair or attitude though.

Okay happy campers. Where is everyone else- kjk?? michimesh? How about all you lurkers?? Speak up - we would love to talk to you.
I am out of here- need to kick my butt in gear and boogie. Maybe I could clone myself then I could get everything done. Hmmm....