Well ... HI There!!! I'm still really out of it today. As most of you know by now from the PMs, things are progressing nicely at this point.
I have to admit, my food and water and exercise have been of little concern to me for the last couple weeks. That doesn't mean I've been stuffing my face or anything, I just haven't given it much thought. This morning I was at 172, which is just fine. After everything going on these last couple weeks, I'm thrilled with that, and I'll take that as my weigh-in for the end of the month. Tomorrow I'll start the May thread, and re-evaluate my goals and set new ones. I did want to be down to 169, that was my stealth goal for the month, but... I lost my 5, even with everything that's been going on, so I can't complain. As a matter of fact, I'm quite tickled with that. I'm already feeling pretty good about the upcoming month. I know that I'll hit 167, which is the weight I was at when I moved down here so long ago. That is my reasonable 5 pound weight loss goal. I don't even really have a stealth goal for next month. The next really meaningful number will be 155, because that's the lowest I've been at since well before I was married, and I hit that here in GA when my boyfriend and I split up one summer. It was even my idea, and I needed to be alone with my kids to really think about my life and where I was heading. And I think in a lot of ways, that was the summer I finally started mourning my mother's death. So I just didn't eat. Very bad. I look at pictures of me back then and I wonder why I didn't look more slender. I looked just as fat back then as I am now - actually moreso. But the reason was because I lost muscle, not fat. I stayed fat and went down in weight. This time is different. This time I'll do it the right way. So I guess we'll just wait and see what the number is by the end of next month, and 5 is good, more is better, but... whatever happens happens. The one thing I do know is that the more I lose this month, the better a chance I stand of hitting 155 by the end of June. And that would be phenomenal.
Happy - I think it is incredible that you are continueing down that non-smoker's path. You are holding your own against some really tough stuff here, and I am SO proud of you, girl!!
Chachee - Your little slip up was minor, and look at you get back OP. WTG, girl! I have NO doubt that you'll reach that goal!
Hippy - Preparation and a plan of attack are your best weapons, I agree. It's odd how even if we want something badly, we can't just DO it till we're actually ready to do it. Sometimes that's really frustrating.
Alright.. I guess I didn't update on Machine's horse! Well, we got her to the stables just fine, and she's gorgeous!! She's going to take some work, and needs to gain some weight, but I really do have a very good feeling about this one. I think she and Machine are going to end up doing very well together! If anyone wants to see pics of her, just hit my journal.
Pictures of Eve
If I don't post much this weekend (THREE horses now, omg!) I hope everyone has a wonderful one!!