Hi,
I have been unable to post because I haven't been home. Gone for meetings, the eatings been OK but the place I am staying did not have an exercise room, I was hoping to walk on a treadmill since I can't do my walking tapes. This computer is so slow that I didn't think I was going to be able to get to 3FC. DM
Didn't make it to the treadmill yesterday. But it's ok, I can still meet my weekly exercise goal of 5 days, if I exercise both today and tomorrow. I hate exercising in the middle of the day, and I hate getting up early and climbing on the treadmill, so that usually means I workout late in the evening, after dinner. Which is good, because without working out I'd probably be eating. But on nights like tonight, when I have to work until 9:00pm, which means I won't get home until 9:45 or so, it gets to be a little late, plus my feet are tired from standing. Still, I can do it if I want to. Or I might do it before I go. It's hard to tell with me.
Today's goal: get back on track with eating! AND get on that treadmill!
It's comforting to see others have the same obstacles I do. I can't seem to find that ideal exercise time, and an uneven teaching schedule doesn't help. I taught until 9 last night, blowing both an evening chance And making me tired for the next morning. I'm going to head to the gym here in a minute, though, since it's a gorgeous evening and I was tempted to go to Borders Books, anyway. Might as well go to the gym instead of drinking coffee and buying more stuff. lol.
I have Got to figure out how to eat better during the day. I hate making sandwiches and hate even more spending what little money I have. So I often go on coffee and trail bars most of the day until I'm famished at night. Maybe put apple sauces and apples and waters and such in my office?
Just got back from the treadmill! All those sore, tense muscles feel So much better now. Imagine. ... Why is it I resist so much when it feels so good?
~Shimmers~
I did make it to the treadmill yesterday, in spite of (and partially because of) a bad back. I made it there today too, but it didn't last long, because of my back again, and because I broke down in tears about 9 minutes into my slow walk. I just got the mail and read over all of my bills and realized exactly how much money i DON'T have... scary stuff. Why is it that I let all the bad crap in my life get in the way of... all the other crap in my life? I feel like such scum right now. I can't pay my bills, I can't find a decent job, I can't find a guy I'm happy with, I can't lose weight, I can't eat healthy foods, I can't even walk on the stupid treadmill today. I can't do anything right. And now I've got to get ready to go to my crappy job, and I'll probably just mess up even more while I'm there. How did I let my life get like this? I'm smarter than this. How could I have let myself get to this point?
*deep breath*
Everything is going to be ok. I don't know how, but it will all work out in the end. There is a plan.
Sorry guys, I just had to get that off my chest. I'll feel better soon, and when I do, I'll get back on that treadmill. Promise.
Miss Elisha, my heart goes out to you! I've been through times when everything just seems Wrong, and I know I'll go through them again, because life cycles this way, but so long as we have friends we can vent with and cry with and feel sad with and then just get plain mad with -- it's easier to keep in mind that times will come again when everything feels right.
I teach at two schools and my shedule for fall just got totally messed up, and I've been battling some sort of aimless blues for a week, so my sympathies are totally with you. All I can say is you're doing Lots of things right, and you ought to give your inner critic a good talking to. Sometimes, you have to treat yourself as kindly as you do others -- by forgiving yourself, giving yourself a little slack during a hard time, counting every small success and half-accomplishment. Do what you can, and be patient with the rest. These are things you'd do for a friend if she were having a hard time. Why not do it for yourself? And what do you mean you can't lose weight? You've already lost 21 pounds! And what do you mean you can't exercise? You walked 9 minutes! It Does count and it Is success.
Morning everyone! Just signed on to check out my computer following a room reshuffle. Hope you're having a beautiful Sunday. ... Does anyone know why our smiley to our thread is now scowling? I can't figure it out. lol.
I'll check in later, once I've been out for a walk.
~Shimmers~
Good morning everyone! It's Monday once again, and that means weekly weigh-in time for me. I stepped on the scale and it said I had lost 9 pounds this week. There was a moment of jubilation before my logic kicked it--no way, certainly not this week. When I stepped of it reset not to 0, but to -6. So I readjusted the stupid thing and tried again. It says I'm down 1 more pound. Given the week I've had, I expected to be back at my starting point, so a 1-pound loss is great.
I started my new exercise schedule yesterday, and I've stuck with it so far. :LOL:
Today: treadmill and UB workout, water, healthy foods.
Yikes, I didn't check in yesterday! And I was trying to be so good. Today is off to a quiet start, but hopefully I'll get to the gym in addition to getting a buncha paperwork done.
Scales, argh. Two days ago, I was down 1.5 pounds; today, I appear to be up 6. How is that possible? I'm going to just do the tape measure for a while, I think. Of course, with girl-time pudginess, Nothing feels good, so maybe all I can do is drink water, exercise and Wait.
Happy Tuesday everyone! Good news--I can see my collarbone! I know it sounds weird, but it's awesome to finally see some progress. On track with the exercise, although today's time was a little longer than yesterday's (31min 45 sec today, 30m 54s yesterday). I'm trying to speed up, but it's just not working. I think it's because I've walked about 6 days in a row (though now always energetically). Tomorrow is my scheduled day off, and I have it scheduled so I don't go that long without a day off again. Let's hope it works!
Okay, hope everyone else is doing well!
See you tomorrow!
~E
Elisha, you're doing great!
I had a quiet day today -- stayed home with some sort of yucka lethargy thing. Went to the doctor this afternoon and hope to get to the gym tomorrow morning. I'm setting up the gym bag! It's been way motivational checking in here each day. It reminds me of my goals and it presses me to have Something positive to share.
See you tomorrow,
~S~
I had a lovely day and got in a long, brisk walk with my dog over on the coast. The sunshine is SO very welcome. I tried living in a rainy climate for a year and came scampering back to coastal Cal. We have a summer marine layer, but enough sunshine to keep me up. Other than exercise, I ate well, but I'm struggling to get my water in. I used to be so good about that too. Hmm. Gonna have to think on it.
I live about 20 minutes from the coast in a bedroom community. Have you noticed how there is Nothing available for singles who want to walk and be outdoors in the suburbs? Everything is geared to home and back yard. I can't even walk comfortably in the neighborhood with it's silly sidewalk construction and everyone else's bad dogs (who get loose and beat up my poor, leashed pup). I won't complain much though, since I Do have the coast trails which have other walkers so I'm not out alone and leashed dogs, so my Kenji isn't jumped.
Anyway, a good day. Hope yours was good too.
~Shimmers~
Looks like it's mostly just you and me, Shimmers!
That's ok, two is better than one anyday!
Today was ok for me, I got in my LB workout, and today was my scheduled day off from the treadmill. It was weird though, all day long I felt like my body just wanted to move, like I actually wanted to get on and walk. But I didn't because I know my body needs time to rest, and I know how tough my walk was yesterday because I was worn out. I didn't do too great on eating, but not terribly bad either.
What I did do was completely rework my resume, and set up an interview for tomorrow, and found a bunch of other jobs to apply for just as soon as I write a decent cover letter. I know I shouldn't think of it this way, but I really think losing weight will be so much easier once I get a decent job and stop worrying about paying my bills. Besides that, I'll be able to get my own place again (I can't wait to live by myself!), and I'll be able to have only the food in my house that I want in my house, as opposed to here where my parents do all the grocery shopping and buy crap I don't even want to see. I'm thinking I might go low carb once I move out. I was reading the Carbohydrate Addicts diet, which is designed more for being healthy than for specifically losing weight, and the basic plan is that you eat low carb for 2 meals a day and snacks, then you can have carbs at dinner. I can do that. That's what I usually end up doing anyway, I just need to focus my efforts a little.
I WISH I could walk on the coast... unfortunately, it's about 6 hours away. Our closest walking trail is about 10 minutes away, but I never go there. Maybe I'll start when the weather warms up a bit. There's just something about these WV hills that keeps me walking on the treadmill instead of outside--perhaps it's that it always seems like I'm walking uphill! It makes for a good workout, but it's really hard to keep a steady pace.
Anyway, today was decent. I just need to focus a bit more on the eating side of the coin and I'll be in good shape. Literally!
~Elisha
Ooooh, today was a good day. Got in my 2 miles on treadmill (tied with best time of 30 min 54 sec), UB workout, decent interview, good eating, feeling good. Could use a little more sleep though. I think I'm going to try to hit the sheets before midnight tonight (wish me luck on that one!).
I just love days when I feel motivated. I'm still excited about the whole collarbone issue. All I can say is, Keep It Coming!
Elisha,
I agree! We may be two for the moment, but we're a dedicated two! No beach for me today, but I did walk my dog through the neighborhood, finding time in marathon-Thursday to eat right and be active. For whatever reason, the city has replaced the straight sidewalks with these little U-shaped bends that twist around the trees in front of each house. Very cute to look at but not much fun to walk ... basically, you walk between one house and the next, then do a small toggle to the right and a small toggle back, then continue on a straight line to the next house. arrrrgh! Much better to get to the coastal path, but today there wasn't time.
I think I'm gonna have to break down and buy water bottles. The convenience of the diet soda can is wayyy too persuasive. Isn't it silly? My environmental self is at war with my dieting self that says "Phooey on the packaging. If it's in a handy single-girl box, it means I'll eat it." I HAVE managed to kick fast-food. I've been fast-food free since August of 2000, but the convenience and calories of Starbucks still gets me. As does the convenience of all things packaged and processed. How do you manage to eat right as a single??
~Shimmers
