Happy Sunday Morning All,

The day is bright and sunny - weather is warming up. DH was unable to put my computer back together - lots of teeny tiny screws and itty bitty ribbon cables. It was far more than the pop it out / snap it in job he thought it would be. Some of the things like the mouse and network cards are not working. I suggested we just take it into town to the computer repair place so he dropped it off yesterday. Now we are sharing a computer once again. It was better because instead of killing 4 hours of the morning on the laptop I did 2 loads of laundry, changed the bed linens, sorted some papers, started on a to-do list of things I need / want to take care of before I leave in a week and basically got a bunch of things done while waiting for my turn at the machine.

Yesterday I went into the thrift shop and took some pictures and updated the Facebook page. Talked to 2 of the people there - all is good. It did however take me about 5 hours - far longer than I intended to be there. Afterwards I dropped off a package to be mailed and did some grocery shopping. I am just getting things for this week to use - DH was loving the empty refrigerator I left him when I was gone the last time He is out in the yard working - got some gravel to fill in holes in the driveway and some compost to spread over the yard. He's tore out all the hosta on the west side of the house - it had become overgrown and tangled with weeds and such. He mostly wanted to regrade the soil so that when it rained it drained away from the house instead of sitting in pools by the foundation. This is the first time since we have moved in that we are not plagued by the constant running of the sump pump draining water from the foundation 7 by 24 for weeks on end. Part I'm sure of things we put into place from last year's soggy spring but also sadly an obvious sign of the water deficit we are in. At least we still have more water than California! I can tell how dry the air is though. Hopefully we will get some rain mid week as they predict. I was a little concerned about white residue when I boil water in the pots but I read up and that is calcium and magnesium from the water being a bit harder. Extra minerals for us - never a bad thing.

Just checking in - I have a long to do list today and I need to get on with it. Sounds like everyone is busy. Have a great Sunday.

Thank you Laura, Anne and Shad for the cards - very nice of you Guess I'm going to have to update my calendar.

I hope we are finished with our part of the house clean out for my aunt. We got a lot done yesterday. Told them that I would stay for tomorrow if they would call my boss. They wouldn't. My other aunt and uncle are going to take some things to the thrift store on Monday. The packers will be there the 29th and 30th to pack up things and take to storage. My cousin let me have a small desk that I thought was wood but found out later that it's not but I think I will put a gloss on it this summer. It fit's in my small space.
Last night I did nothing at all except buy myself an ice cream cone from Sonic and sit in the recliner to talk to my sister that lives in Dallas. She told me that her daughter's ultrasound showed her baby to be a girl. I'm excited.

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Happy
I understand about spending to much time at the computer. I have that problem too. Do you think you will go back to the thrift store or just do the web page etc? I would miss the people.

Michelle
Sounds like you are working hard on finding that job. I'm sure it will not be long before you hear from something.

Hi Everyone. It was a busy week at work for sure. I didn't leave work until 7 p.m. every night. I am worn out and today I have been napping most of the day.

I decided last week that I was going to get up every day at 5 so I could get a 20-30 min bike ride in before I started getting ready for work. I found that it gave me a lot of energy and I felt pretty good most of the day. So, that is my plan everyday day going forward. Then on Tuesday & Saturday's I do my exercises that I learned to do at PT.

I didn't make it to TOPS on Thursday but I weighed myself on Thursday morning (I do every Thursday morning so that I sort of know what I will be at TOPS) and the scales said I lost 4 lbs! If that hold true and I loose 2 lbs this week I will have a 10 lb loss for April.

Shad: I hope you had a great birthday!

Happy: I hope you had a great birthday too!

Michelle: It sounds like things are moving for you on the job hunt front. I'm sure something will be offered to you soon.

Laura: A new vehicle! That is always exciting.

Ceejay: It sounds like you have been busy at your Aunt's house. I hope you wont' be too tired when you get back to work.

Dee: You are quite the busy bee!

Annie: I saw your FB pictures of the zoo. You were smiling in every one of them...so glad you had a great time with your family.

Hi Terra!

I need to sit down and pay bills. So, I will see you all tomorrow.

Evening all.

Susie - Wow, what long hours at work last week! Great job with the exercise last week and good for you with this month's weight loss progress!!!

Ceejay - Sounds like you made a lot of progress on the aunt's house. LOL re having the family call your boss to get the time off.

Happy - Gosh what a PITA your computer has been. But how nice you've found a lot of extra time, and that you're making good use of it!! Glad you actually received the card before your b-day. Let's just say Shad's will be pretty early for her next birthday...how silly thinking 10 days was a reasonable mailing time.

Michelle - You keep hitting the job search like you have and you'll find something great in the not too distant future. YGG!!

Shad - Too bad the Anzac day ceremony was dull. Hope you enjoyed your birthday. I kind of feel bad for the dog sniffing the package, lol.

Dee - Wow, were you busy with those dresses! If I recall...was this the program in which donated prom dresses get a 2nd life and you volunteered to do the alterations on them? What a nice thing to do.

Hellos to the rest of you. Hope you all had a lovely weekend.

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My weekend was mixed. I had my mammo on Saturday morning. Glad that's done and that no extra squishes were needed. Later in the morning, bf and I drove a ways up to a dmv to the get the titling/registration/taxes done on the "new" car. Not until we get there did bf realize the dealer had not given him the title. He knew there was something niggling at him about it, and that was it. A phone call was made to the dealer and bf learned they hold the title for 10 days. Not that it was their fault bf & I made the trip without thinking of that, LOL... Bf of course was majorly ticked at himself, as well as the dealer. But he did get the dealer to agree to overnight the title to us tomorrow since we bought the car outright. I can get the dmv stuff done this week since there's a facility downtown, though I think bf would prefer to be present. Maybe we'll be driving back to that other dmv next Saturday morning....sigh.

Later in the day while I walked doggy, I tripped on a spot where the grass meets the sidewalk. In trying to avoid falling, I really strained my left hamstring where it goes into my glute. Ouch. Falling might have been less injurious...

The lab rescue auction/dinner Saturday night was very nice, as usual. Bf and I ended up winning our 4 silent auction items (bracelet, earrings, doggy-themed kitchen items/spice gift basket, and a decorative rock that says "Rescue dogs rock!".) We also ended up getting 3 gift cards. And then there was a specific donation for medical expenses. A big tab at the end, but it's for a very good cause.

Today was the some laundry, a walmart trip, a dog walk, put some chicken in a marinade, and that was about it aside from general slothfulness. I'm so ticked about pulling that hamstring. It's still very sore and I'm not sure when I can do a fitness class, but I can at least stretch it out and do some exercise on my own that don't involve legs/glutes.

That's it for me. Off to grab the hand cream - my hands are soooo dry these days! C ya.

I'm taking a breakfast break, making a green smoothie. Spinach leaves, fruit, water & protein powder. Over the weekend I ate stupidly while our 4 kiddos were w us. Now I have to eat smart & cleaner to get my energy hopping

Home is a fun movie & everyone liked it, I was surprised seeing so many adults in the theater, it had to b because Jim Parsons & Rihanna were the main voices. Then yesterday our kiddos played a lot w the movie toys I got in McDonald's Happy meals. Dh got a headache & sore neck that lasted for days & whined about it, to the point I looked for a pair of earplugs. He couldn't/wouldn't do a thing for the whole week, except watch NASCAR.

What r U listening to going to work, I've got Zac Brown Band tunes playing right now. I read all your posts on this page & from Friday. Everyone is doing well & keeping busy I see.

Susie... on your weight loss. Looks like u will reach your weight goal for your birthday

Shad & Happy... I'm sorry for being late. I hope u spoiled yourself

Laura... Congrats on bf getting your new car home safely. What color & model did he chose???

Annie... Zoo times w your kiddos is awesome & wedding gown shopping is like being Cinderella trying on gowns. If your dd wants a custom designed dress, she can mix & match a separate top, skirt to change a piece for dancing at her reception from a long skirt to short & sew it herself buying the top or have a seamstress make it Brides have so many options w/o spending $$$$ on a designer label.

Ceej... With all the family sorting, cleaning, etc. u r burning up tons of fat calories w/o doing any extra exercises.

Michele... I hope u r enjoying yourself while your search for a wonderful job continues

Terra... I hope u have great weather to b outside this week & enjoy school. When does your school year end?

I have appointments today & tomorrow for the clients sportswear I mentioned recently. Most r career women appointments @ their offices, I take fabric swatches, patterns & sketch whatever they want & update their body measurements w a tape measure & allow for 5# weight change & add/sew tummy control bands in most garments. This keeps my income going between my Interior Design jobs.

See y'all soon, b good & stay safe & b happy this week.

Hello ladies - just got a text from Annie. She told me to pass along that she's sick and will try to post tomorrow. She said that what the ER thought was her appendix turned out to be colitis - pain, fever, headache.

Please keep Annie in your thoughts and prayers.

Off to look up colitis. I'll be back in a wee bit.

Afternoon Worldlies. Quiet here today!! It’s quiet in the office today as well. The boss and another department member are at a conference through Thursday this week.

It’s bright & sunny outside, but here by the lake it’s chilly and a bit windy. Oh well, it’ll be warmer later in the week.

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Dee – Sounds like you had a nice weekend with the grandkids. That smoothie sounds healthy – too bad I don’t enjoy drinking my calories. I just don’t get the same satisfaction as when I chew my calories. Our new (to us) car is a 2012 Lincoln MKX (an SUV, color cinnamon metallic, i.e., brownish). It’s got all the bells and whistles, is a certified used car with a good warranty, and we bought an extended warranty as well, so hopefully it’ll last a good long time and won’t cost us much in maintenance/repairs for a good long time. Re your comments about bridal gowns – sounds like that TV show Bride by Design – the woman can design a completely custom gown or the bride-to-be can start with a plain base gown and add on the extras to fancy it up.

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I didn’t mention in yesterday’s post that I got out in the yard and used the pruning shears to cut all of last summer/fall’s sedum blossoms off those plants, which are well into new growth for this season. Our flower border along the north side of our fence/property has all kinds of grass and dandelions growing in there right now. Last year we bought an edging system but didn’t get around to installing it. We will do that this year, and hopefully that will stop the grass growing into the border there. But there’s still the matter of pulling out the grass that’s already there. Oh the fun that awaits me!

We are once again looking for a new patio set since we didn't get one last year. We have a small patio, so we’re looking for a smallish round table with 4 chairs, with at least 2 of the chairs being the swivel kind. We also need a new umbrella and base. Currently we have folding chairs and a round table in decent condition, and once bf breaks down the table in the fall, everything stores without taking up too much room. If we get swivel chairs and other mon-folding ones, we won’t have room to store it indoors. I guess we’ll get a good cover for it all and keep it outside on the patio. I think we’ll ultimately end up getting something new since Craigslist isn’t panning out for anything that the picky bf is crazy about.

I never did get around to removing the comforter from under the sheet this weekend. I’ll make sure to do that tonight.

My hamstring is feeling much better today, and I rode the bike to the train. I sure would like to get out for a leisure ride and not just the short 3 min. rides to the train station! BF and I met his mom for lunch on Saturday and there’s a bike shop in the strip mall right next door. We checked out the LED lights they had and bf confirmed we can get them more cheaply online. Now to just get them ordered.

Not much more to report. I forgot to make an appointment for my annual physical last week, so I made one today. The appointment isn’t until the end of May. That's probably a good thing, since I'd like to drop some weight before my appointment!!

That’s it for me. TTFN.

Hi guys, so sorry that I kind of went MIA for a bit here. Of course with me going MIA on this chat and just in general I kind of went MIA on following my point system with weight watchers - such a bad girl. I got my TOM and I wanted delicious things and then when I had the delicious things (aka a burger from fudruckers - mm) I didn't want to track the bad thing so I was just going to have an untracked day and then it all went downhill from there. But happy to report that I am still down atleast 10lbs from my joining weight watchers and this effort, which is pretty great for not even 2months! So I am still feeling pretty optimistic and happy, all considering. I have made it through another TOM and I am now back on track for this past week I've been doing fairly well - tracking and just being more active! I've missed chatting with you girls though, so here I am! How has everyone been doing? Again, so sorry that I kind of went MIA and hope you all will accept me in again!

I found a sweet new recipe I've been making for 6pts on ww, for a pizza.. mm and it's totally been satisfying my bad cravings, I just need to explore some more options with my food so I am not so bored and wanting more things, haha.. and I have to learn that with portion control and SELF control I can have "bad" things but I should still track it no matter what.

Anyways - I am really looking forward to weighing in on wednesday morning to see how I did with being back on track this week.

On another note - my birthday is thursday (I'll be 27) and I am not looking forward to it. I know I was telling you guys how I am emotionally going through a ton of things right now, and that I lost someone very important to me, and I guess if I'm going to be here becoming friends with you guys I should tell you this.. it's just so hard for me to talk about, I guess I know that there isn't anything anyone can do to make it better and there is nothing anyone can say to make it better but I just hate the typical things people say when they hear this news - like how they've been there or know exactly how I am feeling, because lets face it.. we all have different relationships with our family/friends and things effect each person differently. Anyways, I lost my mother back in Sept. from small cell lung cancer. How am I supposed to celebrate my birthday when the person who gave birth to me isn't even around? How am I going to get by my day and life without hearing her sing happy birthday to me like I got every single birthday? It's just so difficult and I guess I do not feel like celebrating, which was exactly how my thanksgiving was and my christmas and my easter and probably how my life will continue to be until I have a child of my own and then I'll kind of have to suck it up and have holidays again.... Mother's day coming up is going to just plain ole suck.

Enough of that.. Let me just say that that was hard to even type without crying.. hugs to everyone who has lost someone very important to them.

Things that I've been doing differently.. now that it is kind of nicer out I've been taking longer walks at lunchtime if I have time, but have also been taking more walks after work with my dog/s. Sometimes I just take Stubbie, sometimes I take both Stubbie and Tinka and if Mike is around and wants to go for a walk too we'll take all three of them.

Welcome back Danielle. You can vent here at anytime. We all do.

Laura
How did you like sleeping on the comforter? So far I haven't had any problems. The main thing I wanted something for was to fill in where the buttons are on my pillow top. The comforter worked. Hope you find the patio furniture this year. Oh me. I pray that she is not following down the same path the C has. I need to call soon and schedule my physical.

Annie
Feel better soon.

Susie
Good idea on getting up earlier to ride your bike. Congrats on those 4 pounds lost.

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It's been mostly a quiet day at work. I'm happy about that.

Morning all,
Just lost a post due to one of those ads - still I should not have clicked over there.

Laura - thanks for letting us know about Annie. I really hope she gets better soon.
Congrats on becoming a 2 car family. Sounds like a nice car.
I might not be having birthdays any more, but I still like to hear from friends and family and have a nice peaceful day. Which is exactly what I got.

Annie - Get well soon. Hope this doesn't become an ongoing thing for you. I looked it up although I sort of knew what it was and it doesn't sound nice at all.

Happy - hope you had (are having) a good birthday and that you got out to do something interesting for it.
The ongoing computer saga is a pain. I hope you get your laptop back all ready to go again. We give them such a hard time at times and then have the gall to complain when things go wrong. Mind you sometimes I think that the electronic gadgets have a built in use-by date and sometimes that's a short date.
Glad to hear that you are not having the drainage problems this year but if it is lack of water then that is a problem within itself. Good plan of the DH to slope the garden beds away from the house. Even better not to have them near the house at all.

Ceejay - sounds like you have been busy at the Aunts house again. Nice to have an ice cream treat now and again. Better not make a habit of it. I'm just breaking an addiction to it again. Doc told me to lose some weight. So what else is new.

Susie - Congratulations on the losses. Well done. That must make you feel happy. Certainly moving (exercise) in the morning is a good way to start the day. Pity I don't take my own advice.

Dee - sounds like you have been busy. I'm with Laura in that I do not like the health drinks made from veg and fruit. I'll drink a smoothie with fruit and milk if that's all there is to have, but I like my spinach whole and raw and by the leaf. Poor DH all sick and sad but had to watch motor racing.

Danielle - welcome back. I'm sorry for you loss of your mother. I have to say that it takes at least two years to get over the grieving, the anger, the lost feeling. The first time for any event is bad. However it will eventually come to pass that you will remember with love and fondness.
Probably not what you wanted to hear, but there it is. From my own experience. We as a family had a great time over Anzac weekend, which was a weekend that my father really enjoyed. He loved to get with his old army mates and have a few drinks and remember the Whens and Whys of while they were at war. I think it gave him a feeling of release - of what he couldn't tell his family. Anyway, when the family gets together for my birthday or sometime on the Anzac anniversary, we always get to talk about my Dad. But now instead of the tears and recriminations and the desperation of losing him, we talk about the things we did together and how he loved and was loved. It will come, don't push it.

So I am way behind on my work in the yard, and rain is predicted for the rest of the week, I'd better get out there and get this hedge mowed ( can't call it a trim since I've let it get out of control again) and today is also hairdresser day. So by tonight I might looked somewhat tamed and less like a fuzzy wuzzy angel. I'm still wanting to grow it out and will get the hairdresser to try her best to tame the curly bits.
I've also got to clean the bathroom, loo and laundry. So today will be fairly busy. No TV for me today. Not that that is a problem. If TV relied on me for their incomes they wouldn't get a lot and certainly wouldn't need all the staff that they have.

So with that I am off. Cya

Hi everyone

Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes. I did have a nice day today. Went to the drivers license facility to get my license renewed. The people there are rude. Why? I tried to make myself look as decent as possible and they still managed a typical not your best DMV photo. Went into town, ran some errands. Came back and went with DH to the doctor - he is having pain in his neck, upper back and arm. Might be a nerve problem. They are trying to get his medical records from Memphis - we both thought about what the clinic's name was but of course being the wife I had to think harder than he did and eventually came up with the name. They are sending him for physical therapy and will give him a TENS unit (electrical impulses to work the muscles). We then went to dinner with friends. I had a good steak, was happy to see that our customer protests the last 3 months got the bar to buy White Zinfandel wine again and before I knew they had Zin again I ordered an amaretto and orange juice but the bartender was new and made me something with amaretto in it - was very good. We also had a fabulous chocolate cake that was almost too much but delicious. I brought home half my meal but that's it for cake for me for a long time. We might go for a drive tomorrow after his PT, it's getting lovely outside. I saw my first mosquito yesterday. :P Posting now because I might not get back here tomorrow.

Shad - you are right about electronics having a short life date. Wish they had a short price too! DH is in the mood to plant some stuff - I think he is trying to attract butterflies and hummingbirds so that he can take photos. He could use your help. How did your hair turn out? I'm glad you are not getting overly frustrated with growing it out. An occasional style change is nice. I hope you get some rain your way - you've been needing it, haven't you? Are you home for a while now until they sort out the details of the Auckland contract?

Ceejay - how much longer do you have to work or are you still undecided about a retirement date? Are you all healed now after your fall? I hope the new desk fits nicely into your place.

Danielle - welcome back - glad we did not lose you I am so sorry for the loss of your Mom. I think Laura and I are the only ones left with a living Mum so you will get lots of sympathy and coping advice from the ladies here. I don't think the pain ever goes away. I lost my beloved mother in law in 1979 and I still tear up thinking of her and wondering what she'd be like if she were still here today. As Shad said it will take time for the heart to heal - be gentle with yourself. All I can say is to honor your Mom and do what she would want for you. Carry her in your heart and you will never be far from her. Tell us a wonderful story (or two) of your Mom if that will put a small smile on your face so that we can know of her also. Talk to her in your head as you are taking walks with the dogs. Maybe it's one sided but tell her the things you'd want her to know.

Laura - we had a nice day today but my Mom said it was rather raw with the north winds by you. Hopefully it will warm up later in the week. The new car sounds awfully nice - I hope you will really enjoy it. Will you be taking the older car to the train station now or just biking it in the summer? Sounds like you have a few weekends worth of yard work ahead of you. Thank you for the update on Annie. I'm glad your leg is feeling better. Hope you find a patio set that is reasonable for what you need. Maybe they will have sales soon.

Annie - you poor darling. Hope you get to feeling better very quickly. That is no fun that colitis. Rest up and do what you need to in order to recover quickly. Ouch. Gently.

Dee - when I am working around the house and have Pandora on, I generally listen to England Dan and John Ford Coley type of 70's music. Or I listen to silly songs that are stuck in my head that I can't cut loose. I have heard green smoothies are powerhouses, like the others I am more into the fruit ones but you go girl. Whatever makes you feel good and gives you energy is what's important. I certainly admire your ability to come up with projects to keep the income flowing. You are a entrepreneur for sure. That's an incredible amount of sewing and tailoring. I'm glad you like it and I'm sure the clients appreciate it.

Susie - congratulations on a good loss for the month of April And yay for you for getting up early to ride your bike. That is the kind of commitment that gets results. I always found it difficult to work in time to work out after a long day at work. It's hard getting up in the morning but it's nice to have that energy to hit the bricks when you get to the office.

Michelle - I hope the job search goes well for you. Good luck with interviews. Be patient although I know it's hard. Time always goes slowly when we are waiting for something.

It's after 1am - I should have been in bed an hour ago. Good night to all and a pleasant day tomorrow.

Hi.
Look at the hair not the horrid photo.

Morning all.

Danielle – Welcome back!! Good for you getting back on track and still being down 10 pounds! Yum, pizza. Glad you found a way to enjoy it without all the calorie damage. I’m very sorry for your loss. Tough times for you, especially all the “firsts” (not that the subsequent ones will be a breeze either). Let yourself grieve. People trying to make you feel better do it because they care, just keep that in mind.

Ceejay – I didn’t have any problems at all sleeping on the comforter, but it didn’t help the numbness I get in my shoulders/arms. Back to square one. Glad it’s working for your purposes.

Shad – The work around the house and garden never ends! Re TV ads – with so many people DVR’g their shows and fast forwarding through the commercials, I wonder how the TV ad business survives. Well lady, looks like you have quite a ways to go before you get your hair into a chin-length bob. What do you think – can you hang on that long?

Happy – I’m glad you had a nice day on your birthday. I’m afraid good license photos are a rare exception to the rule, lol. I look downright hostile in mine! Sorry to hear dh is having pain – I hope the TENS unit works for him. It’s a bummer that these aches and pains accumulate as we age. Haha, the bar must have thought no one would miss the pink wine…I know it’s not my cup of tea. Oops, mixing up the beverage categories, lol. One of the desserts at the auction on Saturday was a very rich chocolate cake with chocolate mousse – more than a few bites of that would be too much. But it was a family style dinner, so it was good to just serve myself a wee bit. Have a nice drive tomorrow – so much natural beauty to feast your eyes on up there! Yup, yesterday was chilly and windy when I was out at lunchtime. More of the same today by the lake…

No, I won’t be taking the old car to the train station. I’m only about 5-6 blocks from the train station and that’s only about 3 minutes by bike, so by the time I’d drive the car, park it, and walk from the lot to the platform, it’s actually more time consuming than cycling to the train. I believe they now have monthly paid parking, so if you’re a regular you need not stop at a pay box each day, but for me I'm pretty sure it’s still more time than it’s worth. The only time I might consider driving the car and parking it at the train station lot is if I had somewhere to get to as soon as I got off the train. And I won’t discount the possibility that I’ll be tempted to drive to the station when winter comes around...

Hellos to the rest of you. Got a text from Annie – she’s home from work again today. Poor thing. Annie – feel better soon!!
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Didn’t do much after work except phone my mom. Her dog (was my brother’s dog) hasn’t been well and the vet’s diagnosed an autoimmune disorder. Mom couldn’t remember the exact name of it – she’d written it down somewhere and it wasn’t handy when we spoke. Googled it just now and something called “autoimmune hemolytic anemia” came up and though I haven’t read up on it yet, the name sounds right because the dog is on 3 meds right now and one of them is supposed to increase his platelets. Another is to increase his appetite. Poor guy. Mom says his appetite is better now than it was. He has a follow-up appointment on Wed.

Bf hasn’t gotten the gas grill fixed yet, though he spent some time on it yesterday. I don’t know if there’s a clogged gas line but the other issue might be that there's a BIG HONKING HOLE IN ONE OF THE BURNERS. For Pete’s sake. Of course the owner’s manual is of no help, and bf couldn’t find a you tube video for our specific grill model. Sigh. I see a new gas grill in our future. In the meantime, I have some marinated chicken breasts in the fridge that need to be cooked. I might get our Weber charcoal grill fired up for that. There’s no movie night tonight, so there’s plenty of time…

Well, I got a call from the doctor’s office while I was on the train this morning. My gyne had noted at my exam a couple weeks ago that there’s a density in one breast not noted in the other, and this was also picked up on the mammogram I had done on Saturday. I will go back for more pictures tomorrow morning to make sure there’s nothing lurking in there. The density itself isn’t an issue, but they want to confirm there’s nothing hidden by that dense tissue. If they still can’t tell from the additional pictures, then I have to have an ultrasound done.

My bright spot this morning is that I found a comb that went missing about a month ago. It’s a wide-toothed comb that I’ve had for years that I use to comb out my wet hair after washing it. One night after I used it, it just vanished. I checked the bathroom wastebasket a couple times that night – nothing. I suspected it might have fallen into a gap between the bathroom wall and the vanity backsplash (the gap exists because the 60-year old wall isn’t straight) but had no way to check that. Today I decided to poke the skinny handle of my rat-tooth comb in the gap – nothing. Then I finally realized that we had the clock radio power cord (running from the radio to the electrical outlet) jammed into the gap to hide the cord. I pulled the cord up a bit and there was my comb!

That’s it for me. TTFN!

I know I am definitely not the only one who has gone through this kind of loss, I also know I am not the only one that has lost their mother.. but I guess my feelings and thoughts as of right now are just that I honestly do not even feel like an adult, I feel like I am still a child.. I feel like I am way too young to have lost my mother. (Again, I know that I am not the only one to have lost their mother this young.) My mom is my best friend, she is honestly the only real person I have in my life... it's hard to picture living this life without her in it, though I know she would only want me to be happy and to live for her if she can't live. She is my best friend, and has always been my number one. I do not have lots of friends, unfortunately, just hasn't ever been in the cards for me... most girls I have met get wrapped up in their own lives and apparently the relationships I share with those people aren't worth them putting effort into, especially the second they get a boyfriend. To me there is so much more to life, and what I wouldn't give for a real friendship with someone.. besides my boyfriend of course. I guess I just feel like no one really knows what I am going through, maybe they know the gist of it all if they've lost someone really close to them but no two relationships are the same and my relationship with my mom will be different than the relationship you or anyone shares with their mom.

I guess I wanted to just clear my mind of that. I think I definitely need counseling.. has anyone ever done counseling? I did try it once after about a month of her being gone, and honestly I just didn't feel right and I couldn't handle it... maybe in the future time will be right.

Anyways - I am trying to live my life for her, trying to do things for me that I know she'd be proud of me for doing, which is why I am so set on losing weight and trying to just live an all around healthier lifestyle. I know it's what she would want me to do. I do "talk" to my mom, more when I am home or in the car and don't look like too much of a fool breaking down into tears, not really on my walks because I honestly try NOT to think too much about her (though it's hard) on walks.. just stay focused on the walk and trying to enjoy it. I do have a journal that I call my "dear Mom" journal and
I write in it with my thoughts feelings and emotions... I really enjoy journaling and wish I had more time to write in it but that's alright, it works when I need it to I guess?

I hope you guys understand where I am coming from. I definitely appreciate the kind words anyways - I know it's just people showing that they care and I do appreciate it, it's just sometimes very hard.

I am glad to be back here and chatting with you ladies! I am down 15lbs as of this morning since I joined weight watchers back on March 10th.. even during my little off track time! I am happy about that.. tomorrow is my official weigh in!

Laura
Yee Haw on finding the comb. They do get into weird places. Could you be sleeping on your hand to make it numb? Hope the mammo doesn't reveael anything more.

Happy
I've been thinking about getting a TENS unit. I saw them at Walmart. And unless something drastically changes between now and 2016 I've decided to wait till then to retire. I'm trying to save more money.

Shad
I love the hair cut. For once in my adult life time I'm trying to let my hair grow out.

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Came back from downstairs this morning and checked the gauges. One of the elevated tanks had taken a dive so I had to call the boss. The water level dropped from 34.15 feet to 31.12 just while I was downstairs refilling the small chemical tanks. We have been feeding water to a town near by for some time now and a 2 inch line had burst there. It's all in a day's work but its been a job trying to get this tank filled back up to where it should be.
Tried to call my aunt and uncle but they must be at my other aunts house. Today is when the packers come to move things to storage. I wanted to remind them to get things out of the shed. We've been so busy in the house that I've forgotten about that.