Hi, everyone! Happy 4th! It's hot and humid, and the air is so thick you could cut it with a knife. It's starting to rain, so I don't know how the holiday in Chicago is going to be for the outdoors types. Maybe it will get better for tonight. I slept in today--till 7:38--that's late for me. It was so nice to have a day off!!
Thanks, Miki, for wishing me well with my mom. I don't know how things will be. My mother has had trouble getting along with all five of her children for years. I don't know why. I don't have trouble getting along with any of my siblings. I've been trying to keep things smooth between her and myself, but lately it's not been so good. I think my mom has some problems that none of us can fix. It makes me sad because she's getting up in years, and this should be a time when we're all close to her. Oh, well, I don't want to make myself sad today, so I'll just stop at that point.
I do know, Cyan and Miki, what you mean about giving up the carbs and eating a lot of meat. It seems very weird to me too. I've always been a bread, potatoes, crackers, cookies person--since forever. But before I decided to give this Atkins thing a try, I thought about a few things. One of them is that twice in my life I have lost fairly large amounts of weight--30 pounds each time--once when I was 17, and the other time when I was 30. And each time, I restricted carbs. Not as drastically as with Atkins, but I did it. And in the nearly 14 years I've been married, I have been less disciplined about carbs than ever before in my life--kind of hard with a big, teddy bear hubby around who likes his carbs too. The other thing is that I don't see a fat girl in the mirror or in my mind, even at my weight. I still see the girl I was at age 30 after my last weight loss. I know that is a really good thing because it means I feel good about myself on the inside. But then I go out to buy clothes or see a photo of myself and realize what the reality is, and it makes me feel really discouraged. I have been trying to accept that 170 is okay with me for sometime, as everyone has read since I joined the thread. But the last shopping trip with my daughter helped me realize that it isn't. I want the reality to coincide with what is in my mind. The last time I lost weight, it was through Overeaters Anonymous. Though I don't want to do the meeting thing, the restricted carb/food addict philosophy that is part of their program really fits for me. And it also fits with how I've been trying to develop a proper relationship with food. I think I have physical and emotional addiction issues with carbohydrates and sugar that I really need to address. And I think the Atkins diet may help me to address them. The part of the program I am at now allows no flour and few dairy carbs. I am eating a few more low carb veggies than they recommend because the amount they recommended was too hard for me, and I knew I'd quit. But in a week I will start adding in other fruits and veggies, grains and dairy in measured stages, to see what I can still eat and keep losing. It really is to some degree similar to what I did in OA, though Atkins is imposing the structure on me, since I didn't want to come up with my own plan. And I know those first few pounds are water, but I feel good to be making any progress at all. It's been so long since the scale has gone anywhere but up for me. And you're both right to keep the plan you like. Each person has to work the plan that is right for her. Otherwise the plan won't work. Did I just say something philosophical?
Thanks, Lisa, for sharing your experience with Atkins. So far I feel good about what is happening with me. I could probably go on and on with little changes I've seen in myself in the last week, but you all probably would turn off your computers in boredom. I know how hard summer classes must be. First you're studying while it's nice weather, and second, summer session is so concentrated, so you have to study more for each class. I did part of my Master's degree during summer school, and it's easy to miss a lot of summer fun with all the studying involved.
Taiwan--how do you stand the wailing of those funerals? I've never heard of that sort of thing, but I am not very informed on Eastern culture. The noise must drive you absolutely wild.
One more thing--my leg is really improving. Yesterday I spent some time on my feet at work--about 3 hours, and though it was sore, I haven't had any ill effects, and each morning, including today, it has been better. Now mostly it's stiff. But you're right, Miki, it is really important to heal before getting back into the walking. I could do some serious damage otherwise. I am going to try to take a little easy walk in my neighborhood today. The muscles in that leg seem to want to stretch.
Well, it's about time I get something done. Have a great holiday, everyone. And yes, I am looking forward to my quiet evening at home--except I think I will have to babysit our cat through all the fireworks. I hear animals don't like that sort of thing. People I have talked to with dogs say they have to tranquilize them, and my co-worker says her cat hides under the bed till it's over. I'll let you all know what it's like. Talk to you all soon.
