Where is everyone hiding?

Nothing much to report from here. Stayed the same this week weight wise.

M three months are up on Monday at work and I'm going in and asking for a payrise!! Believe me I deserve one!!!!

I got a real shock last week. My dad has a lady friend. He says its only sex, you know how men are, can't live without it! I really don't know how I feel about this. I know she or anyone else will never replace my mum, and I'm glad that dad's happy but I really don't like it very much. It's only been seven months, and I know mum would like dad to be happy,but, I don't know.........is it too soon? I'm afraid this woman will take advantage of him and he won't see it coming. Its been 38 years since he's been on the market as such. Am I being over protective? And when did I become the parent!

Its natural Barb to feel that way. I was same after my mum died and my stepdad found a lady friend. I think that yr dad is probably just lonely and needs a companion. xoxoxox

I'm sorry I haven't been around. I am on holidays and have spent the last week playing tour guide to a friend who was here from Germany. Tomorrow morning I am hopping on a plane, spending 12 days with mum out in country NSW, then three days with friends in Melbourne.

I won't be around until I get back, as there's no internet access where mum is - but I am thinking of you all and will get right back into it when I am back on 18th December.

Ani
xx

Barb it's perfectly normal to feel that way. It's hard to deal with but at least your dad is happy and has found someone to share his time with. I'm sure it'll take a while but you'll get used to the idea eventually.

I've totally lost the plot. I was getting right back in to calorie counting and was hitting the gym regularly and then the ingrown toenail happened followed by 3 days out of town and I've gone so far off track I can't even see the track anymore!

I've just eaten small fries from McD's, 4 chicken drumsticks, half a croissant and 4 pieces of chocolate for lunch and I feel so sick I genuinely wish I could throw up and get rid of it all.

I've just arranged to have someone drop off my iPod so that I can go to the gym tonight. Can't go tomorrow night because I'm getting my hair cut but I have no excuse not to go during the rest of the week.

I'm just so sick of this battle. I lost a good chunk of weight and it's been creeping back on slowly but surely. I got down to 83 and am now back up to 88 at last weigh in. I keep losing and gaining back the same few kilos and I'm fed up. On Saturday I went to the mall to look at clothes and was so upset by the end of it that I came home in tears feeling like a big fat lump.

I need to get back into the right headspace but with the silly season coming up I find it really hard not to fall into the trap of oh there's no point doing it now, I'll just start again after Christmas. I do that all the time and it's not helpful at all.

Is anyone else out there and still reading that is willing to do a December challenge with me? I'm not going to aim to lose any specific amount of weight, I just want to commit to monitoring my diet and exercising regulary during the next 4 weeks.

Went to the gym and did a piddly workout of 20 minutes walking and 10 minutes cycling. Weighed in and am now up to 89kg

Julia I'm still doimg the xmas challenge! On my own by the looks of it! I'm aiming for under 100 by christmas. Hoping to get there at some point. Today I weighed 102.8 so 2.9kg to go for me. I kow exactly how you feel about loosing the same weight all the time. I have lost the same 2kg's over and over again. Don't let the silly season be an excuse. Give yourself some extra cals on the days you know you'll need em, but don't give in completely. You know you can do this, you've done it before. Keep it up.

XX
Barb

Sorry I have not been about. No excuse...just too lazy!

I am in for a little challenge! December is my month to psych myself up again!

I have decided 2010 is going to see me hit (or be well on my way to) 65kg! That is my New Years Resolution! So, for the month of December I am going to explore my eating, exercise and lifestyle habits (which have slipped to waaaaay below healthy!).

I am going to examine everything I eat and discover why I am eating it.

I am going to analyse my urge to binge - the 'why do I do it', the 'what to I eat', the time I get the urge to gorge myself on crap, etc.

I am going to work out my current calorie intake and then look at what I can cut out to reduce the calories I consume.

I am going to explore 'distractions'.

I am going to find ways to include more exercise.

I am going to create a 'routine'!!

For the next 31 days I am going to record everything from what I eat, to what exercise I do, what my mood was during the days, to my normal functions (I probably won't share all of that here! ).

And with everything I discover about my habits and what I learn about myself through December, I will put into action and use it to achieve my New Years Resolution!

my downfall is bedtime snacks but starting tonight no MORE. Matt thinks i have been sleep walking / eating. cause if I 'wake' in the middle of the night i get a bikki and drink or bowl of chips and in the morn i can't really remember.

Yay Yay Yay it's so good to see you all posting!

Barb it sounds like you're doing really well - good on you for sticking to the xmas challenge!!!

Great to hear you sounding keen to jump back on the wagon Lindor If you're able to follow through on your intentions you will learn a LOT and it will give you a really good basis to start the new year off with a bang.

I'm exactly the same Vonni - I snack all evening as I watch tv. It's never because I'm hungry it's just cos I'm being piggy! I don't have sleepwalking to blam though, it's just a very bad habit I've formed over the years.

Today is day 1 for me. I've been recording everything in calorie king and have been drinking lots of water. I'm going to get my little packet of stars out and give myself a star on the calendar for each day that I meet my goal of sticking to my calories and another when I exercise.

I WILL NOT LET CHRISTMAS BE AN EXCUSE FOR GORGING MYSELF ALL DECEMBER!!!!!

Another rainy, cold wintery day in Christchurch. Who stole my summer?

Day 2 for me today and I started off with some greek yoghurt and honey toasted muesli. I've made a salad for lunch and will also have salad for dinner. The important thing will be to make good decisions for morning and afternoon tea.

I've got my gym gear and will be going to the gym tonight.

Jeepers am I the only one here?

Day 3 for me today and so far so good. Stuck to my calories yesterday and did spin at the gym. Today is going well so far and I will go to the gym tonight and do at least half an hour of some sort of cardio.

Day 4.

Didn't make it to the gym last night as I had too many other things to do. Went to the Ezibuy shop to collect a top they had on hold for me. It's a tunic style top, nice and bright and perfect for travelling to hot countries.

After that I went to a local craft market but unfortunately there were just too many people there for it to be enjoyable. Then I did my grocery shopping.

Stuck well within my calories for the day so that's good. I've made myself a lovely salad for lunch today and have some fruit for snacks. Will go to the gym after work tonight and do some cardio.

Quick update.
- fatter than ever
- mum very bad
- heading home for xmas in 2 wks, may stay longer if mum needs help
- icecream not helping
- v.v. sad this will be last xmas with my mummy

PS: Can't wait to see the lovely nieces too - webcam isn't good enough

I'm so sorry to hear that Gen, it will be a tough time. I hope that you are able to spend lots of time with your mum while you're home

Days 5, 6 and 7 were pretty much a non event as far as watching what I ate so I'm trying to make day 8 a good one. Started off with orange juice and poached eggs on toast for breakfast as I'm away from home with work again and was able to have breakky at the hotel. Will have to hunt out something good for lunch.

I'm feeling incredibly uncomfortable at the moment, my clothes seem to be getting tighter despite my efforts and my work uniform in particular is really straining at the seams

I'm in Melbourne at the minute, actually on the Mornington Peninsula.

Back in Perth on Wednesday and right back into the weight loss. Will have time to come back in here then, but just wanted to pop in and say hi.