[LittleKiwi]

Happy birthday Kel! Hope it's an awesome one

Barb do you have a good support network in place? Are you able to talk to a grief counsellor or something like that?

I had a great day with food and exercise yesterday. Went to the gym and did my normal programme for the first time in 2 weeks and even managed a bit of jogging.

Weighed in at 87.1 which is down a bit so that's all good.

[PerthChick]

I work all night
I work all day
to pay the bills I have to pay

Aint it sad!

Sorry for channelling ABBA - clearly I need a holiday!

I have been very slack and undisciplined with my weight loss this month, so I am going to set myself a goal to work hard in May and get rid of another kilo. I'm sick of my excuses, and my lack of commitment - and I need to remind myself that I haven't come this far to undo the work I have done.

Ouch!

Right, back to basics for me: 1650 calories, 2L of water and 10,000 steps. It works - I know it, and now I need to just bloody DO IT!

[7senuf]

yayy for ABBA I love ABBA lol.

[PerthChick]

I love ABBA too Vonni

Have I ever told you that my section at Bunnings is right next to the cafe? Our cafe is full of pre-packed food - cakes, sandwiches, pies and not a healthy option in sight. I rarely eat anything there.

Yesterday I was unloading a pallet of potting mix while my 120+kg work colleague was sitting in the cafe watching me. Now it isn't pretty work - after all, you have to lift around 2400kg and move it to a different place, and potting mix has its own aroma - and I work up a sweat while I am doing it.

My colleague was watching me while she ate a pie and a muffin for breakfast (about 1600 calories), and she passed comment: "No wonder you're so little - good exercise in your job, hey!'.

The thought jumped into my head that she was absolutely wrong. I looked at what she was eating and thought, no - it's actually because I don't do THAT!

I would need to unload around twelve pallets of potting mix - and give myself a hernia in the process - just to burn off her breakfast. And there was NOTHING in what she was eating that would have given me the fuel to do the work - so I would have been harming myself.

Strange how my mind works these days. Even more strange that anyone would describe me as little - by all measures I am still overweight.

[7senuf]

Originally Posted by PerthChick

The thought jumped into my head that she was absolutely wrong. I looked at what she was eating and thought, no - it's actually because I don't do THAT!

I wonder what she would have said beack if you said it out loud lmao. Thats so cool that you have that way of thinking. and PS bugger the 12 pallets haha. I am trying to hunt out my pedometer to see how many steps I do at work. Hopefully enough to burn calories

[LittleKiwi]

Ani I think that it's awesome that you think that way now. That's a great indication that your weight loss is for life. Go you

I was off work sick yesterday. On Monday after the gym I developed lots of tiny bumps on my feet and they were really itchy. They itched all day Tuesday then on Tuesday after the gym I developed a rash on my legs. Woke up yesterday morning and the rash was all over me, itching like CRAZY! Went to the doctor and she thinks it's either an allergy or as I've got very swollen glands and an inflamed throat I may have strep-throat and the rash could be realted.

I had bought a new woolrest for my bed so it may be that but I've never had an allergy in my life so I doubt it. Another option is that I'm allergic to the guy I've been seeing. Hope not! That would suck

Back at work today and I'm actually feeling pretty good despite the swollen glands and the crazy itch.

This afternoon I've got what I hope is my last session of physio today. I've done some gentle jogging at the gym and the calf seems to be healing up well.

[amouse]

im struggling and tired and feel like giving up.. i just cant get control of nothing.. my kids are fighting i cant sleep .. im eating crap and my house is a mess.. im so damnj busy and have had no time for nothing.. im goinf mad.. that what it is complete madness .. and its making me insane.. i just want to scream.. i need my hubby to be home to get some damn pressure off me.. uggh.. thats it im going to go take a long hot shower and send the kids to bed early.

[LittleKiwi]

Take a big deep breath Amy. Maybe start writing down what you eat for a while?

I had a great day yesterday. Ate really well and had a fantastic session at the gym - weights followed by 40 minutes of walk/run intervals. Looks like my calf is finally starting to get better

Tonight I'm going on a proper date - dinner and a movie. Can't wait

[PerthChick]

Amy what are your current goals in relation to weight loss? I find that the more my life is in chaos, the more that is reflected in my weight loss. Maybe if you can take a deep breath and get your house in order, that might help get your mind uncluttered - and you will see your way clear to set some goals… and to get moving on them.

A real date Julia - woo hoo! Have a fantastic night.

I'm having two days off and the first priority is to clean my house this morning. It is in a digusting state right now.

This month my goal is to lose a kilo, but more importantly I am aiming to be consistent with my daily food and water choices.

I have a friend coming over for lunch today so I'd better get cracking and drag out the vacuum cleaner and the mop.

[PerthChick]

Amy she is just a child - and will spend all her life living with the fact that her mother is a murderer. In many ways that are real she is a victim of her mother's crime too.

At the same time I understand that she is a forceful reminder to you and Cameron of his fear, and of a very awful time in his life. Are you able to get him to see a school counsellor or someone else who can help him deal with this? And are you getting any counselling?

No matter how strong or well-adjusted we are, something like that is more than you should try and cope with on your own. Even having John home won't change what happened or how you and your family were affected by it. Please think about some counselling .

[PerthChick]

For the last month I have been way off plan with my weight loss goals and if I'm not careful I am going to put weight back on…

It has been subtle, and "only a few hundred calories a day" - but that's all it takes if I keep it up, and I need to STOP now.

I will weigh in on Monday - and I expect to be up a few kilos - and get this thing right back on track.

It's a little bit frustrating to be honest, because you would think that after all this time I would get it. But no - it's obvious I have more to learn…

[amouse]

Im feeling a bit better still not sleeping very well but the rat that has decided to live in my roof really isnt helping the little b$stard had a party up there last night after he did hurdle long jump and sprinting that is.. ugghh.. come home hubby climb in the roof with the ratsack for me.
Im gonna dig out the white noise machine tonight so i can get some sleep . ( since its too cold for the fan)

I have suprised myself.. i really thought i had well blown my cals for the last few days and that wasn't helping my mood . let me tell you.

anyway i got into the diary filled it in and was very suprised by what i saw.. fine my diet wasnt fab but somehow i didnt go over cals .. so i suppose it's reasuring to me in a way even when im down a hole im not going back to the old habits..despite the fact i thought i had.

Today i know im over but today i had planned to be over.. as its a day off .. even though i havent really had any days 100% on plan.. hehehe.

..
WE played baord games all morning .. operation.. connect 4 .. and naugghty dogs b4 we knew it it was 2 pm ( and we were all still in pj's ) and the kids were hungry for there lunch. I think we all needed to get down and have some fun together

after that i sang a few songs on ss and got myself off my butt and on to my lonely dusty elliptical. I managed 15 minute b4 i felt like i was going to puke.. took a rest and did another 15 minutes .. it been months since i have been on it .. so i was pretty happy with that and i managed to get 9kms.in that time .. so not too shabby

so yup im slowly clawing my way back i have planned my fitnes goals for the week and am taking alot of pressure off food wise.. i find if im working hard i dont wanna eat the crap.. so this is where i once again restart .. well kinda lets say i restarted on thursday


Thursday even though it was my worst night .. ( when i lost the plot)
I went to aqua aerobics and worked my *** off .. we have a new instructer and she reminds me of michelle on TBL.. move it faster go go go .. no talking.. go go go... hehehe .. she is fabulous just what i need ..

She tols us after the class she is a personal trainer.. geee you couldn't half guess..

anyway thursday was aqua *** kick
friday i did 60 minutes walking
and today i did 30 minute elliptical

I have a plan to do something every day

Mon elliptical
tuesday swim or wlk
wed yoga
thu aqua
friday wiifit or walk
sat elliptical
sun wii fit

i think by mixing it up a bit more i might get some mojo back.. I have this plan booked into mmw for the following month with a goal of 30 days of fitness in 30 days

I know they say to have a break .. so ill just go easy on the wii fit days .


AS for the other post i deleted it.. The little girl said hello again.. she seems only a shadow of her former self.. even though she had it tough ( neglected) she was a bright happy child , now she doesnt even appear to be a shadow of her former self .. she was walking her dog in the rain when we came home from school. Im not angry with her.. i think it was just the mother in me trying to protect my kid.. Cameron is still seeing the cousellor at school they have been brilliant.. he played up wednesday they saw him thursday .. thankfully this time he was mainly tired and worrying about me.. not the child accorss the road being there .. which i thought was the reason he cracked .. and just made me boil over ..

Im back to taking the st johns wart it has always helped me in the past and im sure it will again .. I know i definatly have some form of depression and id rather do somthing about it now then let it get worse .. 6 months i have been yoyoing emoitionally that is long enough..

now i have written a small novel im going to go watch spy kids with the kids... uggghhh save me.. lol.. but they want me to come watch with them.
nighty night

"giggles as she hits quick reply...(what a joke) "

[smylie]

thanks so much for birthday wishes you guys all rock!


i'm back!!!!
best road trip ever
benji, jem and i had a great time
and thanks to the kindness of friends and family I was away 14 days and only had to pay for 3 nights accommodation!
jem and i drove brisbane to newcastle and stayed 2 nights with a friend and then to sydney and 2nights with one friend and trip to the zoo and then 2 nights with another friend and went to WIGGLES concert and then benji flew down and we drove to my aunty's house in corryong and had a lovely 2 days and then we drove to melbourne and saw my brother 2 nights at the novotel for $49! (was going to stay at brothers but his flatmate JUST had a baby a week before) ($49 deal meant QUICK seminar one day which was easy) and then 3 nights with another friend that was so so nice proper catch up time home cooked meals etc and great ocean road and then drive home staying at Dubbo friday night and home last night to cats and dogs and tidy house!
benji tidied before he came down! he is amazing!!!

weight, i have NO idea what to expect on monday weigh in
i have of course been eating terribly for the last 2 weeks
my daughter now sees KFC or Maccas and cute as pie says "neggets, chappies, neggets, chappies" and everytime i ask her what she wants to eat she says the same thing (translation nuggets and chips)
but we did also eat a lot of kebabs and souvlakis and had subway once..... and homemade rolls once.......
we shall see

julia - TELL ALL ABOUT DATE

vonni - sorry for the late notice last night re dinner, we had no phone reception and no idea where we would be at dinner time..... we ended up having kfc (neggets chappies) on the run and got home about 7.30 which was good - if we had called in it would have been such a late night today would have been a write off - are you and stevie still coming to book party?

ani - how did the footy go? also when i read about your thoughts when you were watching the girl eat a days worth of calories for brekky it made me think of things a friend of mine said a couple of days ago.
those thoughts are her thoughts and she is losing weight with weight watchers right now - she is also an inspiration - she has lost almost 45kg since january last year - all food choices and exercises

amy - the single parent thing when you are not a single parent must be so hard! i am so lucky benji comes home every night but i am going to pick up my game a little and let him relax more when he does

barb - i have NEVER lost anyone close to me and anyone i have lost we have had notice and they were old or VERY sick so i am sorry i have no idea what to say except take each day as it comes and look after yourself

gotta go will weigh in monday
i tried to read a couple of pages i missed but sorry if i missed anything big

[7senuf]

Kel those pics are awesome. And yes we are coming so far so good. You'll have to send me addy again and time etc.... I am such a dumbass I never write things down.

Amy hope u are feeling in a better frame of mind. Sounds like u really are on a downer at the moment. And u seem angry.

Ani hows the weight today? I bet u have maintained not gained as u reckon. Cause yr work is so physical. I havent weighed for a bit cause i am scared what they'll say lol.

Lindor are u there? Barb? Gen?

JULIA THE DATE?????? hhhmmmm details puleeze

[amouse]

I finally got a full nights sleep and have a few things to be happy about..

I have worked out everyday since thursday
i have pretty much stuck to my cals since wednesday
I was hungry after dinner last night and ignored the urge to eat the last scone in the fridge and pile it with jam and cream... lol... i had water instead.. go me... lol

I have caught up on my house work.. other then washing .. lol << that will never change unless we all become nudists... lmao
and i cooked a delicious meal last night .. made my own lasagna stuffed it full of vegiies .. mushroom, asparagus ,beans, parsnip , carrot , zuchinni , onion , garlic, tomato, capsicum and squash.. .. and mince , pasta sheets and cheese of course was 363 cals a serve..

never made a lasagna before and will never buy one again.. my one was so much better .. lol and we will be having again for dinner tonight .. it was supposed to feed 4 .. and i didnt use all the sheets .. but with all ther veggies it went alot further


Ani i only just saw the colleage and her breakfast story... all i can say is YUK.. who would eat that for breakfast and if that is breakfast i dread to think what lunch and dinner would be .. but i love the fact you are so intuned with what is the reason behind weightloss /gain.. you are 100% correct.. you can have a phsyical job and still gain weight .. my hubbys work mates are clear as crystal models of that .. they moves tons and tons everyday .. yet they still manage to gain weight .. why.. brekfast is a fry up of egg bacon sausage and served with 3-4 slices of white bread.. morning tea is a hotdog and suasage roll.. lunch is a pie another sausage roll and a large iced coffee.. and then dinner is a buffet.. of meats and fryed food .. of course there is the healthy choices there .. but what bloke is gonna go for that... The reson i know all that is becuase i have turned JOhn into a health concious eater.. He was gaining badly wehn he first went up there and now he tell me what the others eat in disgust.. John has always been at about ideal weight but it the first 2-3 months he gained 10 kilos ... hated it then started asking me what to eat.. lol .. now he is back to ideal again..

Kel im glad you had a great trip

vonni .. i was angry.. but i have got over it for now and am feeling my self again

JUlia date details.......pwwweeeease.... hey maybe the date was so good you're still on it... lol


anyway i gotta go or the boy is gonna be late for school