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Help -- my husband is a maniac!
We ended up walking around London for 7.5 hours yesterday with a half-hour off for lunch and some gallery-walking included. My feet! I had on Birkenstocks but they weren't up to the pavement pounding. Ow! I'm going to have to see a podiatrist when we get home -- should have before we went. Wearing running shoes today, all vanity renounced. Only 3.5 hours on my feet to this point and will convince DH to dine somewhere close to the hotel.
We saw an awful play -- or the first act of same -- at the National Theatre last night. The ticket seller talked us into it when there were no tix for the one we wanted to see. It was based in the 1920s and was bleak and nasty. I'm going to look up something heart-warming for the next one... Bath was wonderful -- such a beautiful, beautiful city, so Jane Austen. And the countryside is incredible. I want to go back! Seeing amazing art here though. I can, literally, feel my brain activity picking up, processing, processing. I must admit I'm looking forward to getting back to my real life again -- tai chi, choir practice, writing group, the new office space, my peeps. :) Anagram, glad your back's recovering! What was the talk on? You know, in no time at all you'll be bouncing around 195. :woohoo: Kaylets, yes, you need good nutrition for support -- it makes everything better. Huzzah for pant size down -- but look after yourself! Yes, Honey, still holding you and DH in my thoughts. WSW, you haven't done anything fun or relaxing in all this time? Can you plan something? Even just a self-pampering session? Anagram's right about what the condo people should make up to you, every bit of it. K, Lovelies, shall sign off for now. :love: |
Was 199.2 Sat. morning - didn't weigh in today as I had house guests overnight. However, it will be WAY up tomorrow. Was tres naughty.
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Good to hear from you, arabella. Sounds SO dreamlike - your journey! May the fun continue.
This weeks talk was on good things about the '30s depression and some about "Bonnie & Clyde", the real folks vs. the movies. Ineresting but I liked the earlier one on The First Ladies better. Still both were a little "self-pampering". 'Ray, self-pampering!!! :turkey: |
Second-to-last day
And all pretty much according to plan with enough leeway for serendipity. :) Today we rode the Millennial Wheel for a panoramic view of London. There was a 3D film before hand that was actually more exciting than the "flight" -- birds flying around us, Indian women throwing rose petals at us, snow falling around us. Amazing! We walked through Covent Garden market on the way back and I bought some strands of various shades and shapes of green stones. The plan is to make myself a glorious necklace. I will do it, I will...
We were out and about for about 5 hours today and will be out again for dinner. And I have been very, very well-behaved with my food choices all the way through. I think my clothes are looser, I really do. :crossed: Will weigh in on Friday to find out for sure. Anagram, :devil: scale may be up tomorrow but it'll be back down again in a twinkling. One must be naughty from time to time, n'est-ce pas? ;) Cheers, Luvs! |
Oh, but I am so regularly naughty!!! Trip still sounds so dreamy.
Was at 201.2 again yesterday. So, so naughty. Another friend passed awy yesterday while I was already at a funeral. A two funeral week is a bit much but I am so grateful to be "on this side of the grass" (as the golfers and others say). Cousins are coming back again Wednesday night, leaving Thursday morning. It's having snacks etc around for them and other drop ins that have me being naughty. And it's really ME as the one eats very little and the other is currently doing WW. Has dropped 20 lbs recently and this included last month when her husband passed away. She's tremendously active though and I know that helps too. Anyway, must accomplish something or other today as my "doing" time is somewhat limited this week. :turkey: |
One more sleep in London
Until 4 a.m., anyway. When we must leap up, shower, grab a cuppa and head down to the lobby for pickup. They want you at the airport FOUR hours before take-off for overseas flights. So, in effect, we get up at four a.m. and get home at 11:30 p.m. But, given the time zone difference, it'll only be 7:30 local. Nevertheless, 19.5 hours travelling. Ouch. :yawn: I'm going to have a nice epsom salts bath to try to ensure that I can sleep tonight.
Anagram, really, 201.2 -- you call that a bump-up? I can do that without half-trying :smug: And when I really put heart and soul into it...watch out! :lol: I had a similar week over last winter, getting back from a funeral to hear that DS's ex FIL had died. Oh yeah, this is definitely one of times when the grass is greener this side. Although, of course, we just don't know how green it is on the other. I expect fabulous scented gardens, warm sunshine... K, off to pour a nice epsom salt bath. Next post will be from home... xoxo |
We'll be waiting for that first "home" post, Arabella!
20l.8 today and that was a real gift considering my naughty ways lately. I was as high as 202.2, then 201.4, then a "forgot to weigh" day and I was ready to continue not weighing :0 So to have a 201.8 was a gift and now I am going to show my appreciation by climbing back on a sturdy steed who will carry me away from temptation. It was "one of those" weeks. Enjoyed the company of my New England cousins for a bit (which entailed eating out, of course) and then had the two funerals. Quiet day at the moment. Will get to tai chi as postponed lunch w/friend originally planned for today. Also did finally get back to pool for a water workout one day this week. wsw - hope you're ever so much closer to getting back "home" and catching your breath. Missing kat and lots of others. Off to grocery store that has a special sale every time Friday the 13th hits. Wasn't in my original plan but, hey, might as well as Turkey Day approaches and, if nothing else, there are many pleas to fill bags of food for others. One sits on my counter and I do intend to do more than look at it ;) :turkey: |
Forgot to mention the second funeral was for the friend I mentioned just a few weeks ago who was about 300 pounds. Again, that should inspire me if nothing else does.
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201.6 today - so quickly up, so slowly down.
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Anyone else having problems getting on 3FC? I came on once and read since I got home and then haven't been able to get in again. There's a thread on the main forum page about a number of people having trouble. Probably a server issue, I'm thinking.
I'm going to go have lunch and I've got my time allotted today but I'll be back in with a real post tomorrow. Oh, Anagram -- what a potent reminder for all of us, that second funeral. Love to all! |
Lots happening since I was last here I see! Hi guys!
Still on dial up which makes life really s-l-o-w......will try and pop in a little more regularly! |
Hello all,
It's been a long, long week. Last Monday was the last day DH was able to leave the house except for doctor appt much less work. Chemo is on break until Dec 14 or so, platelet counts are too low and need to rebuild....radiation continues Monday after a short break this week. Finally, today he had enough strength to leave the house for awhile and luckily it was a warm, sunny day for him to enjoy. If we could just figure a way to make swallowing easier for him....... Myself, well, have to admit, it definitely rattled me to see how low this knocked him and how low he felt mentally. I would be lost if Dmom wasnt here. I would've been afraid to leave him alone last week but because she was here, was able to work. Glad to hear everyone continues to do well.... WSW, are you back home yet? Thanks for all the good thoughts and prayers.... sometimes I really can feel them giving me strength when all around me is crisis..... :hug::hug: |
Kay, keeping you and DH in prayers.
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Settling back in
Good morning, Lovelies! Well, it's been one darned thing or another since I got back. DH commandeered my computer on the weekend trying to resolve a problem with his iPod. And, of course, I'm swamped, work-wise. Also fighting another stupid cold. DH had it while we were away.
Nevertheless, 'tis what 'tis. I skipped choir practice last night to go to bed early. But I have been practicing. Performance (the Messiah) is on Dec. 6th. Anagram, the trip seems like a dream to me now too. :lol: Did we really do all that? I'm going to put together a presentation with photos and text to have a better memory of all of it. Oh, Kaylets honey! :hug: I'm so glad your Dmom is with you. What a blessing! Continuing to hold you and DH in my thoughts and prayers. Ceara! How lovely to see you in the Palace. :) Looking forward to hearing your news. WSW, have you made it home? Hope you're feeling well. Up early today to get a jump on work. So I guess I should go do some... :s: Love to all! |
Hi ya! Yup, managed to wander through.
It is amazing how quickly a trip fades in your memory....I agree Arabella. Nothing much new....just more of the same. Still the same job, same staff (thank goodness!) and a lot of the same nonsense. I did spend a year soing a lot of showing of one of my girls and ended up in the top 20 for the American stats...that was fun. And I saw a lot of the U.S. in the process. I'll be back! |
Great to see you, ceara!! Your year sounds like a fab accomplishment of a dream as well. Nice to have you home, arabella, though I enjoyed travelling w/you vicariously. Hope you get caught up on "life" soon.
Dear Kaylets - thinking of you often and praying for you both. If Mom helped in no other way, just knowing she has your back while you're at work is such a blessing. So sorry to hear all DH is going through. wsw, I hope you're in the home stretch if not actually home. Well, I'm hurting myself again. Sunday 203.8 Monday 201.8 Tuesday 201.8 Wednesday 202.4 Sunday's leap was because I ate out Saturday but I was on target yesterday. Must make the effort in memory of childhood friend. Not to mention for myself. :turkey: |
So we've gotten to Thursday
I don't feel as knocked out by the cold as I did earlier in the week -- life seems possible again. Huzzah! Unfortunately, I've got a ton of work to do today to make up for days when brain was glop-filled and non-functioning. But... I feel like I can do it. Now just the discipline to make myself stick at it all day. :strong:
Anagram, I expect to be caught up on life by the weekend -- or as caught up as I ever get :lol: Got to get practicing for the Messiah! And then we'll be into the mad whirl of Christmas. :) Ceara, congrats on your star! The travel around the U.S. must have been fun. I'd love to get a chance to travel more down there some day. Kaylets, keeping you and yours in thoughts and prayers, sending good energy. :grouphug: K, Lovelies, enough talk... time to hit the decks. Let's make this a good one! |
202.4 again today. Bleah! And as Arabella mentioned, the whirl of Christmas cometh.
Love hearing of youir Messiah practices, etc. too. Hit some great sales yesterday and did a little Christmas prep in that direction. Mostly working on Thanksgiving right now. Both kiddos and all family members expected so it's a full house weekend. And as always, they have all sorts of other plans as well and I plan on recuperating the next week. Waiting for new windows to be scheduled too but at this point, that will not be until after Thanksgiving. (If then, being told November might mean NEXT November ;) ) Rainy today but only mildly so - life seems good today - still busy but less harried so I want to relax and enjoy that as it probably won't last too long. :turkey: |
Yes, it is coming. Of course you guys get your Thanksgiving in the midst of it all....I am so glad ours is earlier. And I was away Oct 31, so no candy for me then!
Have been trying to stick to my guns here...same old. Was walking at dark o'clock this morning...with a big stick. It is very dark here! |
Friday!
Weighed in up a pound from last week. I WILL get this thing in hand -- there's no way I'm going back up the scale. I wish I hadn't stopped weighing myself over the summer but ... you know, if wishes were horses and all that. Must accept where I am and move on. :yes:
And I am so profoundly grateful to have some energy again and the capacity to be excited about life. Yesterday was a pretty good day, despite heavy workload. I vacuumed between writing tasks, did laundry, made soup. Managed to get out for a walk in the sunshine. :cp: Still have some cold symptoms but am not incapacitated, huzzah. With the Messiah two weeks from Sunday, I'm v. happy that this is a fast-moving cold. This is looking like a busy weekend -- tonight there's a birthday party for four November birthdays in the extended fam. Tomorrow evening there's a gallery crawl. Trying to decide whether to have DSIL & DBIL for dinner afterwards or go out. If I can think of something easy... DH has promised to help. Then Sunday afternoon there's a symphony performance and I've got to get my review in before 9 a.m. on Monday. Whew!!! BUT -- I'm getting a long weekend next week because of working with Americans. Ahhhhhhhh! :cb: :cb: Anagram, your Thanksgiving weekend sounds so fun! I've always imagined doing something like that. I've got this fantasy about renting a huge house for fam. to spend several days around Christmas together, hang out in P.J.s, play games, get a chance to catch up. When I'm wealthy, will definitely do that. :yes: To this point DS has always been here for Christmas eve, the last two with his GF. Hope you get your new windows. My dream is to actually get ours cleaned before winter sets in. :cloud9: Ceara, yes, we're back to dark. Seems a little sudden, doesn't it. But I love being out by myself in the quiet dark, just me and the stars. I miss being out in the dark in the summer -- we go to bed so freakin' early. But that'll change once we're off our work hamster wheels. WSW, I hope that you're back home and that things are going okay. :hug: Kaylets, I've been meaning to mention (not sure if I have but just in case I forgot) -- there's a distant healing network of volunteers that you can request help from. :hug: In fact, DHN is great support for anyone with any type of problem or issue, whether physical or whatever. All right, all you best and brightest of :queen:s. Let's take this day we've been given and make the most of it! |
So good to have you back, arabella (I know I've said that before but it is SO true).
Your yesterday sounds like you've indeed recouped energy and enthusiasm. I'm in need of more enthusiasm lately as well. ceara, I too wish our Thanksgiving were earlier. It is in grave danger of being lost in the commercial rush. And it is the one time a year (barring weddings, funerals) that I do get all my nuclear family here at the same time. Piddling little group that we are (7). I'm from such a big clan but as all have aged and moved away, etc. I'm down to usually the seven and that's probably a good thing as sometimes it's all I can handle - the comings and goings in the one weekend leave me spinning. I do get a lot of Princess time though and they LOVE the whole family thing. Yeah, verily on the dark thing. I love to pop out to get the paper in the wee minutes as dawn is thinking about it all. And I'm able to be out and about a lot in the daytime and make sure that I get some of that in every day. 201.6 this a.m. so happier. Strange thing is I ate out last night and that usually means an 'UP'. However, I'm not complaining - just determined (as arabella) NOT to zoom up again. Went to a community college class three weeks ago, sat on a high stool at the coffeehouse locale, and have been having back problems ever since. Finally made dr. appt. for Monday. I figure making the call will make it all go away (I hope anyway). So off to tai chi today in booful sunshine and then on to another grocery run. Still trying to decide whether a whole turkey or a turkey breast. No one of we seven eat dark meat. Decisions, decisions. :turkey: |
201.6 again this sunny morning! Hope to get a walk in once I get a few of the mundane things out of the way.
Gaining on the T'giving planning. Tempted to go shopping for gifts but I think I'll save that for a day when it's a bit more nasty outside. 'nuff to do here and around and about. |
Thanks, Anagram -- the Palace is such a home to me. I am v. happy to be here.
I think there's been a worldwide conspiracy this year to move Christmas up. I saw decorations going up in some places before Halloween. Oy! And it was the same everywhere we were. I heard they lit the tree in Rockefeller Center weeks ahead of the usual time. Trying to stimulate the economy, no doubt, but they could kill the golden goose if everyone gets bored with the festive season. :yawn: Well. I'm feeling a bit the worse for wear today, between the dregs of the cold and, um, possibly trying to do too much. Nevertheless. Onward. It'll be great to get four days next weekend, more or less and I'll attempt to look after myself in the meantime. Went for a little run through the woods and will be walking again this evening. Putting together a simple casserole dish for dinner, w. salad, a bought pie for dessert and veggies and dip as an app. But probably should have elected to go out, given the busy-ness of this weekend. Oh well. Hope all :queen:lies have a wonderful weekend. Love to all, mentioned or un-. |
Mornin' all!
Have been for a walk and am off shortly to church. Then this afternoon I am touring houses decorated for Christmas, maybe that will inspire me! Spent yesterday on the couch, am fighting a cold! Darn it! |
It begins...
Okay -- I'm officially entering into the merry festive whirl. :ginger:
The gallery crawl was fun last night and a treat to be out walking from place to place downtown with DH, DSIL & DBIL. Not too too cold and the lights were pretty. Mulled cider and/or wine on offer in each galleries and such beautiful stuff -- some glorious jewelry :cloud9: And got a chance to see friends along the way, have a chat. It really felt very celebratory. Then we came back here and had a lovely dinner, a nice long relaxed one. It was pleasant to have just the four of us there. :tree: DSIS' hair is growing back. Quite short yet but it looks like it's got lovely texture and body. Unfortunately, when she was shopping the other day she overheard a kid say "Mummy, that lady looks like a daddy!" And she really is quite sensitive. So last night she wore a big hat. In any case, she still seems quite well and is slated to start easing back into work in a couple of weeks. We've got DH's staff party on the weekend. The week after will be my Mom's birthday, the Messiah, then writing group party, our family party, DH's birthday, Christmas Eve party, Christmas day party, New Year's Eve/anniversary... yes, it begins. :xcheer: Soooooo... I'm going to have to get more serious about this weight loss thing. I'd like to do that! Will come up with a plan. :yes: Ceara, hope you're taking the zinc/vit c lozenges. They really seem to help shorten duration and lessen severity. Feel better soon! Okey-doke. I must have my bath and then get back to writing the symphony review. Here's how on top of things I am today: the performance is in 2 hours' time. But review's due before 9 tomorrow morning because date's so close to publication. I resolve to have review finished this evening. So, my dears, have a wonderful Sunday. Let's get ready to hit Fresh Start Monday with gusto! :candy: :candy: |
Yes those lozenges are a staple for me in cold treatment. I looked at the cold fx and thought :?: It seems to be a suppliment...and since I do take enough already, why be out of pocket so much money?
Yesterday was fun....I don't know if I could live in some of those houses...too big, but they were nice to look at. Off for a walk! |
Fresh Start Monday
And I can use it! I haven't been off the rails, not at all. But not doing enough to lose weight. Apparently :dz: And, since I'm going to have to exert some control, I might as well apply enough to lose weight rather than just not gain, wouldn't you think?
I enjoyed the performance yesterday -- "Mendelssohn Magic" and -- more magic -- actually managed to get my review submitted on time. I would like to have worked on it a bit more but you can only do so much in so much time. 'Twas okay. Tonight's choir practice. Still not totally recovered from the cold but good enough to go, I think. I'll drink lots of ginger tea today. There won't be more than 4 or 5 practices now before the event. :candy: :candy: Ceara, I've had more success with the zinc lozenges than Cold FX and they're SO much cheaper. Although I was pretty steamed when I got the Life brand ones and found when I got them home (and could actually read the package) that they had the wrong kind of zinc, so were pretty ineffectual. Grrr! Hope you feel better soon. :ginger: K, Lovelies, let's hit it this week! :xcheer: |
201.2 today. Don't deserve it. Was naughty. Will answer more later. Sort of bummed out as my kidlings seem to be spatting a bit and this doesn't do a few days before they get here. Nothing major - as far as I'm concerned - but it does not help my mood - which was great before I was cc'd on their emails.
Off to doctor today for my back which has been aggravating me the last three weeks. What's my hurry? :turkey: |
Which zinc is the good one? I use the Jamieson ones...
The cold is abated, still a bit stuffily in the head, but I think I will try and NOT take daytime medication...it makes my eyes go buggily and I see oddly. Very distracting. Missed walking Saturday but have continued daily since then. Clothes are a bit looser, and I feel better. OK...off to groom! |
Grrrrrrrr!!!
What a frustrating day I'm having! Technical issues with work applications/ computer so that I haven't been able to get a tap of work done ALL DAY but have had to be at the computer anyway. Fortunately, I've got a new commitment to sticking to plan or I'm sure I'd be nose down in the feed bag. Chocolate will fix the issue, surely?
Had a weird little binge yesterday afternoon -- it was like I forced myself. I don't want to go there again. What's the point in being naughty if it's no fun? Anagram, hope you get some help for your back! Could you ask kidlets to spare you the spatting? That's the last thing a mom needs! Ceara, the Jameson's ones would be good. Zinc gluconate is what you need. You can pretty much tell they're working or not by the pervasive taste that seems to get lodged in your tissues. Seems to be part and parcel. Oh crap, I've got to go do more battle w. computer... :wave: |
Did a lot of work yesterday, but today I have most of the day to get packed and groom.
First off to walk then eat brekkie. The dogs are fed and the coffee's made! Computer woes are a pain, I agree! But it seems that our lives are more intwined with them every day! |
Aye, those computers are wonders when they work but when they don't.......
I was at 200.4 or something like that yesterday but today - ta da - was back down to 199.8. Ole Demon Scale knows how to toy w/me. Will try to be very good over holiday but lots of food here. Saw doc for back - gave me script for prednisone - I've had it filled but haven't taken it yet. Other than back (& kids) I've been feeling better than in ages - back is improving but still debating meds. There's that old weight gain thing w/prednisone. DS did point out to DD that Mom (who is not involved) should not be subjected..... etc. I've done my best to ignore and they did exchange a little courtesy in that she wished him good luck on some job issues and he had suggested they talk about it just not at that time and/or via email. DD has emailed a bit more to me but I've been trying to be diplomatic. Problem this time is that DD included DDIL who is also not a shy chick (though very nice). I'm sure things will go well enough on the holiday but it (and work issues) may have DS/DDIL leaving early (as vs staying the whole weekend). Sigh....... Well, back to prepping for tomorrow. Good healthy menu planned if I limit myself (as there are also a lot of goodies planned). Seeing that 199.8 today just might keep me from going bananas. I hope. |
Happy Thanksgiving to my wonderful American friends!
I'm thankful for YOU!
Hmmm... I was going to put a turkey there but the "more smilies" button seems to be opening a new post window instead. Well, in any case, probably for the best. I wouldn't want :queen:lies thinking I was suggesting they were turkeys. :turkey: ? Sorry -- just had to try. You are not a turkey, though. So. Day 2 here, and all is well. I'll come in with my formulated list before long but for now I'm: exercising, drinking plenty of water, eating plenty of fruits and veggies & not eating sugar or wheat or... junk. :tree: I've got writing group tonight. Huzzah! It will be great to spend an evening with lovely women and do some writing. :ginger: Anagram, I'm glad the kidlets at least know better. Sheesh! Maybe there'll be a holiday miracle and all will be harmonious? :crossed: Ceara, where are you off to? I apologize if you said. Man, those dogs keep you hopping, don't they. K, Lovelies, have a wonderful Thanksgiving. Love to each and every one of you, even the ones that are AWOL. |
Holy puffy!
Had pizza on brown rice tortillas for dinner last night, complete with anchovies and olives. It was good, and pretty much blameless but for a modest amount of cheese but salty. Up 1.5 this a.m. and pants feel snugger. Howe'er, I ran a little extra this morning and did yoga. Shall hit the water. Glug. Salt cannot prevail.
:tree: We've got DH's staff party tonight. They usually have a typical Christmassy meal so I can do turkey and veggies, salad and skip the dessert. Just need my mind set on a 2-glass wine limit. We'll also be walking there and likely dancing, so that should work out okay. Muesli/fruit/yogurt for breakfast; bean soup for lunch. :ginger: Still have a little work to do before Monday but now I'm tired. So I'm going to take it easyish this afternoon. And, huzzah, no cooking tonight. :xcheer: May your day be merry and bright! |
One more party down
:xcheer: And it was a triumph, if not really a lot of fun. And it's over! I conducted myself exactly as planned, huzzah. Also DH and I cleaned the living room windows -- they have to be taken down with a ladder and dismantled and reassembled for cleaning, so an extra hour of calories burned and nice to have them clean and shiny. :angel:
I've got to do some work today because I procrastinated. Ah well. But, o/w, it's Sunday: We'll go for a long walk, come back for eggy breakfast. :tree: :ginger: May all :queen:lies have a wonderful day. Love to all! |
Hello all,
Things have slowed down some, and DH has had a chance to recoup and get stronger..... We are holding our breath for confirmation as the radioogist thinks the radiation has killed the lung tumor. DH has 2 more scheduled radiation treatments until further notice. In about 2 weeks, a PET Scan will tell us more. The lymph nodes are still in question of course and then, there is always that question, "Did the cancer go anywhere else?"...... But we are enjoying the respite, DH has been able to enjoy many more foods again and even took DMom and I for a ride yesterday after breakfast out. We did Thanksgiving but at a slow pace, and I am starting to decorate a little for Christmas.... first, more cleaning and rearranging to make room. Again, on a small scale but to keep our hand in..... DH's sister and her husband were here a week ago for 2 days and she plans on coming back in 2 weekends.... It was fun to see them and lifted DH's spirits enormously. Its amazing how something like this reshuffles your priority deck and how you are so able to give away so many things you held so precious in boxes in closets and basements and attics. Here's today's thought: ************ Thought of the day: "All problems become smaller if you don't dodge them, but confront them. Touch a thistle timidly, and it pricks you; grasp it boldly and its spines crumble." - William S. Halsey, WWII U.S. Admiral Question of the day: "Did you do any shopping this weekend or today?" **************************** Hugs to all, Anagram, I will check out the distance site...thanks~ |
Fresh Start Monday
I was well-behaved this weekend and am on the path. Weight is starting to subside but still not quite back to ticker :dz:
:snowglo: Kaylets, I'm so glad that your DH is having a bit of respite. As for tumor being gone -- :crossed: :tree: I did a little shopping this morning -- online. So fast, so easy, so... dangerous! :lol: Wheeeeeeee!!! :ginger: Hope all :queen:ly folk are well. |
Please start a new thread as this one is past the 500 mark. Thanks.
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