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A new week/Another Fresh Start!
Good Morning, friends!
Kind of a drizzly, grayish day here... Hurricane Bill is not going to hit us after all, but he's going to make his presence known from afar. I do enjoy the occasional dreary summer day, I can get stuff done inside the house without longing to be outdoors. I'm supposed to attend a 'luau' later today, at a co-worker's home... actually at the beach in front of her home. All beaches have been closed to swimmers all weekend due to the above mentioned Bill, so we'll see. I had an interesting day yesterday with my mom... we went to an 'Antiques Roadshow' type event. You know, where you bring your old stuff and have it evaluated/appraised? She's always said that if they ever come to the area, she's got a bunch of stuff that belonged to her grandparents that she'd love to have looked at...so now, here's her chance! Off we went, armed with a beautifully framed, OLD picture of what we've always just called, "the Lady," also, a set of cloisonne vases, a centennial platter, and a book, personalised by the author, circa 1918. We were #33 in a large roomful of people, got there just as they were calling for "number 4." So we spent the afternoon just checking out everyone else's junk, er, family heirlooms! The dealer, when we finally got to him, was very impressed with "the lady," remarked about the wonderful condition she was in, and said that based on the way it's framed, it was probably painted in the late 1800s, and is worth anywhere from $2000-$2500! The vases and the platter not nearly as valuable, maybe worth about $500 total, and he said we should bring the book to a book dealer to determine it's true worth. Afterwards, we took a ride down to our favorite beach to check out the surf, see what all the fuss was about. The waves were pretty large, there was no one in the water, but plenty of people on the beach! Got a good, long walk in and headed off to dinner... steamers, seared tuna steak, veggies, salad; I was a good girl! ...except, maybe, for the two beers... :o All in all, a really nice day! I attended a good WW meeting yesterday AM... the leader addressed the issue of getting back on track after, maybe, just coasting through the summer, which I have certainly done! She said to pick JUST ONE THING that would help to jumpstart the MOMENTUM we need to get back in line, whether it's getting enough water in, increasing activity, etc. Focus on doing that one thing so well that the other pieces will naturally fall into place. Makes sense... start slowly, build momentum, okay, I can do this! She also used a phrase that I'm finding very thought provoking: "Manage your thoughts." At first I didn't really pay attention to the words, so intent was I on planning how I would get myself back in line, and then she said it again, so I paid more attention, "Manage your thoughts." In other words, don't let your own personal mind games get the best of you and sabotage your situation... something I'm very adept at! "I've been going to WW for six weeks now and have ONLY lost 2 lousy pounds!!" became: "I've been out to eat quite a bit this summer, but I have attended meetings regularly and have maintained my weight loss!" Manage your thoughts: "I had those cookies at work, I have NO self control!" vs. " I enjoyed the heck out of those cookies, I counted the points, and I'm moving forward!" I have such a L O N G way to go... vs. I have come a L O N G way from 30 lbs ago. Not only CAN I do this, I AM doing this! I like it! So I will challenge all Royal Folk to join me and "Manage Your Thoughts." wsw... Hang in there, girl! Tighten your seatbelt on that wagon and just hold on! One of the tactics our fearless (WW) leader gives about plateau-ing is to do just what you said: change it up! Vary your food choices, go higher one day, lower the next (within your range) try something different each day, exercise-wise. You are on the right track... your body is just catching up and readjusting itself to all the good work you have ALREADY done! Anagram, I was thinking of you yesterday... I overheard a couple discussing "Elderhostel" and some of the neat trips they had been on! I went to the website and signed up to receive some more information... I'm looking forward to learning more about the program! Greetings to everyone else... Kinda slow around here lately. I hope you're all out there, grabbing all you can from the rest of the summer... it sure seems to have flown by! Much as I love the summer, I do look forward to the change of season... makes each day of the waning season that much more precious! Have a happy day, and MANAGE YOUR THOUGHTS! |
Kat, what a blessing to finally come on and read your post - it said a LOT of what I need to hear (what I love about the palace). I've not been checking in and just realized this a.m. that it's because I've been doing so badly. I had restarted a week or so ago and made it maybe four days and have been wallowing in my BAD THOUGHTS. So - HERE I GO AGAIN.
I have not yet read the other posts I've missed but was so excited/motivated about what you said above that I had to get right back to you. thanks. The horrible humidity we've been having has decreased and it's lovely today on the PoPaC. I've got no pressing things today so should be able to fight off my funk a little better. It's a time of year when I'm oft down and I'm telling myself my usual "look nothing's worse than two weeks ago so cut it out" but I'm also allowing for the rythym or whatever that causes this funk each year. A niece in law lost her baby yesterday at 8 months. So sad. (but my funk preceded that news). Well off to read back posts. My one thing for now will be to up the WATER. AND TO POST. Hope the Elderhostel material inspires you - even if you don't get to go anywhere for a while. |
kat-like anagram, i needed to hear what you said, also. "manage your thoughts" is what i am going to be telling myself for the rest of the day, in fact. it is sooooo easy for me to dwell on whatever i am not doing as well as i would like, instead of noting my successes. thank you for your wise words!
that is very cool about the antique info. you and your mom got yesterday. the whole day sounded lovely, in fact. congrats on the 2 lbs you lost and kept off in past weeks; going to ww meetings; and the 30 lbs down!! woo-hoo!!! you sure are doing this!!:) anagram-so sorry about the baby your niece in law lost! sorry too to hear of funk you are experiencing. i hope it lifts as quickly as is possible. enjoy your time today on your patio of peace and contentment, and that lessening humidity. ok, so i am going to "manage my thoughts" better for the remainder of my day. i have not given in to ditching my food plan (which i have changed up a tad) though i am still plateauing. i will continue my day with more positive self talk, some pleasant errands, good music, and calling a couple good friends later. oh, and i plan to watch an old movie this evening too. not a bad way at all to spend a sunday afternon. thinking of all you lovely royals. take care. |
plateau broke today! :) every ounce sure is a struggle, but glad i hung tough to see scale finally move downward, even though ever so slightly. ever so slightly definitely counts, i say! (186 now.) stopped to have some tea at starbuck's near me, after a very long day, and realized there was more room in my armchair than there used to be. sometimes these changes strike me when i least expect them. that was one of those nice moments. granted, it was a big (comfy) chair, but i definitely fit better in it.
did some major de-cluttering the past couple of days, and took a big load for donation. i read some more in a book "enough already" (peter walsh, who wrote "does all this clutter make my butt look fat." ) i didn't read that book, but love the title. so much of it resonates with me, including idea that if something no longer fits your vision for your life, let it go. as i am continuing to get my condo in shape to sell it at some point, and i go through more stuff, it is interesting to see how what used to fit my vision previously, may or may not at this time. i am usually pretty good about weeding stuff out, but am doing it in a more thoughtful way now, which feels better. i am, albeit very slowly, becoming more respectful of my past, but not hanging on to it as tightly as i once may have. alright, it is past my bedtime, and i have a very busy day again tomorrow, so will get offline and start to wind down for the evening. thinking of you, royal ones. |
Hello my friends,
I was here last night but see my post didnt take. I dunno. I havent been here in so long only to stop by with ugly news..... DH went to a pulmonologist today as a CAT scan of his lungs taken last week is showing a mass. Pulmonologist is very sure its cancer. More tests including a biopsy are being scheduled to find out what kind of cancer, etc, etc. DH called DD as he wanted her to hear it from him first; she was told they see a spot, more tests are being done. Other family members are being told in small bits. This will be interesting. |
Oh, Kaylets... I don't know what to say other than I'm sending positive, hopeful thoughts your way. Fingers are crossed for your DH. Take care. You know the castle is always here for you when you need a hug or need to vent. :hug: Please keep us posted.
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Kaylets, Thinking of you and your DH and sending good thoughts. Stay strong.
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kaylets- as kat and eydie said, i too am sending you and dh good, soothing, positive thoughts. i am so sorry you and dh are going through all this. please take sweet and gentle care of yourself.
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Me too, Kaylets -- sending positive thoughts and energy! :hug:
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Lots of Hugs, dear Royal Kaylets and prayers for you and DH as you face this challenge together.
And congrats on that marvelous 186, wsw. You are truly a :queen: |
thanks, anagram! :)
kaylets-continuing to send good, positive thoughts to you and dh. hang in there. you have all of us in the royal palace watching your back. 185 now. have lost 50 lbs so far in past 9 months. i have gone down 5 sizes (from a 26w to a 16w) in that time. i hadn't even let myself think of a possible goal weight in so long, because it just felt like a moot point. now, i feel more confident in thinking about a goal weight (probably around 50 more pounds or so: around 135-ish.) this would mean i am around midway through my weight loss journey. granted, that is an awful lot that i still need to lose, but it is not feeling as scary or overwhelming as it did before. i really am beginning to believe i can make this happen. no matter what happens in the future, though, i am very grateful for my success so far, and feel very good about hanging in there with all my hard work to have come this far. oh, and in addition to that red purse i got quite a while back now (and am still enjoying tremendously, by the way!), i got a red cardigan sweater for the fall. (it's a bluish red, which is a good color for me.) to celebrate my official 50 lb. weight loss, i got that sweater plus a pair of earrings (not red-lol!), both of which will remind me of my accomplishment. hi arabella, kat, and all our lovely royals! i am thinking of you one and all. take care. |
Good Morning my friends..... Seems like I'm still on fast forward but moving in reverse..............and it seems as though I am having site issues reminding me of the issues the Empress would experience here......( or maybe in my case, it's operator errro)...........
DH went for a PET Scan and the doctor called with the results. For those not familiar, the PET Scan shows where any cancer is throughout the body. The scan shows DH only has the one place; the same mass in his lung that the other scans showed. As I said to DM ( Dear Mom), it's so ironic that within 4 days we mentally moved from dreading the word to cancer to cheering that its only in his lung. Thanks all of you for your kind thoughts and prayers. DH told his children and we are seeing the reality sink in.... Many family members have been told as well. As you might imagine, reactions are across the spectrum. And, what I forget to imagine that some people's true colors surface immeadiately too. But, for me, the priority is clear and luckily, the bs and disrespect are recognized and disregarded; in the truest sense, I don't have time for it--- Very, very telling. Anyway, thank you my queens, I do not know my schedule so please be patient with me. |
:hug::hug: dear kaylets- lots of :hug::hug: and strength being sent your way!!
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Ahh, Kaylets... you've got the right attitude... I love the readjustment in your thinking, ironic or not, and I especially love this line: the bs and disrespect are recognized and disregarded. Words to live by! Continued good wishes and hopeful thoughts... hang in there, kiddo.
This last week has been somewhat eventful 'round here... there are some family issues (alcoholism) that most of my family members (siblings, parents) have been very comfortable tip-toeing around, never acknowledging the 800lb gorilla in the room. It's been this way for years, myself included. (tip toe-er, not drinker) For a long time, I've watched the toll it's taken, but having grown up in that environment, I know to keep my mouth shut and just accept. The thing is, I DON'T accept that behavior anymore, and I'm tired of being the jerk because I don't. (I am WAY over-simplfying for brevity's sake) I finally broke my 'silence' and spoke my mind. Drama ensued. As a result, I've been told by my sister that she won't feel comfortable having me on her team any longer, (for the Avon walk for breast cancer in NYC next month.) I'm mad. I'm sad. But I think mostly I'm... relieved? Relieved in the sense that it's out in the open now. However she wants to spin this, it all comes down to the fact that she drinks too much and is jeopardizing her health because of it. If nothing else, I've held up a mirror for her to look into and since she doesn't want to see what's in there, it's just easier to be mad at me. And that's okay... for now. I'm pretty sure that I planted at least a seed or two of self awareness... hopefully, each time she goes to fill up that wine glass again, she'll get a pang of, "hmmm... I wonder if she's right..." The two of us not on speaking terms kind of sets the family axle off-kilter, so it also forces them to acknowledge the problem... which is a good thing. I remain passive/aggressively hopeful. :^: So there's that... I'm claiming it as the reason I've been two fistedly throwing away all my positive self talk of a week ago. (Yeah, yeah...excuses, excuses, but that's where I'm at.) EXACTLY why I was in serious need of some quality time here at the Palace! I needed a Royal Guide to lead me back down the Path of Righteousness! And do you know what? I came here tonight, and there was my guide: wsw sharing her wonderful story of success! It was just what I needed to hear/read! As a result, I shall straighten up my tiara, polish my dainty fingernails, put on a pretty blouse that did not fit a year ago, and congratulate myself for coming this far! Realize that Life will throw some curveballs. I can't always catch them, but I can duck! And I will keep moving forward... one dainty step at a time, pausing, of course, to smell the flowers that surround the PoPaC, and knowing that I have all the support I need within myself, but also here, among friends. Thank you, :queen:s, for being here. :hug: |
Kaylets, sounds like you've galvanized us all to be strong and weed out what's simply not needed. When I had my cancer mis-diagnosis 7 years ago I was astounded by the inappropriate things that people said.
Yes, cheering with you that it's only one spot that'll be healed and the rest of his body is in glorious perfect health. Let's hold that thought!!!! Katrina, what a brave thing to do. You're right, everytime your sis fills her wineglass she'll wonder. Maybe you've set the first spark of healing for her? |
kat-that sure took a lot of guts to break your silence and speak your mind. i know the fallout must be very hard on you now, but the courage and strength it took to do that will eventually pay off. sorry things are so rough for you now, though. hang in there! you are my hero! we will all move forward together one dainty step at a time-no doubt about it!
kaylets- good thoughts coming your way! i too completely agree about letting the bs and disrespect go--no time for wasting on that! we are all here for you. :) hi anagram, arabella, ceara, andria, eydie, and all our lovely royalty, mentioned or -un! thinking of you all. getting together with some friends later this afternoon, and others tomorrow, all of which should be pleasant. well, take care, everyone. |
Our beloved old hound dog passed away yesterday--not ill, just old, old, old. When he was no longer able to walk a vet came to our house and it's like he just fell asleep in our arms---so peaceful. It's always excruciating when it happens but we have 2 dogs to comfort us and lots of great Jubal stories. For 14 years that old hound made us very happy!
Something I noticed while we've been going thru all this: it would've been so easy to comfort myself w/ chocolate, cookies, or even wine but I wanted to stay fully present. It was a good lesson in watching how easily food can be used as a drug to sedate feelings; much better to feel it all than to see it all thru a sugar fog or be in a food coma, but make no mistake I wanted it! |
Ohhhh, Eydie... I'm so sorry to hear about your dog, but I love that he was able to drift away in your arms. What a peaceful way for him to go , surrounded by those he loved best. Now I'm crying... our Molly is 13, and while there are still days where she forgets that she's no longer a puppy, her age catches up to her and reminds us that she may not be here forever. Big hugs to you and your family! :hug: Nice moment of clarity there... the pain will still be there, whether or not you've sedated it... better to feel the feelings and move through them than to suppress them with food and be left with the pain (still) and guilt/shame/self-loathing PLUS a weight gain on top of that. Not that I would know anything about that! :lol:
wsw... We had a pleasant afternoon get-together yesterday, too. Spent the afternoon, and well into the night, with my brother and sister-in law. The weather was early fallish, actually, but we sat outside, around the fire, for hours, laughing, talking, arguing, (good arguing; my brother and I are polar opposites, politically, so there is usually a debate over something to keep things lively) I got a good, long walk in before we left, but I keep forgetting that Molly really isn't up to the task of long walkies anymore. About 30 minutes into the walk she stumbled and then started to limp... Agh, what have I done to her? We started for home, and then she seemed to be okay. In an apparent show of solidarity, I stumbled over an uneven sidewalk and did a spectacular face plant! Full body SPLAT! We enoyed a leisurely limp home after that. Amazingly, I didn't injure anything... other than my dignity! :o Not much planned for today... other than to truly celebrate Labor Day by NOT laboring! Some puttering around the yard, maybe... Whatever you have planned, I hope you enjoy your day, my fellow :queen:s! |
I'm baaaaa-aaaack...
So. I've been pretty much off-track all summer, getting lots of exercise but having some problems with my afternoons, which seems to be what happens.
I'm back to eating only at the table when I'm alone and aiming at only when I'm hungry. That'll do it for me, I know. Wow -- started this in the morning and thought I'd manage to get back from time to time. Not a good day, this one wasn't. Eydie, so sorry to hear about your faithful companion. It sounds as if Jubal had a wonderful life with you and the best possible goodbye, though. :hug: Kat, I'm so proud of you for speaking your mind to your sister and getting that out in the open. It takes so much of our energy suppressing that kind of thing. WSW, you are a shining star! I look to you for the light and I swear I will follow. Congrats on your hugely deserved success! :woohoo: Kaylets, keeping you and DH in my thoughts and prayers! :hug: Anagram, how are things in your corner of the palace? Okay. Today was not a lovely day but tomorrow will be better. I'm going to tuck myself into bed with my book. 'Night, beloved :queen:lies! :yawn: |
Hellooooooooo, out there...
Things are mighty quiet 'round the Palace of late... I'm hoping that everyone is doing well. I had computer issues for most of last week: 5 viruses gumming up the works! Not sure why the security center wasn't working, but after only about 2 hours on the phone with the virus buster fellows, all is well, once again. :)
So much sadness at my workplace lately... a dear co-worker's son died in a car crash a few months ago, another's husband died two weeks ago, and then we just found out on Friday that one of the women in my office lost her son to suicide this past Thursday. Too much... just too much. I'm so sad for her... I find myself going through the days like normal, and then I just stop and think of her and how her life will never be the same. I find it totally incongruous that the sun can still shine and it can be a beautiful day when she is in such pain. When all of them are in pain... We had a little gathering of staff on Friday and the hospital chaplain was there to try to give some comfort and have us pray together... the wisest words came from the girl who lost her son a short time ago. She said that Life is a gift to be treasured every minute of every day, make the most of the present because we never know what the future holds. Good advice there. I'm heading to bed now. I took myself on a long walk around the reservoir today. (5 miles) Everything was swell til about 3.5 miles in and my foot started to really hurt. I should have wrapped it before setting out, I have problems occasionally from an old fracture.. By the time I finished the walk, I was hobbling! I iced it when I got home, if it still hurts tomorrow, I'm going for an xray. I don't know what I did, but man does it hurt! This was a real downer of a post... I'm tempted to delete it, but if I can't vent to my fellow :queen:s, who can I vent to? :shrug: Hoping this week is better for all.... |
And my apologies for contributing to the "quiet". Been running around lately a good bit and wasn't getting "notices" from 3FC. Did this morning though and hope that's going to work better.
Oh, kat, that was so much sorrow and sometimes it does seem impossible to believe in some places life is going on. Hope your foot is ok. wsw, my heroine. You have done fantastic work and you deserve all the red blouses, etc. that you can manage. Arabella, you stated my case. I've flitted through the summer only occasionally being attentive to my health needs. I did buckle down on the water and it helped but I need to settle down on all the other factors as well. I returned last night from a 3 day religious retreat with a wonderful retreatmaster who put a lot of things in proper focus for me (for about the millionth time in my life). As in matters re food and health - not giving me a lot I didn't already know but making me refocus on the things I already know. This morning I'm off to DD's to celebrate my (tomorrow) birthday. In a way, my heart will be heavy. DS is unable to commit to his previously suggested plan because it's looking like he will be losing his job due to the economy and that the ax will fall on my birthday. I'm not surprised as he's mentioned the situation for some time now but I'm sure he's devastated as he's put in so much time and effort that he's had almost no life this whole year. Because of all of that, I think he'll be more surprised by the timing than by the fact but it sure should earn him an even better letter of recommendation (which with $3 or so should buy him a decent cup of coffee). So the heart that came home so peaceful last evening is heavy once again. Hopefully I can still get back on track so I won't add to my children's concerns with any additional health problems. |
Kat, so sorry for the sadness where you work. It's really hard when there's this huge mountain of sadness--I'll be thinking of you and your friends.
Anagram, don't lose sight of what you learned or relearned at your retreat. We humans are strong and we can get thru most anything. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANAGRAM!:hug: |
anagram- happy birthday!!! :)
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eydie-sorry to hear about the passing of your dog. sure sounds like you gave him a very loving farewell.
kat-so sorry about all the sadness and loss around you at work. i'm sending hugs your way. arabella-know what you mean about afternoons being hard. they are often my most challenging times of the day too. kudos on all the exercise. anagram-glad to hear recent retreat was a good experience for you. sorry that ds is going through such trying times. sending good thoughts your way. i appreciate all the kind words of support and encouragement! :) it often feels like such a very long and uphill climb (as it did for me this afternoon, in fact), but i know it is worth the continued effort. have a lot scheduled for tomorrow, so need to start winding down for the evening. last couple of nights, didn't sleep much, so hoping tonight will be a different story. well, take care, all. |
Hello my friends,
Sometimes it's just easier to keep things inside; its just easier. Monday we saw the doctor for the results for DH's lung biiopsy. It is definitely "non small cell" cancer. We now meet with an oncologoist on Friday. I briefly scanned some past posts and was lifted by your thoughts and I thank you all. Please continue and even if you don't mind, dial up the thoughts and prayers. Both DH and I can use them. Katrina, you're coworker's remarks were a bullseye for me this morning. Welll, my friends, I have finally found out what will dampen my appetite!! Dark humor but true...... Talk to you soon. :hug: |
kaylets- lots of dialed up good thoughts and prayers going out to you and dh, along with many big hugs!!! thanks for checking in with us during this monumentally difficult time. we all have your back!
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Kaylets, consider yourself hugged and yes, we'll amp up the prayers for you and your Beloved!
Not going to sugarcoat things--this'll be a monumental challenge, but amazing things can happen. Stay hopeful and please remember to take care of you. :hug: |
Stupid reality: Day 1
Hello my beloved :queen:lies! Sorry for having been scarce around the Palace lately. Busy/not really focused/other excuses... I've gained 7 pounds over the summer and am going to have to readjust tracker... Anyway, the good news is that comes with preparing to take this seriously again. I really don't stay conscious of how overweight I am and then have one of those light-bulb moments (typically, the stupid light bulb is in a dressing room :eek: ) and go "Oh yeah... I really AM fat." :o
So. Shall change tracker and get back at it. I'm seriously thinking of getting a membership to a place that offers shared work space to get myself out of the house in the afternoons. I really think that would go a long way towards solving the problem -- I get through mornings and evenings fine. Anyone need to relax? I came across an article about epsom salt baths a little while back and I'm a believer now. Here's a great article about why most of us can really benefit from a good soak. I've been really strikingly less anxious since I started this. And from the very first soak, too. Kaylets, thoughts and prayers ramped up and on their way to you regularly. From what I've read, non-small cell has a better long-term prognosis than small cell. Please do remember to take care of your own sweet self. Anagram, happy belated! :hb: :balloons: I made a mental note to get in on the day but ... my notes on paper work so much better than those these days. "In focus for the millionth time" -- I hear ya, Sister! I woke up this morning feeling so positive and thought... "How do you just hang on to that?" I'm thinking keep it in mind and work on it? So sorry about your DS' trouble. Sending good career thoughts his way -- every time I send them towards my own DS :yes: WSW, I'm with Anagram -- you're just such an inspiration! How many times have I read about you being tempted to let it go but hanging tough by those dainty fingernails of yours? Enough that it's led you to striking success! And, you know, these last pounds are the ones that are the big reveal, closer and closer to goal. :yes: Kat, thanks so much for not deleting your post! It's so important for us all to be able to feel like we can come in here and bring whatever it is we've got, just share whatever that is rather than feeling like we need to always be up. That's a burden we don't need! And, in any case, having that message from someone that's lived through the absolute worst -- well, that's pretty powerful. More and more, I'm getting to a place where I understand there's no reason to wish anything was other than it is but just recognizing where I am and addressing that. Eydie, so lovely to see you stopping by more often! K, Lovelies, I started this a few hours ago and have picked away at it ever since. Shall sign off now... Have a blessed weekend! |
thanks, arabella, for saying that! :)
interesting about epsom salt baths. i definitely need to relax, and will give this a try. (have been on a long insomniac jag this week.) my grandmother used to swear by them, and so it doesn't surprise me at all about their healing and relaxing properties. "In focus for the millionth time" could be my theme song too! i wrote out some things i want to work on, and some items have been on-going for an awfully long time. the point is, though, it's always ok to keep starting over with renewed vim and vigor, and i love that life always keeps giving us more chances. i'm jewish, and this is the jewish new year, so for me, this time of year really is a time to re-assess and re-focus. well, arabella, i am with you regarding finding some things which will work better than others, and changing things up in order to achieve a more desired outcome. one thing i have on my list is to learn spanish. i have been trying this (not very successfully, sadly) for years, literally, and have not gotten too far. i am going to be more proactive, and take regular, consistent time to spend towards this end. ok, well, i am going to get out and take care of a few necessary errands. thinking of all of you lovely royals. take care, everyone. :) |
Aaannnnnd it's Monday!
216.8 (I'm going to start posting weight daily again. V. good for keeping me conscious.) Back from gym, did some extra walking, some yoga. I've been getting between 10k and 14k steps a day the last week or so. (Where's that "patting self on back" smiley?)
I didn't get everything done on the weekend that I would have liked to but did manage some things. Got a party planned for DGS' eighth and my sister's 49th, which we'll celebrate together on Friday. Got gifts bought. This is good because so often I'd be frantically trying to figure out what to get them the day of, with a couple dozen other things to do. :yes: Oooh and I bought two new tops -- one's a fooler hoodie in sage-y green and the other's a dressy, fitted deep red number with pin tucks (I think that's what you call them -- they look sort of like ruffles but they're flat). I think both are quite successful. Wearing my green one today and will wear the red tomorrow. WSW, I'm often struck by the knowledge that our elders had. How did they know all these things? It amazes me. Only now is science starting to catch up with a lot of it, explaining WHY these things are so effective. Kudos to the ancestors, I say! Kaylets, thoughts and prayers going to you and your family. :hug: My sister's actual birthday today and I'm going to take her to lunch so I'd best go get some work done. Have a great day, Royal Ones! :love: |
Hello all,
Only a short note as I've been awake since 3.....luckily, reruns of the Nanny were on and it was mindless and even funny to make my early morning bearable. Found out last Friday that surgery is not an option. Tomorrow we meet with "our team" to finalize schedule for radiation and chemo. Emotional weekend for all. My family has suprised me in many ways; my mother especially has been wonderful. I am sorting thru things to turn this office I sit in now to a bedroom again; DD has promised to appear soon.... I also anticpate a bed on the first level of the house, am hoping to have it in view of the windows, I will add arrange bird feeders for fun. I had two very clear dreams last night----one, I was riding a bicycle on the busy interstate and last a tire..... second, I was driving again on a busy interstate and heard a "PING" sound......and realized I couldn't steer anymore.... I thought quickly enough to put on the hazard lights and was able to strong arm the car to the shoulder but it was by enormous force of will..... Doesnt take a Royal rocket scientest to figure that one out does it? I reread the lastest posts and know you are still relieved you spoke your mind Kat. We have similiar issues in our family--- some of them bleed over into how certain family members are treated. Like you, shortly, my 'flag" will be very clear for all to see. And believe it or not, its DH who has said to me, "I believe that family is important and family will get us through this"..... And he means MY family. My point is, I am almost looking forward to not being the diplomat, it already feels very freeing. How much time was wasted!! But at least, Kat, we know we weren't too late!! WSW-- You continue to amaze me with your tally! Yahoo on so many sizes down! YOU are the QUEEN!!! Anagram-- you look marvelous!! Wood Nymph--PLEASE recommend your best and favorite Imagery CD people. Eydie- Yes, hugs are welcome!! I do remember your scare. Hard to believe 7 yrs has gone by!! Silver- How are you? How is life treating you?? I'm really off my friends. Thanks for listening. Oh and by the way..... DH cannot tolerate bleach or lysol smells..... Can anyone recommend a scent free germ killer other than rubbing alcohol??? (or something better?) I expect to be knee deep in germ killing soon.... Thanks again. Honestly, just this little post made a difference. |
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219.8. :eek: Yup, it's a bump-up. Not a binge or anything but I helped sis with cake, then ate a salty snack, had extra veggie chili and an extra piece of toast and voila! :wizard: Three pounds! AND... it would never have happened if I hadn't: 1. jettisoned my rule against eating other than at the table; 2. forgotten I'd sworn to post my weight each day. Silly me! Aha. I've got my orders clear for today.
:sunny: We've got a glorious day started here. It's supposed to be very sunny and warm. I'm going to make a point of sneaking out of the office as often as I can. Oh Kaye, honey! :hug: Please remember that we're all with you every step of your way. Sending love and healing energy to you both. I remember The Nanny -- what a cozy comfort for your middle of the night. I'm attaching a file about a global energy attunement set for today (because it's the autumnal equinox). Anyone who'd like to participate is welcome to. K, it's just about light enough for me to go for my little woods woggle. Let's take this day we've been given and live it! Love to all... |
Autumn dawns in the Palace
219.8. And I know it probably has something to do with the bag of brown rice chips and fiber bars. I did, at least, eat them seated at the table. That's not quite enough to dissuade me, though. I'm going to have to add a prohibition against reading while I eat too. Really -- if I want to eat so much, why is it I need to be distracted? Could it be that my need is not for food, after all? I was a little hungry but that wasn't what I needed, nope. Onward! I will do better for myself today. :yes:
Kaylets, I forgot to say -- I don't actually have any guided meditation CDs (I think our WSW is the one that mentions those) but I'll see if I can find stuff online. Can you download audio files or do you need discs? So, anyway, here we are in autumn. Let's brush out the corners of the palace and put on the fall colors slipcovers, lay a fire ready for cool evenings. :love: |
So, we've gotten to Thursday
217.8. Frantic day yesterday -- had to take over for director. I'd said I couldn't take DGS after school because I was facilitating writers' group last night but then found out that no one would be able to take him to his first Wolf Cubs meeting if I didn't. Ended up going to pick him up, trying to get my work done, prepare for writing group, get dinner ready and get him to his meeting. Just one of those days. But. I made it through OP, so that's a good thing.
Suffering some kind of malaise. I really need to change things up, see how I can make my job work better for me and change my attitude otherwise. Because I can't quit. Sorry for being so blah and negative. Almost decided to delete this but I`m too Scotch (as my mom would say). I`m going to work on feeling better. Oh, let`s take this day we`ve been given and do our level best with it. |
Hi WoodNymph.....
I think one of our systems will let us download and burn our own CD's. We do have access to the library at the hospital, there was one we borrowed by Bernie Siegel but I'm not sure if its guided imagery. DH likes Bernie Siegel because we have a Yale connection and when DMIL was sick, Dr. Bernie Siegel, signed a book for her. *************** We're only at the beginning of this journey and Dh is already so weary of it mentally. I know he will recharge but....... I need to do an Academy Award winning performance tomorrow, going back in and sitting again with the doctor who was sneering at me...... I'm thinking when he walks in, I will open my purse and pull out a roll of duct tape.... If he asks me who it's for, I'll say "We'll see how the meeting goes".... Or perhaps, just do the Royal thing and just smile. I feel like the mother from Terminator..... just wish I looked like her and could carry her gun in there with me tomorrow. |
And we've made it to Friday
217.6. I'm officially starting on Day 1 of:
* No eating other than seated at the table when alone * No reading while I eat * 10,000 steps a day * At least 8 servings fruits/veggies a day. I've got most of my steps in already, been to the gym and done some yoga. I've got a birthday party on here this afternoon for DGS and sis but I am NOT going to eat any cake or junk. :no: Still working on adjusting my attitude. Seems like one of those times -- at least I can fully see how much I NEED to work on it. Kaylets, hope the meeting goes well today! :crossed: I mean, you don't want to have to go in there and blow anyone away, right? "Tell me, punk. Do ya feel lucky?" I know I'm mixing my movies (not to mention misquoting), but I like the visual. There are some CDs on this page that seem good. They've got customer recommendations, too. I'd highly recommend this book (to anyone, really): Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain, and Illness. K, lovelies, let's get out there and WIN this one! :love: |
Saturday!
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The party went very nicely last night. I felt beleaguered all day, was totally cranky. (Well, it had been that kind of week -- things got piled up on me despite my best efforts to keep clear.) But then, magically, as everything was more or less ready and I'd picked up DS & DGS, my mood lifted and I was happy. It was quite striking -- one of those "Oh, now I'm happy" moments. :cb: And then the party went very nicely, other than DH being cranky (Saturday is the one night of the week that he can really tolerate having any kind of social engagement). It was fun! And everyone else had a good time, too, I think. I managed not to eat anything I shouldn't have although I had a bit more wine than strictly necessary. Tonight we've got SIL and a friend coming to dinner and then we're going out to a concert. Madness. Tomorrow I'll be happy not to have any plans. :yes: Kaylets, how did that appointment go? I didn't catch that the doctor had been sneering at you. You have my permission to go all "mother in Terminator" on his a**. I'm enjoying my second :coffee2: and may go for #3 before I head out for my run. :s: Because it's Saturday and I feel like it. Insofar as possible today, :queen:lies, let us do what suits us best. Love to all! |
Hello all.....
Well, sometimes it's good to be crammed in a doctor's examining room with 3 doctors and 2 nurses...... Evidently, something was said Friday's appt was like meeting a whole new man. AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CHEMO STARTS ON WED!!!!! Is this ironic that I cheering that DH is starting chemo.... but yes, this is a good thing. All the cancer medical professionals we knew from home kept saying "Should be starting treatment, sooner the better" And now we are only a few days away, radiation will probably begin week after.... otherwise, well, they know what happens when I see things fall apart and are delayed. In addition, this doctor's Nurse Practioner, sat with us for a good 20 minutes, explaining many things and she is fabulous. Too bad she wasnt running last weeks meeting. Now that we had a schedule, I had something to tell DM( mom), who is coming to stay with us as along as we need her. She wanted to drive so she'd have her car but I was not comfortable considering she lives in Fl. BUT, as I was discussing my concerns online, a Dsister volunteered to fly down and ride back north. What a wonderful show of support and what a weight off my mind!! Then, my brother contacted me today to tell me specifically that a woman he is dating works for Novartis (sp?), a drug manufacuter and there is a drug in its 12 trial specifically developed for non small cell lung cancer.... If I understood my brother, this drug is administered the same time the chemo is and it prohibits the cancer from reproducing while its being killed. so, things are better!! Much better! And it's wonderful how so many people are showing so much support. And it's so lovely how folks seem so glad to do it. And I am so grateful. To you also! |
Sunday
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Dinner and concert went pretty well last night but I had about 10 chips and also a small piece of pecan pie with a little ice cream. Which I totally didn't intend to do. Onward, though. I can make my year end goal but will have to, um, start making progress if I want to do that. Kaylets, I'm so glad to hear that things have improved. I don't know if you remember, but my SIL was pretty much told she should get her kids home and it would take a miracle for her to live last January. And now she's finished chemo and radiation and has been, other than a rough patch at the first, fairly well throughout. Remember we're all with you - and look after yourself! :hug: K, DH is waiting to go for our long Sunday walk. I'm going to chug my :coffee2: and then plan for a reeeeelaxing day. Love to all! |
Monday again *yawn*
218.4. This is getting a little tedious. Now that the weekend's over, maybe I can stop bumping up? I had a good day yesterday.
Pouring rain this morning so I ran/jumped on the trampoline instead of going to the gym. But now I'm tired -- I could SO go back to bed. The fatigue won't knock me off plan, though, because I am not allowing myself to do anything but eat when I'm eating and that just doesn't have the power for me that slouching on the sofa in front of the TV or poring over newspaper at the table. Wow -- nobody but Kaylets and me in the palace for a week now. Where beith all my :queen:lies? Let's make this a good one, anyway. |
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