i agree vonni, its not fair to diet and get no where it makes me feel like NOT trying coz trying doesnt work
although it is this week so i will stick with it.... but ANI YOU WILL BE PLEASED TO HEAR it doesnt feel like a diet
i am just eating sensibly and it is a little boring but it is making me appreciate the taste of a little of something and not pig out on it kinda

i was thinking how you said you dont eat brekky coz you are not hungry WELL i think the idea is to eat when you are not hungry so your body doesnt take over when you do it and you dont eat too much
keep it fueled up and stuff so it doesnt get desperate and cling on to the food
you know the old saying starving yourself fat or something

just a thought anyway
coz i have found that if i have a banana mid morning i can wait for lunch and plan lunch properly rather than just going for a fast food feed me now option

I hear ya Vonni. When I started back at this battle after Christmas, the first week I lost 100g, the second week I gained 200g. No fair! This week however, I'm down 1.1kg :carrot::cb::carrot::cb:

So stick with it and it will pay off in the end.

Yesterday was a great day and I aim to make today another great day. Off to a training course shortly and will then go to the gym in the evening.


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:carrot::carrot::carrot: go Julia. U and Kel are on fire lol.

Thats it, I am packing away my scales for a month. I will not touch them.

Going for my scan this morning. A little scared but keeping positive everything will be ok. Doc said if nodules not cancerous there is still SOMETHING going on with it and it'll be a diagnoses by process of elimination. She just wants to get worst out of way first lol. Then she's going back to the simple things and working her way from there.
pretty lucky really. I only went for a pap smear and cause the first time to her she did a full physical. Hopefully anything going on has to do with why I can't lose weight. No put it on..... thats MY fault. But maybe its stopping me losing even tho i am trying hard.

Going to a family reunion of sorts on Saturday on the Gold Coast. It'll be great to see my cousins and one brother. Sister can't go as she just moved up to FNQ grrrr.

Vonni :hug:. Please let us know, as soon as you can, because we're all thinking of you.

Kel and Julia :carrot: :carrot: :carrot:.

I might need to reassess my month of maintenance. My closest friend is being cheated on by her partner, and that has raised some ugly memories for me from my last relationship - I am eating like there's no tomorrow, and in danger of putting weight back on, so the scales are coming straight back out and the food diary is too.

Have to get the biopsy done as scan was "suspicious". What the heck? Neither hot nor cold..... in other words warm lol. Have a Dr app next Tuesday.

Going to the COast on Saturday woohoo and taking kids to seaworld. They've never been and they are gonna love it.

Will try to take lots of photos.

Ani when you think about it go for a walk. NOT to the cupboard lol. xxx thinking of you and hugs to you also.
Vonni

Oh Vonni I'm so sorry that you're no closer to knowing what the ****'s going on. Hope it gets sorted soon. :hug:

Ani, good on you for realising that something is triggering you to go off track. Being aware of why you're doing what you're doing is the first step towards changing the behaviour and I'm sure that you'll do just fine. :hug:

Yesterday was a pretty good day, food was pretty good and I had a good session at the gym.

Tonight I'm not going to the gym as I've got a cocktail party to go to :D The goal will be to not go too overboard with cocktails and nibbles!


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I'm so fat I got a chub rub rash on my thighs!

julia how did you go at the party?

vonni - "suspeciious" what the **** does that mean?

ani - i cant believe you still turn to food when things shake your world - you seem so strong and focused, be strong for your friend, try not to dig up your past as hard as that is - use it as a moving forward postive experience to help your friend?

gen - i have chub rub too, i love that term!

me - sneak peak at scales (weigh in day is monday) (i get benji to look and tell me if it is less) i am 98 today so that is a loss of 700grams so far!!! i hope i lose some more tomorrow but if not i gotta be happy with that!
its all about salad sandwiches and weetbix!

Hello world!

Quick update...

...my stuff arrived, as promised, on Wednesday! Been busy unpacking boxes all weekend!

I started work on Tuesday...so far so good! Actually, I have been told I am very argumentative already! I have work ethics that I will fight to stick to if I have too! :lol:

I booked Mums flight home for the 6th! Once she is gone I am officially starting my new healthy lifestyle! To date I have been eating what is placed in front of me and, as I have already said, they are big portions! My meal times are right on target, I am eating breakfast, lunch and dinner every day.

Because it is a 20km trip into work every day I have had to learn about packing a lunch to take with me. Last week was Ryvita with vegemite...boring! :lol: Any suggestions for quick, healthy lunches on the run? I don't really want to go to 'last nights left overs' that I have noticed a lot of others do...to me that makes another full meal for the day.

I have managed to steer clear of the McDonalds, KFC's, Hungry Jacks stores in the neighbourhood...I just wish I could say the same for the local Bunnings store!! In all the time I have been here I think I have managed four days of not having to go to Bunnings!! The first day I never went there, I half expected them to send out a search party!

Anyway, must move.

Vonni, stay positive. The waiting and not knowing is often the hardest part. Please keep us informed :hug:


Oh yeah, I saw my first ever episode of "The Biggest Loser" tonight! :lol:

i know you said "quick" if you do a little bit of prep maybe the night before this can be quick and has been filling me up for lunch.... every day this week i have had a salad sandwich it has been so refreshing and filling and stuff
grainy bread, philly cheese or avocado, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, grated carrot (that is the bit that takes the longest) a little slice of cheese or a slice of ham
and then i put it in my sandwich keeper and off i go
i even ate it while watching jemima play in the shopping centre playground on friday when i guess usually if i had not made the time to make the sandwich i would have eaten something from the food court

if you pm me your address i will send you a sandwich keeper, i have so many of them at the moment or pm me and i will pm you my mobile number and you can sms me your postal address
sandwich keeper means your sandwich does not need gladwrap (therefore saves you money and the environment) and that you can chuck it in your bag easier it fits perfectly my salad sandwich and i have friends that say it fits a breadroll in too (and i put other snacks in it) at the moment trying to focus and get back into enjoying rice crackers - 10 of them for 1 point on weight watchers which really is a lot of rice crackers

oh and it is official weigh in for me tomorrow - as long as i am still 98 i will be happy!
went to kids birthday party and was so good - ate a little bit of camembert cheese and stuff but not as much as i usually would and had a bite of the cupcakes i made and then some pav and not some cake when usually i'd have both and for lunch i'd usually have two sausages and i only had one with salad and a piece of bread so i was proud of myself for recognising i didnt need or want to eat as much as usual....

oh and lindor what did you think of biggest loser?

woohoo 98kg
i lost 700grams this week
this week plan
more exercise

I cannot believe the Biggest Loser Club was advertising shakes and meal replacement things during the show last night. I feel so strongly about it that I am going to write them a really angry letter.

They proved to me last night that they are a) using fat people as a freak show to exploit their vulnerability, b) using the Biggest Loser brand to make money out of as many fat people across the country as possible and c) showing the nation the most dangerous and least successful way to lose weight.

Having said that I do enjoy watching the show - the people who are there trying to lose weight are gutsy and inspiring.

I have been way off track the last couple of weeks, and I'm not game to go near the scales. I know they will demoralise me if I get on and find out the damage I have done, so I am going to avoid them for another week or so.

But what I am going to do is learn from what's been happening, and try to understand what lies beneath this dark spot I've discovered.

The only goal I am reaching is my walking. This week I am due to pass through Balladonia on my virtual walk - definitely in desert country now :).

Kel - just saw your post. I am really, really proud of you :carrot:

Woohoo, way to go Kel, that's an awesome result :carrot::carrot::carrot:

Glad to hear that your stuff finally arrived Lindor! Now you'll be able to really get settled in and make the place a home.

Vonni am I right in thinking that you're seeing the doctor tomorrow? If so, best of luck :hug:

Ani, you're doing so well with your walk across Australia! Keep at it. A couple of bad weeks isn't bad in the big scheme of things. Just keep plugging away.

I had lots of fun at my friend's hen's night on Friday. Friday, Saturday and probably Sunday were not great days in terms of my diet but I did manage to keep active.

Took mum's dog for 20 minute walks on Friday and Saturday and then went for a 35 minute mountainbike ride yesterday.

Back on track with food today and am looking forward to hitting the gym tonight.


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Bugga thought tomorrow but it's the 10th so NEXT Tuesday. Glad I looked at app card after I read posts.

Kel way to go on loss. I to have a loss not much but back down to 77.1.

Went to my brothers 50th on Sat and semi family reunion. Was great to catch up with everyone, some i hadnt seen in 12 years. Had a ball. Kids had a blast swimming with their little cousins. We all got sunburnt even with hats n sunscreen. Went to seaworld yesterday and drove back after. Got home at 9.30pm so tired today.

B ut no rest for me. Paperwork to take to hospital and app with school for kids and photoes to upload. Will post link when i get em up.

vonni xx
PS Lindor funny y should be like that... i got a reference from boss and its a form that QLD health gives for them to fill out. It says in one bit I have no hesitation in voicing concerns lmao. How diplomatic.

Hey Amy how do you get your photos on the forum??? I tried but it won't let me.

Oh that's stink Vonni, you have to wait another whole week! What a pain.

I had a great day yesterday. Diet was really good and I had a great session of weights and cardio at the gym last night.

Goals for today are to eat well (will be interesting as I've got hardly any food) and to have a good workout at the gym tonight.

I'm in the process of flat hunting at the moment and that's really frustrating. I'm going to be flatting with a friend who's recently broken up with her partner but finding something nice at a reasonable price is not easy.

I'm also pondering consolidating my debts and borrowing some more so that I can get a new car. Problem with that is that I'd be committing to a 3 year loan which I don't know that I like the sound of.

Ho hum. Lots of thinking to do.


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Make sure you have a written agreement with the friend in case she gets back with the partner, Amy - I've been left in the lurch like that before!

You talking to me Gen? My name's Julia :D

Very little chance of them getting back together - it was an amicable split, he wasn't willing to budge on the issue of having kids so they agreed it was best to split. They've sold their business and their house so it's all pretty final.

I won't be giving notice on my place until we've signed up for something.

Hellooooo

Where is everyone today?

I weighed in last night and am up 200g to 87.1kg. I see a pattern forming!

Had a really good day yesterday, stuck to my points and had a great workout at the gym.

Unfortunately I'm not going to be able to go to the gym tonight or tomorrow night due to other committments and I've got a friend visiting for the weekend so getting to the gym then won't be easy either.

I did set my alarm for 6am today to go to the gym before work but I pushed the snooze button too many times and didn't manage to get there.

So. I'm going to have to really screw down and focus on my diet this week if I'm to avoid doing any damage. That will be a BIG challenge.


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I'm here - my computer is playing up and keeps switching itself off. I rang the Apple service centre yesterday and described the problem, and they told me it is almost cheaper to buy a new computer than to fix this one :(. And it's going to die any day now…

Never mind - a friend has offered to sell me her old one for $150, and that should get me through a year or so while I save up for a new one.

I'm having a *better* week, and sticking to my goals. I feel a bit sick in the tummy - my close friend got dumped by her philandering partner on Monday, and I think I'm hurting on her behalf.

Anyway I have two days off now and this is the time I tend to drag myself off track. When my days aren't structured I get a bit slack, so the challenge is for me to stick to my goals today and stay strong.

Doh - I knew that. Sorry Julia!

Where did everybody go?

This is THE most frustrating, annoying and tedious time I have been through in my weight loss. I am at the point where I am SO close, I look smaller, feel smaller but I'm not happy to stop here.

But at this weight it requires a lot more effort to lose a kilo, and it's a lot harder to find the motivation to do that. I feel like I am on a trampoline: up, down, up, down, try a somersault, go for a spin, land flat on my @rse :tantrum:.

I would like to say that I am stuck on a plateau - but that would be a lie. I go for a few days with all guns blazing, and then the next day I'll just eat a little bit too much.

I'm not behaving like someone who wants to lose weight. I'm behaving like an idiot! It is bad, bad bad to abuse food (and my body) like this - and it's a mini pattern of the old habits that got me fat in the first place: all/nothing/all/nothing!

Right Ani THAT'S IT! Either I am serious about embracing this healthy lifestyle or I am not. Either I want to be a healthy weight, or I want to get fat again. Either I am going to be successful in my journey, or I am going to fail! There is no middle ground, no compromise, no excuse.

So here's the plan:

• The scales come out again on Monday and I suck up the results, no matter how bad they are.

• I work on the concept of finding freedom and balance in my life. In relation to my weight loss I am looking for balance.

• I demand consistency from myself - re-think my food plan, become a bit more adventurous in the food I prepare and eat.

• I STOP listening to people who tell me I don't need to lose any more weight - because they are wrong.

And here's the incentive:

My mother gave me $500 the other day. It was a gift to help me pay some bills, buy some clothes… because she knows I struggle financially with the amount of rent I pay.

I'm going to give it to my most trusted friend to look after. If, by the end of May, I get on the scales and am below 70kg I will get the money back. If I don't get below 70kg, the money will be donated to the political party I HATE the most.

And if that threat doesn't scare me into getting off my complacent @rse, I don't know what will.

Holy sh!tballs Ani, what an incentive! You sound so determined, I have NO doubt that you can do this. You know what you want and you know what you have to do to achieve it. Just let us know if there's anything we can do to help you out.

I went to the movies last night to see Changeling. It was a harrowing story but a very good film. I seem to be incapable of going to the movies and not eating something so I had a small bag of potato chips and a few lollies.

Today someone brought in morning tea and I ate 1 chicken savoury and 3 different pieces of cake/slice. It's so stupid because I didn't even feel like any of the cakes or anything, I ate them purely because they were there and am feeling fat and frumpy now because of eating such rubbish.

My ex is driving up to Christchurch this afternoon so with entertaining him and all, it's going to be a struggle to get to the gym and that's a real pain in the @rse.

I actually can't wait until next week so that I can get back on track. I'm so mad at myself because I've slipped back into the old pattern - do great for a few days then overeat and spend the next few days undoing the damage I've done.

At least I've had one pretty big discovery this week ... I think I know why I snack in the evenings. When I used to smoke, I would enjoy a cigarette after a meal - it was like the cherry on top and it made the meal feel complete. Now that I don't smoke anymore, I still have that feeling of "needing something else" and I've been trying to fill the gap with more food.

Interesting.


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Time for a new thread, Aussie Chickies. I'll close this one.