Welcome back Kel! Glad you enjoyed the rest of your holiday :)

Eww, I am in a FOUL mood today. This morning my car wouldn't start, the battery is flat as a pancake so I had to bus to work and that means that I can't go to the gym tonight as it's too difficult to get home on the bus at that time of night. I absolutely HATE it when bad things happen on a Monday because it stuffs me up for the whole week.

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I'm actually thinking of taking the afternoon off work so that I can get my car sorted and then go to the gym as per usual. At least that way I can stick to my routine.

Hope you're all faring better than me!


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I weighed in at 77.8kg this morning - a drop of 0.6kg. Happy with that :carrot:.

Lindor you'll probably experience something weird in relation to fire for the rest of your life. Back in 1992 a fire started in our house while my then girlfriend and I were in it. Funnily enough my cat got weird, and was trying to tell me something for about 15 minutes before I became aware that the house was actually on fire. By then, all we could do was grab the cats, call the fire brigade and bolt. Because we were sitting in front of an open wood fire at the time, the smell of smoke wasn't "obvious".

To this day I get hyper-aware when I think I can smell smoke. Every night I double check that the oven/heaters are off. It will settle down, but it's not highly likely that it will ever leave you.

Julia I sympathise about the car. Last Wednesday morning my neighbour knocked on my door at a ridiculous hour, and said: I'm terribly sorry but my gum tree has fallen on your car. It certainly had - you couldn't even see my car! Fortunately, being a solid German-designed VW Golf, there wasn't too much damage - but it took the tree man two hours to cut it off my car before we could even assess the damage. Certainly made for an interesting day :dizzy:

Anyway this week's goal is to try and drop at least 0.3kg - and to stick to my goals as much as possible.

Welcome home Kel - we missed you!

hey guys i have had a great week dopped 2.6 pounds :)


Kel welcone home . lindor im sorry the fire shook you up so much.. it must have been terrible ...

Ani OMG a tree on your car can you get it fixed???? congrats on the weightloss :) its always nice to break a plateua.. :) have you taken any pictures of the damage you can show us??

Julia... i know so well the pain a car like that is ... i had to buy a solar battery charger that plugged into the cigerrettte light of my old car .. to keep the bugger going.. It helped until the kids left the car door open .. which meant 7 lights were on all night long..

Well we are going away on friday .. i havent been on a holiday since 1996 so im pretty excited :) lol we are going up to mannum for 2 nights .. lol yup about an hours drive away.. hahahaha .. but still it will be the kids first holiday and we are all looking forward to it.. John flys home thursday.. so we will take the fishing rods with us.. we are staying in a river side cabin in a park that has a games room and outside play equipment . so its ideal for the kids ..

Good to see you back Kel I felt sick reading what you ate too! :barf:

Congratulations on the loss Ani. :carrot:

Hope your day gets better Julia! I know what you mean about ruining the whole week if you start out badly! :dizzy:

Your little holiday sound like just what you need Amy. I could do with one too! :D

Lindor I've had a similar experience. Not a fire though, the lady next door was broken into one night and ever since then any little sound I hear that's not usual wakes me and makes me feel nervous.:(

It's TOM for me this week and I've had a really emotional weekend. I've been crying for no apparent reason, I'm angry half the time and any little thing upsets me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't female.:cry:

Anybody heard from Vonni?

Well done on your loss today Ani! I hope that it made you feel a little better about things :)

Julia, I hope you are getting over your bout of Mondayitis and that it doesn't develop into Tuesdayitis!

Barb, I hope you are feeling better too :hug:

It's kinda funny that this fire that has affected me like it has considering I lived next door to a schizophrenic pyromaniac for over five years before I moved here!!! :lol:

But thank you Ani and Barb for making me realise that my reaction is probably very normal and that I am not going crazy :D

I managed to stay on track with my calories today :)

And yes, where is Vonni...and Gen???

Congrats Ani and Amy on your losses :cheer3: that's great news!

My friend's husband came over last night with a battery charger and plugged my battery in. He came back this morning and put the battery back in so here's hoping that it stays juiced up.

Goal for today 1) stick to my points 2) go to the gym and do weights and 20 minutes worth of intervals.


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Had a good day with food and exercise yesterday. Didn't do all of the things I would usually do though, have to do it all today, blah!

Did I tell you about this little revelation I had about a month ago? How I realised that the last time I was this weight I had a whole bunch of stuff happen - including the death of my dad?

It was why I put all that weight on - hiding from emotional pain and all that stuff.

And did I tell you that the very first thought that popped into my head was that I hope nothing happens to my mum? Illogical and silly, I know.

But she rang me last night and told me she has cancer. I'm not panicking yet, because my mum has survived two malignant cancers by getting them early. The first time it was her breast, and that was 20 years ago, and the second time it was on her nose. They completely removed her nose and built her a new one - and that was about 15 years ago. This one is also on her face, and it's also malignant.

I have to admit that I feel a bit frightened - and a bit sad. She's getting older (she was in her mid-30s when she got me out of the orphanage), and she's now in her 80s… but she's pretty strong and robust for someone her age. She still lives alone on the farm in NSW, in the house she was born in - so I reckon she's got another good ten years in her. Maybe.

My challenge here is to a) be honest about how I feel and not stuff things down with food, b) not engage in some insane eating binge in order to not "jinx" my mum and c) eat as healthy as I can so that my body stays strong enough to deal with whatever is coming.

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Oh Ani, I'm so sorry to hear that :cry:

Remember that we're all here for you and you can always log on and tell us if things are getting too much.

I think that you're already a step ahead of the game in that you are aware of the psychology surrounding your situation and therefore you will hopefully be able to pre-empt any negative behaviour.

Do let us know if we can do anything to help.

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Ani I have read everyones posts and heres hugs :hug: for you. Hope all goes well with your mum and you.

Julia did the car go? Well done on all who have lost this week. Lindor how awful for you to have the fire.

Me I am going ok. Partner is moving out in a few weeks but it's all good I'm sure. Been coming for a long time. But I did say to him that it's easy for the man to walk away. Havent lost any weight suprise suprise.

BUT I ACED MY EXAMS today :D 100% on one and 98% on another, and the one I 98% was a change in answers but I had the correct one in the first place grrrr. But I am happy with the results.

Our presentation went well and we have another exam tomorrow.

OH Ani I'm sorry .. i hope you Mum is OK .. she sounds like a real fighter .. having between this demon twice b4 .. Johns Nan was diagnosed with bowel cancer the same day leah was born.. we were all very upset .. she had lost alot of weight b4 they found it and was 85 at the time.. they operated though the doctor didn't have much hope .. and she is still with us 3.5 years later she beat it :) she too lives alone and looks after herself.. the doctor shouldn't underestimate the power of these women.. i hope your mum is the same :) :hug:

OH :( Wow Vonni i cant believe he is moving out , is that instead of him actually having to deal with his problems??? are the kids OK? or are they playing you up because he is???? I swear they act worse then the kids do..

I hope you both come and vent here often.. think about a choccy and come confess who cares just tell us we are here 110% backing you up.. moan all you like even moan as much as i do.. if you can moan that much... lol we are here to listen .. :hug:

Congrats Vonni on aceing your exams :bravo: that's awesome. Sorry to hear that your partner is moving out. Even if it is for the best it's still a tough thing to go through.

I didn't make it to the gym last night as my car died again. I had to leave it in town overnight and my friend's husband will come meet me after work today and help me buy and install a new battery. What a pain!

At least it's hump day ... all downhill from here.


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Vonni that's awful. Are you OK? I know things have been rocky for a while, but I'm still shocked. You make sure you let me know if there's anything I can do, or if you need a chat :hug:.

And thanks for your kind words and support Julia and Amy. I really appreciate it.

Finally got this month's roster and I've actually got something like normal work hours over the next three weeks. I'm working Monday to Friday, and it will be the first weekend off in six weeks. I'm also doing mostly day shifts - so that will be different ;).

I'm right on track at the moment and feeling really determined. Meeting 90% of my goals every day, and getting plenty of "exercise" at work. I can actually see some muscle definition in my arms - and that's a good feeling.

Anyway - must go and have breakfast and get ready for work.

:)
Ani

Oh Ani, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'd be devastated if my mum gave me news like that - it's a huge worry about my parents with me being so far away. Sounds like she's a tough old bird, so thoughts and prayers that she does well. I bet she's proud of your efforts so far, so keep doing it for her if not for yourself. You know your weight is not related to bad things happening (apart from random crushes from work colleagues....). Hugs.

Vonni, I'm not surprised really. You're right, it's easier for men to leave. Are you going to cope ok with school and kids etc? To be honest, if he was holding you back from your goals it may be the best thing for you. Look at your grades - 100% and 98%! That's HARD to do at uni - well done!!

Ani and Vonni, my thoughts are with you both. Just when things seem to be going well life throws something nasty at us. You are both strong women and will cope no matter what happens, and like everyone else has said we're all here if you need us. :hug:

After spending the last four out of seven days with my a** hanging out of the fridge I wasn't going to weigh in today, I did and have managed to stay the same! :)

hey hey everyone
wowee so so so much going on everywhere - life is incredible

vonni - you are superwoman - you have SO much going in your life yet you ALWAYS seem to stay positive! hope it does turn out to be a good thing that partner moving out - what a huge step...... how is ebony liking being an aunty??

daycare and working is freakin me out!
here are afew of my fave pics from our holiday:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?ai...d&id=672125417

i weighed in on monday - but didnt look - and i am going to weigh in next monday and benji is going to tell me how much weight i have lost - hoping this works as if i had weighed in and saw the number for myself i may have just chucked a little tanty and eaten more food - stupid i know

How is Jemima settling in at daycare? And apart from it all freaking you out, is you working and Jem in daycare working out okay? I hope it is!

I got a new battery for my car last night ... $110 later it's working again. Gutted to have had to spend that much but at least now it's done and my little car is behaving itself!

So for the first time this week, I'm going to be able to go to the gym tonight! I'm determined not to let 3 days off plan ruin the whole week - no point waiting till Monday when I can get back on track now.


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Kel your holiday looked beautiful. I love the pic of Jemima in the leaves. And the sign with your last name on it!

How long now before your off O/S Julia? Can't be that far now.

I can't access facebook from work so can't see your holiday pics Kel :(

My trip to the US is now 4 weeks away. It seems like it's taking forever to come around!

I hit the gym last night and had a good workout. Weighed in and was gutted to see that I've gained 1.7 and am now sitting at 84.7kg.

Boo Hoo!

Just got home from work, and now have two days off - yay me! I do have a house inspection tomorrow morning, so I need to spend some time cleaning here, but aside from that I have no great plans.

Been fairly determined with my goals this week, and aside from a couple of minor glitches have managed reasonably well. Have to say I have worked pretty hard this week too, so as long as I'm not too slack over the weekend, all should be OK.

Kel it looks like you had a wonderful holiday - I had a look through your photos and was most envious ;).

Hey Gen how's your weight loss going?

Julia I wouldn't get too concerned - weight fluctuates for so many reasons; whether it be TOM, fluid retention, salty meals, stress… even time of day. It will come off again! I know it has happened to me so many times now that I laugh when the scale does it, and just keep on going.

Anyway, after a hard day at work I must go and clean up this house in time for the early morning call with the landlord.

:)
Ani

Did you mean weight gain? If so, it's going great! I can't stop eating.

hmmm weighed myself today. Did great on exams, however sitting on my a r s e every day for 2 hours driving then while examing has resulted in an extra 2 kilos GAINED grrrr not happy jan, or ani or gen or julia or kel or babr or lindor or kylie? or everyone lol.

Kel those pics of yr holiday look fantastic. It sounds like you had such a good time. I'm envious. Jemima looks like she loved the hotel rooms hehehee. and the trees are awesome.

Ani how have yr days off been? Hope you made the most of them. Lindor where are you?

Hello all

Didn't make it to the gym at all during the weekend so last week was a super lazy one. Back on track with diet and exercise this week. I made a huge batch of soup last night so that'll be my lunch all week.

Sadly I had a run in with the knife when cutting up the pumpkin and I took a massive chunk off the top of my finger :(

I went to the doctor but there was too much skin gone to stitch it up so I've got a big bandage on it which makes it very difficult to type!


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i dont know how much i weigh but it is 400 grams less than last Monday.... so carrot dance
especially considering i didnt do anything hardcore or really miss any food.... i had a couple of treats of milo and a little choc here and there and no exercise
next monday i dont know if i will get benji to tell me how much i weigh or not, this morning i am in a weird sad place coz i have no work lined up for next 3 weeks (then i have a week of work lined up and then a week i want "off") but to get jemima used to daycare she is at daycare today and was on friday so i have a day off a totally free day - and a messy house to clean and highschool reunion to plan but i feel so sad to not have my baby girl with me and feel so slack coz i have frozen my gym membership for another week i think coz that is what my monday morning usually would have been.
vonni - how is the new baby going?
is everyone gaining weight coz of the weather?
i'm going back to bed coz there is no baby going to tell me not to!

Hi Kel. New baby is screaming all the tme. Apart from that she is great. I've spent a few nights there till midnight / 1am settling her for my daughter. Last time the poor kid fell asleep and the next morning sent me a text apologising. I'd rather her sleep while I am there though, at least then she gets a bit. That night bubba slept 3.5 hours which is the most ever. She usually wakes every hour and sometimes more often grrrr. I say she has really bad reflux. All the signs are there so she is off to the health clinic tomorrow.

Kel are you on a daycare system where if you don't go your booked days you still have to pay? We are. Its annoying especially when a day is a public holiday. Like, how can they charge for a service that they wont even provide that day regardless? Make the most of those days you are not at work, even if it's to take some 'me' time.

Ani havent heard from you all weekend. Lindor where are you? Gen? barb? anyone :(

Me, I've gained a few kilos last week. not happy at all. hopefully this next 2 weeks will help as I am being physical all day at the nursing home for clinical.

I'm due for my period and I can not get enough chocolate!!! Am trying a a different tack with weight watchers and allowing myself to eat a bit more and see if that affects my weight loss.

My weight has been so up and down lately but in the long run has basically remained the same. I'm down 900g from last week and now sitting at 83.8kg.

Anyhoo, I hit the gym last night and did weights followed by a good, hard aerobics class. Will do 40 minutes cardio tonight and have my trainer tomorrow.

Kel that's got to be tough with a screaming baby :( My friend has a baby with bad reflux so I kind of know what you're experiencing.

Congrats on your loss Kel :cp: keep up the great work!


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I give up! I am so tired of trying to lose weight. I'm not going to think about it for a while and see what happens. I've complelely lost focus..........AGAIN. I'll just have to be happy being a fat person.

I got a laugh from this I thought you girls might too.



WHY GOD MADE MUMS

Answers given by 6 year old school children to the following questions:

Why did God make mothers?
1. She's the only one who knows where the sticky tape is.
2. Mostly to clean the house.
3. To help us out of there when we were getting born.


How did God make mothers?
1. He used dirt, just like for the rest of us.
2. Magic plus super powers and a lot of stirring.
3. God made my Mum just the same like he made me. He just used bigger parts.


What ingredients are mothers made of ?
1. God makes mothers out of clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean.
2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think.


Why did God give you your mother and not some other Mum?
1. We're related.
2. God knew she likes me a lot more than other people's Mums like me.


What kind of little girl was your Mum?
1. My Mum has always been my Mum and none of that other stuff
2. I don't know because I wasn't there, but my guess would be pretty bossy.
3. They say she used to be nice.


What did Mum need to know about Dad before she married him?
1. His last name.
2. She had to know his background. Like is he a crook? Does he get drunk on beer?
3. Does he make at least $800 a year? Did he say NO to drugs and YES to chores?


Why did your Mum marry your Dad?
1. My Dad makes the best spaghetti in the world... And my Mum eats a lot.
2. She got too old to do anything else with him.
3. My Grandma says that Mum didn't have her thinking cap on.


Who's the boss at your house?
1.. Mum doesn't want to be boss, but she has to because dad's such a goof ball.
2. Mum. You can tell by room inspection. She sees the stuff under the bed.
3. I guess Mum is, but only because she has a lot more to do than Dad.


What's the difference between Mums & Dads?
1. Mums work at work and work at home and Dads just go to work at work.
2. Mums know how to talk to teachers without scaring them.
3. Dads are taller & stronger, but Mums have all the real power 'cause that's who you got to ask if you want to sleep over at your friend's.
4. Mums have magic, they make you feel better without medicine.


What does your Mum do in her spare time?
1. Mothers don't do spare time.
2. To hear her tell it, she pays bills all day long.


What would it take to make your Mum perfect?
1. On the inside she's already perfect. Outside, I think some kind of plastic surgery.
2. Diet. You know, her hair. I'd diet, maybe blue.


If you could change one thing about your Mum, what would it be?
1. She has this weird thing about me keeping my room clean. I'd get rid of that.
2. I'd make my Mum smarter. Then she would know it was my sister who did it and not me.
3. I would like for her to get rid of those invisible eyes on the back of her head.

Last night I made a very exciting discovery ... a whole pack of pate is only 1/2 a point on weight watchers. I've been eating a fair amount of it lately and was stoked to discover it's so low in points :T

Did well yesterday and stuck to my points allowance. Did 40 minutes cardio at the gym. Got up early and had a session with my PT this morning. 30 minutes of weights followed by a 40 minute walk.

Still craving chocolate like crazy but so far am managing to fit it into my plan. I think I'll be getting my period today so am preparing for some cramps and an early night in bed.


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Barb what's going on? Are you giving up? Sounds like almost everyone is going through a hard time trying to get our heads around even wanting to lose weight at the moment. I know I'm struggling.

I wish there was a magic wand you could wave to make us all enthusiastic and motivated, but that isn't going to happen. I'm in a petulant mood with my weight loss - I feel tired of always watching what I eat, tired of having to be strong and resist things that seem yummy. Maybe after almost two years I am experiencing a little bit of 'battle fatigue' - I'm not sure.

I am also aware that I don't have the self-belief, at the moment, that I am ever going to reach my goal. It may have been a mistake to set my end-goal so low.

I haven't gained any weight. This morning I weighed 77.9kg - which isn't worth changing my ticker for - but the scale isn't the problem. The problem is my own lack of commitment to reaching my daily goals.

OK - what to do? This is what I have achieved so far:

• Lost 27kg/60 pounds;

• Lost 27.7% of my body weight;

• Beaten obesity and become overweight.

In the process I have learned a lot about myself and changed my relationship with food. But I'm not quite there, and I don't yet trust that the change is permanent.

Maybe I should change my ticker and aim for something more realistic. I'm reasonably confident that I can get close to 70kg by the end of this year, as long as I work hard and get back on track. I'm not sure I can get below that though - it just seems like a really hard thing to do.

I'm going to try and get back on track today. It would be good to finish the week weighing no more than I do right now, but I'll see how I go. Here are today's goals:

• Eat no more than 1550 calories;

• Surprise myself and drink more than one mouthful of water;

• Make sure I include 5 serves of vegetables in whatever I shove in my mouth; and

• Reach 10,000 steps (won't be hard - I'm working) on my pedometer.

Maybe I should change my attitude a bit too - because it's times like now, when things are really tough, that will measure whether I am fair dinkum about wanting to be strong and healthy - or whether I'm a pretender.

Sorry for the self-indulgent rant. I'm just trying to find a way to get back on track - and you girls are the only people who understand what these times are like.

:)
Ani

Hey guys ive been back a few days but John has been a computer hog lol.. we had a great holiday.. i have gained weight but thems the breaks i suppose.. i suspect some of it is water weigth though.. since all the salty food .. some of it is fat too becuase its wasn't healthy either.. lol

OK the holiday ... the food was bad.... but very good lol we walked everywhere .. and the kids were perfect..
We caught a grand total of 5 fish... lol but we didnt care.. We took the kids on the ferry and paddlesteamer tooked them to the museum of paddlesteamers .. And then scared our selves half to death lol...

The scaring part is really funny

We went for a drive down this rather eary road where there was nothing but steep hills either side and some cows and the road had turned to gravel .. its felt creepy and i said to John hey where the spike strip.. this place is like that movies... the hills have eyes... lol.. and he agreed it was a creppy road.. so we turned around and went back to town.. we had our dinner ( It was delicoius but bad lol chicken breast prawns,calamari swimmimg in a creamy garlic sauce and served with chips lol ) so we played a few games on Pool had dinner and then left the resteraunt .. on the way Cameron noticed there were alot more stars in the sky... So i told John to drive somewhere dark so he could really see.. them..
He drove down the creepy road.. i said not this road but he said we'll just go up a little bit and stop b4 the gravel bit we will be fine..

So we pull over get out the car turn all the lights off and look up .. Cameron was amazed... THEN I HEARD SOMETHING MOVING BEHIND ME...... i told John and i heard it again.. ITS GETTING CLOSER ..... we threw the kids and the car no seat belts nothing and speed off further down the road... all ****ting our selves.. completly freked out by what could have made the noise.. John turned the car to head back to town.. as we passed the spot where we had pulled over... we saw a cow lol...... we started killing ourselves laughing.. John said to Cameron who was still freaking out.. Camerons scared of a moo .. which he replyed so are you.... and he started laughing too.. Leah still unaware of what we were all thinking just whined that her seat belt was undone.. lol She wasn't scared at all...

It was so funny .. but i said to John whay did you go down the creepy road to which he replyed.. i dont know.. i must be a sicko... lol


the last couple of days i have been doing nothing but washing.. lol holiday??? omg what a pain lol.. with 2 kids when one wets herlef 5 or 6 times a day lol .... and your at the river and they are playing/walking in the mud.. lol... i know i should be wrotten we really did have a great time ..

I havent recorded my food since last wednesday and im feeling very bloated at the moment and im up about 2 pounds .. atm.. but i know i havent drunk enough .. so im not classing that 2 pounds till the end of the week lol.. lets just see what happens.. since i wweigh less at 11pm then i did when i woke up thismorning and i have had breakfast and 3 glasses of water since... lol lets just see.. lol

Ani you have done incredible with your weight loss :) .. 60 pounds is unreal..
Barb i know what you mean about feeling like giving up .. but in the end what is that going to achieve?? ive gained but im still going at it.. its taken me years to get like this.. and its gonna take year to get rid of it.. im here for the long road.. ..

Vonni im sorry the baby is having trouble i know what that is like Cameron had bad colic and would scream the house down from 12pm to 8 pm ( then would sleep all night )everyday .. in that time he wouldn't sleep or feed properly.. and just made us miserable for 8 wholes months.. Leah had reflux and had a 20 minutes sleep cycle till she was over 1 year old.. i would have the colic with sleep over the reflux no sleep any day lol << why i dont want anymore kids lol...

Kel is jem enjoying daycare??

Sounds like you had a nice holiday Amy :D love your story about the creepy road! I totally know what you mean though, sometimes you just get a vibe and something very ordinary can suddenly seem scary :fr:

It sure does sound like everyone's hit a bit of a rough patch at the moment. We all know how hard this is and we all feel like giving up from time to time. I have to remind myself that giving up is what kept me fat for the past 7 years and I don't want to go back to that. If I feel like eating something that I know is bad then I will and I'll damn well enjoy it :D the key is not to allow a slip up to turn into failure and defeat. We've got to allow treats every now and then!

Ani, you've come a helluva long way mate and it's only natural that you'll lose the drive to carry on occasionally. The thing with you is that you're obviously a determined woman and once you set a goal, you do all you can to achieve that goal. I've said it before and I'll say it again - as long as you're thinking about things and setting yourself achieveable goals then you're already well on your way to success.

And I must say, 27kg lost? Damn, that's a FANTASTIC effort! :bravo: Don't sell yourself short - you CAN do this and you WILL achieve whatever goals you put your mind to.

How about stopping weighing yourself once you reach 70kg? You could stick to the same diet plan and set goals based on achieving strength or fitness or something like that. Go find something in Bunnings that weighs as close to 27kg as you can find and try to lift it up. That'll be a good reminder of what you've achieved already.

I rekon that weight is a dangerous thing to get stuck on. I may have lost only 14kg so far but my body shape has changed tremendously. I'll never be a light person, I know that from past experience. When I was 20 I was very fit and a small size 12 and I weighed around 70kg. According to all the charts and scales etc I was obese when in fact I had low body fat, a decent amount of muscle and was in the best shape of my life.

Come on ladies, don't give up. WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!

:cheer2::cheer3::cheer2::cheer3::cheer2::cheer3:

what can i say but:moo::moo::moo::eek::tantrum::rofl: lol scary scary cow lol


hey guys do you think its the weather affecting you? Cold nights which make you wanna stay in bed with nice warm comforting food??? lol hot chocolates.. etc??? the cold is bad.. it makes me hungry... very hungry..

Im doing ok though i think.. just not when we were away .. and 3 days of junk and lots of salt.. has done me no favours.. monday i was exhausted all day long yesterday i felt better and today im fine .. but till bloated.. i must say i have been a frequent visitor to the loo today though.. so hopefully tomorrow will bw better.. John wants to go around and visit his parents tonight.. I said id stay home and cook te.. so we dont eat junk again.. and he had a big sulky and said FINE ill ring her up and tell her we are not coming then... arggghhh MEN!!! Why cant he go without me?? its his parents.. then we can have a decent meal tonight?? lol..

Leah is in the bath ATM that how i got back on here.. since the bath is directly behind me and she needs to be watched.. anyway .. time to wash her hair .. Later

Ani, I'm just sick to death of watching everything I eat and still eating things that I know I shouldn't. And you know what makes it even worse is that I know if I keep at it, it'll be worthwhile, stupid isn't it! :?: I'm in the same place you are. If you ever find that wand send it my way will ya!

I had a good laugh about your scary cow too Amy!:p

Julia its good that you've found something you love that's also not terribly bad too! I'm into hummus and vegie dippers atm, but then a nice glass of wine always goes down well with it too. ;)

Oh my goodness …… today is going to be a LONG day.

I went to get my tattoo finished last night. It’s all done now and it looks amazing. As we finished up, I asked Tattoo Boy if he had any plans for the weekend. He said no but there is a gig he wants to go to tonight. It’s a punk band and I said that I’d like to go to something like that but have no friends who would want to go with me. He said “yeah same, at the moment I’m going by myself” so I said I’d like to go with him. He took my phone number and will call me today if he decides to go.

So I figure that now I've given him an opening and that if he's at all remotely interested he'll call so it's out of my hands now.

Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me ladies.


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Julia everything is crossed - that was very brave of you! Are you nervous now?

Amy I laughed about the cow too. Glad you had a great holiday - don't worry about gaining a few pounds, it will come off.

Barb as sad as it is there isn't any magic wand. We have to find that "something special" inside ourselves and make it happen. Do you know what's making you struggle, or what foods are tripping you up? Or is it something emotional? Whatever it is, you have to find it and make it your friend.

I'm still in a bad head space, but I've given myself a time limit - I'm allowing myself to be an idiot until tomorrow night, and then it all gets back to normal. I'm also thinking that I may change my goal when I weigh in on Monday.

Anyway I had better go and get ready for work.

:)
Ani

Well done Julia! Your a very brave girl. I wouldn't have been able to do what you did. I've got everything crossed too!

Ani I have no idea what my problem is at the moment. Besides eating out of habbit, eating to feel better, eating for the **** of eating, goodness knows! I've pretty much summed it all up there haven't I! Our life is a bit of a mess lately and there's not a lot I can do about it. I feel a bit helpless and food is reliable. Wow, there you go, I do know what's wrong with me! :)

Nervous? My stomach is churning! I'll be gutted if he doesn't call but the reality of actually going out with him is bloody scary! Oh well, it's out of my hands now so I shall just have to wait and see.

Have you heard anything yet Julia?