ok i know im up to late lol.. but it is aprils fools day so what better day to make a fool of myself.. and scare you guys too .. lol ..


are you ready??? i have pictures.... of flabby progress.. lol

before after i had lost a little weight sheesh lol
http://i8.tinypic.com/6yd2m92.jpg

and yesterday
http://i32.tinypic.com/zul5bc.jpg

The clothes are the same but now i could probably get in both the pants and top with a friend.. lol as you can see they are now baggy .. lol .. The distance is the same .. the camera is on the seat of my elliptical .. but the angle is different slightly.. lol oh ignore the crap in the back room..

Lookin good Amy! Your arms are looking leaner and other than that you're just smaller all over. Your tummy is lots smaller and I can see how baggy the pants are.

You go girl :cheer2::cheer2::cheer2:

Well, I went to the gym last night and braved the scales. I have gained 2.5kg since I last weighed in a couple of weeks ago and am now sitting at 84.3kg.

So. Time for some home truths for me.

1. I've let my old eating habits creep back. I did not lose weight by eating whatever I want! I lost weight through hard work and sacrifice. I will not lose weight if I don't get back on track.
2. If I don't do something about this now, I will end up right back where I started at almost 100kg.

Yesterday was a perfect day for me. I ate within my daily points allowance and did 40 minutes of exercise. I'm going to copy Ani and set some goals. I have 8 weeks until I go on holiday to the US and I would like to have lost more weight by then.

In order to do this I will have to stick to my diet and exercise programme. No more breaking the rules!

Permanent goals:

1. Stick to points allowance EVERY DAY!!!
2. Exercise at least 5 times a week.
3. Aim to lose 1kg per week up until my holiday.

Wish me luck!


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Where did your belly go?

WOW Amy - I hope you're proud of yourself because that's a massive difference!

Julia I think it's a great idea that you're setting goals for yourself. I don't mind a bit that you're copying what I do - because I'm living proof that it works :). I completely agree with you about our old eating habits… they're what made us get fat in the first place, and until we permanently change them (and our thinking about them), we're going to struggle with our weight.

I had a shocker yesterday - for some reason I was in a bad mood (and I have no idea why) and I ate far too much chocolate. The annoying thing was that I didn't necessarily want it. Anyway, that's behind me now and I am going to be a lot more sensible today. I've got another day off, and have a lot to do, so hopefully I won't stuff my face with crap.

Thinking, thinking, thinking…

Should I change my goal weight to 65kg? I'm not sure what to do because I haven't been 65kg for 20 years, and it feels impossible.

BUT

When I get to 67kg I will still be 'overweight'. Do I really want to travel this long road and still be technically fat when I reach goal?

BUT

When I try to imagine myself as a Size 12 I get the giggles, and I just can't see it. Me THAT small? Ha ha ha ha ha!

AND

It will add more time to this journey. It's like running a marathon, putting in every bit off effort you've got, putting on a burst, only to watch them shift the finish line a few km down the road just as you think you're almost there.

BUT

What if I CAN do it? Isn't that what life's all about? Learning to take new risks, challenge yourself to bigger adventures, become the very best person you can possibly become… surprise yourself by discovering you can do things you think are impossible?

BUT

What if I fail? What if I set myself up for this 'ultimate' goal, and then don't make it?

BUT

What does it say about me if I don't TRY? I think I'd rather try and fail than give up without having a crack…

Right! Decision made :D.

Excuse my self-indulgent post. Aren't you glad you don't have to come shopping with me?

It's been 8 years for me too Vonni. I did the same thing late last year at a party. I couldn't get rid of the taste all night. And to think I used to always have that taste and smell about me! :smoking: Oh and by the way I'm not a reformed smoker that preaches to everyone either! :rolleyes:

Amy. :bravo: Your looking great! Can you see yourself in a little while sticking both legs in one pant leg...........I can :D

Ani I don't ever think I was 65, or maybe I was there for a little while but not long enough to register how it feels! I always remember being in the 80's. If I were you I would get to 67 and then see how you feel within yourself. Maybe that'll be enough. I'm aiming for 70 for now and will do the same when I get there, I'd like to have a couple of kg's to play with though. I'm still overweight at 70 but ok at 68 :dizzy: Can a couple of kg's really make that much of a difference!

Good luck Julia, but I don't really think you need it. You've come this far, you just need to get back on track. If you had put on weight right back at the beginning would you have given up? Yeah? Not now though, you've know what you want and how to get it and that will always be with you. Look back at all the things you've dealt with along this journey. You've come a very long way and you're a different person now to what you were when you started this. :hug:

I miss Lindor. Where are you?

XX
Barb

I've just found a BMI calculator that gives me peoples choice ideal weight and medical recommendation www.halls.md/ideal-weight/body.htm

I like the peoples choice weight for me! 72kg's!

65 sounds so tiny.. LMAO. Go for it Ani.. you'll make it there eventually, and imagine that! I'd have to take a photo of the scale, since it wouldn't last long!

if you aim for 65kg and you never get there you will be pretty damn small anyway! what's that saying if you aim for the moon and miss you will still be in the stars?? i dont know but u get what i am trying to say
go for it WHAT except FAT have you got to LOSE?

i am not in a great mindframe at the moment..... but not giving up
i think i am just TOTALLY pissed at try try try trying to lose weight and not really getting anywhere.... i would totally not care if i was the same weight and not trying i would also not be THAT pissed if i put on weight coz i was not trying BUT i do deny myself, i do think about what goes in my mouth and still it feels i am getting nowhere

CONFUSION i weigh more than i have all year and my skirt is too big??
very frustrating coz i am inbetween sizes, when will the fashion world realise there is a whole market of people that is size 15??? humphy humph hmph ho humphy!

vonni it is SO great you found that support group, support with people of like minds in same situations is priceless.... i am sick to death of getting "support" and "help" from people about baby stuff when they are in a whole different mindset.......

amy i cant believe that is the same top, i actually sat there and thought she should have worn the same clothes. then i read your little bit downthe bottom omigosh! look your boobs are now out further than your belly!

julia - i hate that you are so right - you didnt lose weight by eating what you wanted you did kick arse and stuck to the plan....... i need to do same thing.... annoying thing is i dont want to count i dont have time to count i want foolproof snacks I NEED to drink more water

700grams down!! but i cant remember if that is just from Monday or if I did weigh the awful eighty seven number last thursday so i will have to wait until Monday to 'officially' weigh in and see how i am going - changes i have made that may make a difference:
morning tea everyday of 3 rice crackers and a tin of tuna
porridge for brekky (no milo on it heheheehe)
no carbs (or basically none) for dinner
trying to cut out processed food for me and jemima
and generally not eating crap - ho hum

yeah its pretty cool .. at least i can see this way im making some difference .. I look like rubbish naked but oh well .. i probably always will now.. All my stomach sags.. its revolting really lol .. All i can say is thank the lord for lingerie.. lol.

Ani 65 sounds tiny.. lol omg 65 ......... that is tiny lol .. i doint think i weighed that when i was in high school ..and thin i weighed 70 - 72 kilos.. I dont think i could ever be 65 lol I just dont think i have the frames for that .. I have a rather large frame for the women .. I cant get my fingers to come close to touching around my wrists they are a good 5 cm from touching.. and i have great big hips lol.. Skinny i was a 12 bottoms and a 8-10 top and then i grew boobs lol and was a 12 all over and about 72 kilos ..

Kel and Julia ... get back op lol Kel if you think you dont have time to count go to calorie king .. there ia an australian version.. and it takes maybe 2 minutes to fill it in..

I remember being 63kg.. I was 13 in year 8!

Remind me in 3 months not to let someone called "Kelly" take my blood - thought I'd be a good samaritan (and get out of work for an hour!) and donate blood this arvo ... of course noone could find a vein, so they get the chief vampire - oops, I mean nurse - and she sticks me, pokes it around a lot, makes me keep squeezing my fist...

Anyhow fast forward to now, 5 hours later - I have a MASSIVE purple and yellow bruise (great junkie look) and a HUGE hematoma... like an alien boob! It's enormous!

So sitting here with ice pack and analgesia. Heh... that'll teach me to do a good deed!

Started the challenge Monday, they gave us a pedometer. I did 12,398 steps yesterday between work and the gym. Today about 6000 I think, but I am a bit blah from giving blood so won't go to the gym tonight. We shall see tomorrow - we have an implant, so I should be running all over the place. i have taken my lunch to work each day this week so far - it's annoying the boys, cause they like to order lunch but oh well. I'd rather annoy them and lose weight! Already feeling better after stopping eating crap for a few days.

Also the gym - each stepper/elliptical/bike/treadmill has a built in TV screen, with all the cable channels.. makes the time go by fast! They have fans too.. it rocks!

we know calorie king.... gen is queen of calorie king
it works and it works good
it has been awesome for my food education

hmmmm so really what i am saying is i know there is no miracle cure but i want one

HAD to have a choc macadamia muffin today, didnt want the hostess to feel stupid, she had gone to so so much trouble and had me and another lady with a baby over, think it was her baby's first playdate....... but i have done real good today other than that
even bought a chicken and pulled all the meat off.... trainer said ham was bad coz it was processed........... is there an easier way to get chicken breast for sandwich?? should i be buying just chicken breast and cooking it myself???

It's easy to cook chicken breasts in the microwave, that's what I used to do. Don't worry about the turkey/ham etc too much though - it may be "processed", but you have to do something that fits in with your lifestyle, and we can't all grow our own mungbeans... hehehe. Just get the low fat/low salt varieties.

Hello all

I have a confession to make. I went to a work function on Wednesday night where there was an open bar and I fell off the wagon completely. Not with my diet or exercise - I went for a 30 minute walk beforehand and stuck to my diet - but with regards to alcohol.

I've been really good and have been in control of my alcohol intake since before Christmas but on Wednesday night, I had a binge :( I won't go into details, but basically I'm really disappointed in myself and it's really reinforced to me that I am not a normal person when it comes to drinking. I can have a couple of glasses of wine but anything more than that gets me into dangerous territory. Clearly not a good idea for me to attend events which have an open bar!

So really gutted to be back at square one having done so well for the past 3 months. Have spoken with my counsellor and she said that it's pretty normal to go through something like this. I guess that I need to just chalk it up to a lesson learned and get right back on track like I was before.

Sorry to be so "me me me" in this post but I just thought I'd feel better getting it all out in the open. Thanks for listening :^:


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Hey Julia … :hug:. Look how much you've grown, and how wise you've become. In the past it would have taken ages for you to see a counsellor and to talk about it, but look at you now. We all stuff up and do things we feel bad about, but it takes a strong, honest woman to say: 'this stops now'. Don't beat yourself up about it.

I'm on track this week. Nothing to report - just figuring out how to manage food with shift work. It's 5am here and I'm getting ready for a 6am start - not even slightly hungry, so I expect today to be a challenge. If I don't eat something before I go to work I'm going to be starving, but I feel like I'll be sick if I do eat. Ah - dilemmas!

julia - ditto what ani said
isnt the first step when u have a problem is admitting you have a problem??
i'm sure in the past you would not have cared that you did it... but this time you did it and you are now punishing yourself
surely in the past you would have done a lot worse so in that regards you have improved too?
and lets look at the positive you stayed ON the wagon for diet and exercise! woo hoo you didnt just throw the towel in completly

its time for my morning tea.... tuna here i come
spoke to my other trainer today - the girly one - heaps better nutrition wise than beefcake.... he is all protein protein protein, she is like everything in moderation etc...... i will get rid of him after my holiday and get 2 sessions a week with girly (she is also half the price) she reckons i dont look like i have put on weight so we are pretending (could b true) that it is muscle.

turning computer off now as have no will power really when it comes to the internet - especially at the moment when i am organising highschool reunion, every mouse click gets me in contact with people i have not been in contact with in 10 years and it is kinda cool sticky beaking into all their lives on facebook.... heehehehe.....

Julia, you should be so proud! We all fall off various wagons, but you corrected yourself right away. And now you know - no more booze for you! Well done for being so fast to take steps to fix the issue.

(and you're not at ALL "me-me-me", but even if you were, that's what we're here for. I've been a bit self obsessed with all my life changes lately myself!)

Back to me (hah!) - did a reasonable amount of running around today, and managed 9348 steps so far (it's 9pm). That even includes going to the gym after work - although I spent some time on the bike, which didn't register. I burned around 300 some calories according to my HRM at the gym though. Going to wear my HRM to work tomorrow to see how many calories I burn in a regular day.

Have taken my lunch every day this week and getting less hungry every day. Eating around 1500-1750 cals. Today I might be struggling to make my cals, as I ate salad for lunch and 400 cal dinner. Enjoying so far!

I have a bunch of people in my program wearing pedometers around, every time we see each other all day we are "how many are you up to?!" - it's a huge competition lol.

Gen I think you'll do well, because you're competing with people - and that's going to bring the best out in you :).

I'm going to have to buy myself new steel cap boots. Every day when I come home from work my feet ache like crazy - and they hurt while I'm at work too. The most alarming thing is that my achilles tendon has really flared up again. I tried on a few pair the other day, and of course the most comfortable were the most expensive - by far! But what price comfort when you spend all day walking around on a concrete floor?

I've got my eating/shift work routine under control. I have to admit it has taken a few days, so I may not lose anything this week - but it's looking good for the medium term.

Anyway I'm working all weekend, so may not get a chance to post before Monday. Hope you all have a great weekend.

:)
Ani

Ani you can buy steel capped joggers now. I think Dunlop makes a pair of kT22 steel cap. Go to the menssection of a department store and find some. They are really comfy and not heavy on yr ankles.

Trouble is we're not allowed to wear them :(. I'd love to be able to have steel capped joggers but Bunnings won't let us!

ani, have you been to a podiatrist for insoles? My achilles is pissing me off at the moment too... lots of walking in the new job. The orthotics make a crapload of difference, though. Now that my benefits have kicked in, I'm going to make an appointment to see an orthopaedic surgeon about my achilles... after a year, it should be waaaay better than it is. Luckily, my boss has a mate who is an orthopod, so I'm going to see him soon.

Dear me, the guy at work - sigh. Still so hot and we get on better all the time. The sexual tension needs a large knife at this point. I think I need to take a step back and stop hanging out with him - I thought it was all harmless, but it's really getting... hmmm... tense. Doh! Where are the single ones I like!? I even went out looking tonight at a bar haha.

where is everybody??????? :(

I'm here - absolutely stuffed from a busy day at work! Starting tomorrow I have afternoon shift all week, including the weekend… what fun :dizzy:.

Gen I might have to do something about my achilles too. I investigated orthotics, and got some a while ago - but I hated them. I use a heel lift in my runners, and that helps so I might see what I can do for my work boots.

I had a customer tell me today that I gave them the best service, and most professional advice they've ever had in ten years of going to Bunnings - and a little old lady who wanted to tell my boss that I was wonderful. Better than the bloke who told me to get f*#@ed the other day because I told him to stop climbing up the shelving, or the other bloke who told me to go back to the kitchen because this is a "man's job".

Weigh-in tomorrow. I'm not expecting much, but as long as I don't gain I'll be fine with that.

And yes - where is everyone?

I'm here.

And I do pop on intermittently to catch up and see how you are all going. And currently, I am a little concerned about Amys disappearance??? Kinda strange not seeing a post from her for a few days? Hmmm...Kel too, but she has said she is cutting back her internet time.

Ani, how are you finding Bunnings? You've told us how you are managing the job with your weight-loss program and it sounds like you have that well under control now. You have told us you are happy to be getting an income again. You have told us it is not helping your foot. You have told us of the nice customers and the not so nice customers - and don't let the @rseholes get you down!! But you haven't said whether you are enjoying the work?

Gen your crush has me laughing and I find myself looking for another installment each time I log on here!! But, as with weight loss, there is no harm in looking and drooling over the menu!

And I have to say you have settled into the American way very quickly! I mean really?? Hematoma? Surely you mean Haematoma??? :p

I agree with Ani about your weight loss too...the competition will definately bring out the best in you!

Julia...I have always admired your ability to pick up on yourself when you know things are wrong. And you know you made a mistake and you know how to learn from that! You are doing just fine mate...don't be too hard on yourself :hug:


I am still not sure where I am at or going with my weight loss. I have not set foot on the scales since returning from holiday (well ok, once, only to find them dead). Whether that is working for me or not I don't know.

I have kept to my calorie budget every day since before my last post here. And the feeling of getting smaller is by far more satisfying than reading the numbers on the scales. Just goes to show it is all in the head doesn't it?

I don't know what I weigh just now. But in the last couple of weeks I have felt my clothes get looser. My skin feels softer, looser, and I can touch my thumb to my index finger around my wrist (Amys fault that I had to try that!).

I don't feel the anxiety of having a weigh in day. I don't feel the disappointment of a weekly weigh in being less than I had hoped. I don't feel depressed because I have gained a little. I am content with how I feel with the physical changes. I don't need to be controlled by tools anymore.

I will get on the scales again at some point...I have to admit I am a little curious. I was going to do it on the 1st of April and then make monthly weigh ins, but I was still convinced I had gained from my holiday and figured that it only depress me again to see little, or even no change, from my last weigh in of 188lb. So I've decided I'd get a more positive result mentally with my first weigh in being the 1st of May.

I do feel confident that I can stick to my calorie budget. However, I have a lot of work trips in the next few months and they will prove to be a challenge...as they always do!

Ok, enough banter from me, I have things to do before bed!

I will try to make an effort (can't promise) to post more often...I have been very slack. :^:

Good to see you again Lindor! I have to spell "hematoma" otherwise the people at work make fun of my spelling! God knows, they make enough fun of my accent haha.

Good to see you back Lindor :D Don't be such a stranger eh!

I was also thinking the same thing ... Ani, how are you finding it working at Bunnings? You happy there? Life a bit easier now that you have a regular paycheque?

I had a very quiet weekend. Watched Kill Bill on telly on Friday night (love that movie!) and The Cider House Rules on Saturday night which was also very good. Diet was okay but I didn't record anything in my food diary so may well have overeaten without realising it. Exercise was nil but I did take mum's dog to the park and hit the ball around for her on Friday, Saturday and Sunday so at least she got exercised.

Today is a new day. My goals for today are to 1) stick to my points allowance and 2) go to the gym after work.

Hope everyone else is well.


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HAHA Lindor thats really funny:rofl:

Gen I have my exams in 4 weeks and one of our textbooks have american spelling - mainly HEM instead of HAEM lol. My medical terminology exam is in two sections - the 1st just anatomy, functions and pathological stuff. the 2nd pronunciation and spelling (its an oral and written section). I am going to be sooooo pissed if I get something wrong cause of those dashed textbooks lol.

Well weigh in for me today is NOT GOOD :censored: I am up a kilo :tantrum: How the heck that happened I have no idea. Well..... maybe I do. You see, at one stage I was jumping on scales everyday just to watch average so I could judge properly on weigh in day as we fluctuate. And if I saw creeping up I watched extra carefully what I ate. I havent done that in a couple of weeks because George visited and yes I have eaten crap. Not a lot of crap, just a bit, however obviously at the moment my body won't accept it. I guess I just have to resign myself to the fact that I can't have anything chocolate or chips EVER :kickcan: And I did sneak in 2 bacon and egg mcmuffins during the week. I know that I have to stop my hot chocolates. I usually have one when I go to town, and thats 3 times a week. I will limit myself to ONE from now on, and that will be a Saturday when I work the whole day. It is always on skinny milk though, as I can't stomach full cream.

better go and stop whinging. I have an assignment due TODAY and havent even started it. Just seems in the to hard basket at the moment. Oh well, I work great under pressure :hyper:

I weighed in at 77.5kg, which is a drop of 0.4kg :carrot:.

Lindor I am loving my new job. It's more physically demanding than I expected, but that isn't a bad thing. I just love going to work in an environment where there's no pressure, where I spend the day talking to customers, pushing myself physically… and then I get to come home and not even think about work.

Glad to see you posting in here by the way. Please don't leave us, because we all love your input and your insights. By the way I love your approach to your weight loss, and I really think it's going to work for you.

By the way - if you're coming to Perth for any of your work commitments, let's catch up for coffee and gossip :D.

Hey Vonni, I reckon that you'd do better to stay away from Maccas than to cut down on your hot chocolate. Maccas is full of sodium, and you'll retain heaps of fluid from eating that.

Julia are you feeling better?

Barb how are you travelling? Still enjoying your new plan?

Gen how are you going with your program? Flying that Aussie flag I hope :p

Amy! Kel! Come back!!!

This week I am working ALL evening shifts, so that's going to be a challenge. On Saturday and Sunday I work 11am-7pm, and that cuts across two meal times. Hmmm…

But if I can edge a little closer to 77kg, and keep on with my plan I will be satisfied. My Size 16 clothes are starting to get loose - but not yet loose enough for a drop to Size 14. Oh well - hopefully within the next 5kg I will reach that particular milestone.

Hope you all have a great week, and that we all reach our goals!

:)
Ani

Awesome result Ani :carrot::carrot::carrot: for you!

I fear I will be same as you Vonni but I'll be brave and will see what the scales say tonight :?:

I'd be very happy to have maintained over the past week.


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:carrot: Ani way to go. Damn I better start pedalling hehee everyone is losing and I am creeping up again. Maccas I have kissed goodbye.

As for 2 meal times at work if I were you I would eat a big breakfast, just take a sandwich for your break and eat dinner when you get home. Or a big brekky, dinner sized meal at yr break time, and something light when you get home. Thursday nights is bad for me, I start at 4 and finsh between 9.30 / 10. Too late to eat then, but only get a ten minute break to try and eat decent for dinner. grrrrr. I was just reading in my QNU bulletin about shift workers are heavier. great that leads me to thinking I better get this weight off FAST before I get qualified.

Vonni

Julia hope yr weigh in goes ok.

i am not here coz i have any kind of will power with regards to keeping off the computer no ser ree bob - i am not here coz my computer forgets to tellme when you guys post!!! i suck!!!!!!! AGAIN!!!

now i almost threw in the towel today, been trying and only OFFICIALLY lost 200grams - that sucks eggs

gen - how do i cook chicken breast in the microwave??

ani - how many people at bunnings dont have any product knowledge?? i am going to go back to work in a month or so so am trying to think of options... and have you tried on size 14 yet??? i think at 77kg you would be in that size at least in some things??

lindor - i was wondering if you had seen the ad on telly.... advertising.... new..... pringles..... that are low in fat??? sorry if you have and are pretending you didnt.......

julia - i am giving in..... i am joining the world of counting I HATE COUNTING, i got all my weight watchers books out....... here goes nothing

me - i suck eggs, i bought choc today, ate about 12 squares ho hum
getting rid of hardcore beefcake trainer after my holidays (he knows) and going with 2 sessions of Kate the more sensible trainer
getting my resume ready
going to town tomorrow for lunch with my mum
getting my house tidy slowly
am so confused as to what job i want to find - had found PERFECT job but it is gone - relay call centre to help deaf people communicate - perfect perfect perfect oh well

vonni - honestly why do you think you put on weight??? i am so sick of putting on weight or staying the same when i am trying.... it is so not fair that i feel the same as you as i think i must NEVER be able to eat anything exciting or outo f the ordinary without putting on weight

i am going to weigh myself tomorrow for the fun of it

Welcome back Kel, good to see you! I have one of those steamer things for the microwave, just whack the chicken on it and cook it until it looks okay, think it's about 3-4 mins. Depends how many, how powerful your microwave is. Just keep checking them every now and then.

Lots of recipes here:
http://www.cooks.com/rec/search/0,1-...breast,FF.html

Probably because I sit on my arse and dont drink water.

Kel I've got to say, I'm kinda glad to hear that you're going to try weight watchers and that you're not going to try the dreaded shakes again! I know that counting points is no fun but hey, it's a system that works and most importantly, it's a system that will allow you to eat whatever you want. I hope you can make it work for you :hug:

After my 2.5kg gain last week I had to admit to myself that I had stopped trying to lose weight and was just hoping that it would continue to come off without any effort on my part :dizzy: WRONG :nono: I didn't get fat by sitting on my arse and eating whatever I felt like and I didn't lose weight this time without hard work and sacrifice.

Yesterday was a perfect day for me and I'm planning another perfect day today. I hit the gym last night and did the first night of my new weights programme followed by 45 minutes of aerobics. Stuck to my points allowance and felt great.

I weighed in and am down 2kg from last week which leads me to think that I must have been bloated or something last week and that the weight I'd gained was perhaps not fat afterall. I feel like I've been given a big break so I'm looking forward to having a great week and staying on track for another loss next week.

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I weighed in today after a not so great weekend and have lost another 300g. Not spectacular but a loss is a loss. :) I'm still finding this programme really easy and enjoyable, its just when I have my free day I tend to go a little overboard and doing that tends to undo all the good that I've done during the week. Must learn self control!

HIya im still here hubby came home for his visit Sunday Night so i have been spending all my time with him.. Today however he has taken Cameron to his school sports day so me and Leah have some time to ourselves atm. Some quiet where we can relax without the noisy boys lol ..

Weight loss whats that ?? lol I started feeling crappy friday afternoon and spent most the week end in bed . LOL .. i did weigh myself once and saw that i had gained some weight .. so im not going near those evil scales till i get back on track lol .. I have the classic razor blade throat.. hooray.. Just in time for my hubby to come home lol. Of course i was sick last month when he came home too .. lol no luck at all.

I am exhausted all the time and not sleeping very well at night .. which then just makes me feel worse lol.. Today i cant talk ... lol . so hubby will be happy , i cant nag him now .. lol ..

food i have not been taking any notice of / or recording so i have no idea where im at but i do know i havent eaten much so i wont be over .at all but i bet i still gain .. lol .. and i wont get it off again until i can swollow again.. lol ..

anyway im gonna go and lay on the couch.. have fun girls lol .. congrats to those who have lost weight . it sounds like everyone is pretty happy atm which is always good . :)

ok bye ..

im back yeah i was gone for ages wasn't I lol..

Anyway i have something im actually happy about lol.

We still have my old Car ande its a 86 Meteor but its got rather short seat belts..in it. I had to try several car seats and booster seats for my kids becuase the stupid little belts couldnt get around them.. anyway .
I have had that car for 5 or 6 years maybe mopre .. and the whole time i have had it i have struggled to do the front seat belt up around me.. Even though i was lighter then i am now.. It has always been a wrestle.. lol

Well anyway this month i forgot to run the car and the battery went flat. I put it on chrge yesterday and decided to take it for a run around the block to see if the car still runs.. and guess what ??? I got the little seat belt on np and even had belt to spare.a good 4-5 inches of belt too. :) lmao.. i cant beleive it . I dont know how i can way more now and fit the belt when i was 15 kilos lighter and was struglleing.. bizaar hey.. but it goes to prove my body is getting smaller even though most the time i dont feel it or see it lol..

I have to admit i do find the whole weightloss thing very depressing at times.. and it doesnt take much for me to give up.. lol IM a quitter.. i always have been ... too hard quit.. lol so im doing my best to stick to something very important to me.. Getting healthy .. I dont think i have a goal weight really .. i just want to get thinner then i am now.. Setting a goal weight . i just feel like there is too far to go .. i think my next goal once i finally reach this one will be another 10 pounds.. at least that is something i can achieve eventually.. lol.

I wish losing weight was fast .. lol slow is sooo boring.. lol Slow is what makes us quit.... lol I am going 5to try and get away from my scale obsession.. I was telling myself i liked watching it.. but the minute it moves up i get really pissed. so Im gonna measur with a tape every friday like i do now.. and weight once a month.... lol yes once a month... im gonna go cold bloody turkey on the scales.. i have been weighing everyday from the begining.. and now.. cold turkey.. lol my last weigh in was the one wehere i had lost weight lol.. last week.. lol .. im not gonna go near them to find out what i have gained lol .. i feel bloated so i kinow ive gained.. and yes it probably is water but im not interested.. lol ..

Wish me luck.. i bet i break my own rule of no weighing ... lol ... hey ill get hubby to put them up somewhere high... lol im chicken when it comes to even chaging a light bulb.. if they atre put up ill leave them alone :) lol ..

ok cyas later

i thought my computer was stuffing up again telling me amy had posted, i was like well derrrr i already read her post grr stupid puter then i finally got in (does everyone's puter hate 3 fat chicks) and saw you had indeedy posted twice

if i can be cheeky - at least you are not a quitter about being a quitter at least you are sticking to your guns on that one and not quitting!! heheeh i crack me up

staying the same frustrates me, putting on is annoying but i am slowly SLOWLY but surely realising that ANI rocks and that so freaking slowly she has lost SO SO much weight and that six months ago she was so not talking about size 14 so she is going to be my weight loss guru for a while, and i need one, my new personal trainer at the gym is a freakin protien well freak and looks like you could pop him with a balloon and when i told him i almost didnt go yesterday he goes "well than you are not serious then are you" i felt like saying "f..K you i came didnt i" but i just humoured him ho hum

my cleaner just left and i just mopped my floor ho hum to that too

vonni this one is for you:
:swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::s wim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swi m::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim: :swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim::swim:water water water
water:yoga: (that you sitting on arse) :swim:
i have not been drinking water either - could that be the REAL secret and everything else just helps?? hmmm