ShanaRad,
I am glad that I found your post here. I was in the support forum and was going to post there when I saw the recommendation to post it in the success forum. I think you should feel pretty good about someone telling you to put your story in the Success area. You've earned it.
I understand where you are coming from. I haven't had to try to lose weight, but I have had to try to make changes in my life. I finally reached a few successes, but still worried about slipping. I just wanted to feel good and forget about worrying!
You made it, and that is something that thousands are still trying to do. Perhaps you could put together a regular schedule or work outs and eating plans. Write them down, and when you need to work out, work out. But don't worry about it before or after. Just look at your schedule, and when it says exercise, exercise. When it doesn't, don't think twice about it. Let the paper and ink worry for you.
You're doing such a good job, and you'll be able to keep it that way.
JGMotiv
http://www.motivation123.com