Please talk me into being a good person and not just getting up and walking out on my job. I am losing my bloody mind. I have been in tears every day at work this week. I'm not going to get my exercise tonight because I'm going to have to put in extra hours tonight to try to get caught up. They got all honked off at me for not being here last night from 6:30-8:00 for some Kindergarten thing they had. Well, had I found out sooner than 3 hours beforehand that they wanted me here, I would have come, but I had far too much to do. And... do I get overtime? Nope. I would be volunteering my time, but they expect me to be here.
I have applied and applied and applied and I just feel like I'm getting nowhere. I had a phone interview for one place last week and they had me fax them an application on Monday so they could do the background check, etc, but I haven't heard anything back. I haven't even had as much as a speeding ticket, so that should be fine. I think I'm going to call and see what I can find out on Monday. Surely they'd know something in a week, right?
I had a nervous breakdown before I started my laundry and dishes last night. I had just been online looking for jobs, and out of 6 websites, I only found 1 job to apply for. I applied for it, then had my nervous break down, then did dishes and started my laundry. While having my breakdown, I prayed and prayed (and cried and cried,) begging God to help me find something. He says he won't give us more than we can bear, but obviously when we're to the point that we're bawling our eyes out every day, we're getting close to that point.
When I got done with my dishes, I checked my email and already had a note back from the person I sent my resume to. He told me to get online and submit an application and that he looked forward to the interviewing process, so that's some good news, right? I just don't know if that was God giving me a little answer to my prayers, or if it was a coindicence. For those of you who pray, PLEASE throw out some extra ones for me because I'm really having a rough time. My husband thinks I'm suicidal, I'm sure, as much as I've been crying lately.
So yeah, things aren't good right now. I need to get back to work otherwise I'll be here all night tonight. Talk soon.
I need to vent a little for a sec...
I was at the gym last night brushing my hair in the big mirror after my workout. I looked to my left and there was this woman coming out of the shower in just a towel. Now I thought this was a little weird...but I let it go. Then she caught my eye again because she was putting on her bra and underwear, with all her 'business' just out there, in the main room of the locker room. We have like 10 or 12 dressing rooms exactly for that purpose. I know it was busy, and I consider myself pretty modest, but that is a little out there. I'm glad she has a postivie body image, but...am I wrong on this??
Anyway...
freaky - Have a good weekend with your son
mscrockett - good luck on that midterm!! :
mamahulk - way to go!! It's always good to have hope of getting off medication
usmchoney - when my brother was that age, he stuck on kinds of things up his nose. I think he liked going to the Dr. too. I hope she's okay. And I hope Keely will be okay as well.
sarah - I hope your tummy gets better. I *hate* having tummy issues
Pearshape ~~~ "D": is for diploma... That is exaclty what I made on the test,, she graded them as we finished, However, I explained to her that I know what I am doing, My homework shows that,, the word "TEST" makes the specific part of my brain I need run rampid!!! soooooooooooo On a good note she let me retake the test with she and I together and I worked each problem I got wrong infront of her and Made a 87%.Thank Goodness I have an understanding teacher,, I tell ya being 34 and going back to school, and Math has always been my down fall, I think It has been poor teaching not that I just dont get it.. but man all kinds of emotions when I have been in the work force for 16 yrs.. and no My life is school.. talk about Culture shock!!!!!!!!!!
I just cant figure out a way to get my mood better when it comes to testing,, is it a study failure,, or what,,????? any body go through this to? and if so ,, How do I overcome this...??????????????????
Weezle - You will definitely be in my prayers! The email you received does sound positive.
Annarenee - I guess different places are different but the Bally's I go to has only two dressing rooms. Most of us come out of the shower in our towels (especially since the dressing rooms are in the main locker room and not in the room with the showers) and I always dress in the main locker room rather than waiting for a dressing room. Many other also dress in the open while some other wait for a dressing room. I just normally don't make eye contact while I'm in less than my undies.
OMG<,, my mother made her famous home made spaghetti today,, I can so smell it... I am going to have to stay out side the rest of the day,, not craving it,, but the smell is gonna have me craving,,,, this is a hard one today..... 1st one,, and it is a biggy
Can you contribute some whole wheat spaghetti or a spaghetti squash that you can use with her sauce for you to eat? I would think the sauce should be safe.
barb~ No I dont have anything for me to go with it...... I am slowly adding carbs back in, and I have added Oatmeal, Rice, Apple and grapes so far,,, next week I will add something else......... this really sucks...!! as it is my FAVORITE MEAL.
Oh Weezle sweetie.....I'm sorry, but I understand & I've been there before. My first job out of college was an executive for Target (you know - the bulls eye.) It was in the worst part of the city (they nicknamed it the ghetto Target) It was AWFUL - I would work open to close, be constantly yelled out, constantly told I wasn't good enough - and then I had a friend that told me about the Gap. After 2 interviews I was in & my last 2 weeks at Target - sweet revenge. I would leave on time - what are they going to do to me - fire me? When she tell me things were my fault my response was "damn right - blame me while ya can!" My boss was such a wacko, she was disgustingly nice to my face, but when it was time for my good bye party - she threatened employees not to go - what a witch!
Anyway - chin up you will find a better job!!
I don't think mnay people come in here at night but just wanted to say Hello.
Weezle- Hang in there. That is so hard. What do you do?
I think the quick response via email is a great sign.
I hope I can have a long workout in the am, ate a little longer then I should have. Just kept picking. I am on call thsi weekend- hope it is not too busy. I am tired and already ahve alot of notes to do. Well hope you all have a good night, chat with you soon.
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way to go!! It's always good to have hope of getting off medication 
