Thanks y'all!
It's like my mom told me once -- the camera doesn't add 10 pounds, it just doesn't lie like our eyes do.
Y'all are right. The kids won't care, and I know my mom would love the pictures as well. And to be honest, I was telling my husband how disappointed I was in how I looked, and I LITERALLY had to draw a circle around my double chin/fat neck for him to even see it, so I'm probably being WAY harder on myself than anyone else is. As someone else said, I don't
feel quite
that fat! So it was a shock to me to see just how I truly look to other people.
I'm feeling better this morning. Still a little down, but not down enough to fall off the wagon (which is a HUGE step for me!)
And y'all are right -- in a few months, I'll be happy to have those pictures of me to show off all my hard work
I think I might follow your advice and post one of them on my fridge to remind me why I'm switching to a healthier lifestyle -- both to look better and to be there for my boys
And yes, the avatar is me from last night, and my husband took it with my setup
On the bright side, my husband has decided to join a gym (he gets a big discount because his brother works there or something -- not sure of the details), and he's agreed that when he gets home from the gym, he'll take the boys for an hour so that I can workout without having a three year old under my feet or a three month old wanting to be held
That will give me time to do both my 30 minutes on the treadmill (something I've had a hard time being able to do lately -- due to the aforementioned three year and three month old lol) as well as my pilates
I really appreciate your support
My skinny friends and my family just don't get it sometimes so it's hard to be able to talk about how I feel around them
Jess
) telling myself I looked so much better than. Talk about a slap in the face 
