New to 3FC!
Hi there... I am a long time 3FC lurker, and long time yo-yo dieter. Actually, I have never really gone on a "diet".... more like a yo-yo of deprivation and binging. I am a binge eater, with a family history of obesity and depression, combined with a slow metabolism! Ack!
It took me a loooong time to fully understand that I have an eating disorder, and while I have only told a few close friends, no one seems to believe me, since to most people, I don't fit the physical profile of someone with an eating disorder.. Apparently, since I look 'fine' I shouldn't struggle with food issues. It isn't that easy for me.
I am 5"4.5' tall, and was 150lbs in August. I don't own a scale, and I imagine that I am about 152-155lbs right now. I suppose my weight goal is 135lbs, although my main goal is to relearn how to eat healthy, and feel good in my clothes again. I have always been "chubby", "sturdy", etc... I had a severe bout of depression three years ago at which time I lost about 20lbs in two months. I don't want to lose that much weight, especially in that way, but I DO want to feel comfortable in my jeans again! I mostly want to change my mindset about food as fuel, rather than food as a salve or balm, and to not feel guilty for eating when my body needs to eat. Rationally, I know overeating/depravation only serves to make me feel worse, but I know my current perceptions about food aren't rational to begin with!!
So, I decided to try posting here, and possibly find and also offer the support needed. I have also decided to start the SBD on Monday, November 1st. I have the book, and have been reading it on/off for three months. I finally feel like I am ready to make a lifestyle and a mind change, and not live in guilt or deprive myself of food (and then 'make up' for it hours later)!
Sorry for the novel! I just thought I'd introduce myself....
(cross-posted on SBD forum)
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