[Ttal339]

Maybe I should try to accept the fact that I may never get healthy and down to an ideal weight. I blew another diet and I am just tired. I have been fighting this battle for nearly twenty years. What will make tomorrow different? I am now pre diabetic and I am working my way to diabetes but this food has its grip on me. This junk food runs my life. I obviously rather getting that rush feeling when I eat something sugary or bad than living a healthier lifestyle. I just do not know what to do. I know deep down I want to be healthy but food is the only thing that I enjoy besides hanging out with friends and family. It is my ultimate pleasure and it is going to kill me. Thanks for letting me vent everyone. Any advice would be appreciated.

[MonteCristo]

You don't have to "be" healthy, or "stick" to a diet. You just need to make one choice at a time.

[Texaslittlelady1]

You enjoy being around your family and friends then you need to be in the land of the living! That is why I am fighting so hard to be healthy. My fat sister is dead due being fat. She was the life of the party. I want to be here so the bad food has got to go! Do you want to have a greater chance at life? It is good to vent! Now what is next for you?

[EMERALDberry]

My bloodwork showed me pre-diabetic over 20 yrs ago. My doctor said, "get off the carbs". You don't necessarily have have to follow a diet, just start eating different snacks...instead of chips or sweets, eat pickles or a cheese stick. I find doing the WW plan easy if I already know what I am going to eat because I have everything I need on hand, therefore, I won't be sabotaging my plan. You CAN do this! Plan ahead. Best wishes!
Emmy

[lostbutstilltrying]

It is true you may never reach your goal weight, but you can certainly be healthier - the scale doesn't really equal health.

If you love to eat with friends, then eat. Look at your past successes AND failures - you are all ready very knowledgable about what works for you.

You can eat smarter choices and drink more water to cut down on the binges - but whatever you do, just hold yourself accountable for what you eat. You aren't blowing your diet or starting tomorrow, life is happening now and it's ongoing no matter what choices you make.

You know you're gonna have a 4000 calorie blowout? well, get out there and work it off before and after. After awhile it will be less tempting. Eat to much? Let go of the self hate (you wouldn't talk to someone else like that) and go on.

And for the record - I think your weight is great - I would love to be where you are.

[SweetEpiphany]

Originally Posted by Ttal339

Maybe I should try to accept the fact that I may never get healthy and down to an ideal weight. I blew another diet and I am just tired. I have been fighting this battle for nearly twenty years. What will make tomorrow different? I am now pre diabetic and I am working my way to diabetes but this food has its grip on me. This junk food runs my life. I obviously rather getting that rush feeling when I eat something sugary or bad than living a healthier lifestyle. I just do not know what to do. I know deep down I want to be healthy but food is the only thing that I enjoy besides hanging out with friends and family. It is my ultimate pleasure and it is going to kill me. Thanks for letting me vent everyone. Any advice would be appreciated.

TTal339, you don't have to accept anything in life that is not serving you well. You sound like you are struggling with food addiction. My suggestion would be to get into therapy if you feel like your relationship with food is unhealthy. If food is one of the few things giving you pleasure, then somewhere along the road in your life you forgot how to get pleasure from other things. You might have some type of low grade depression going on that is preventing you from overcoming your crutch of food addiction. People always say that our thoughts control our actions, so maybe therapy can help you clean up your inner thoughts so that you can be in the mental state to lose the weight.

Some months ago, I was also told that my A1c was in the prediabetic range at 5.8. That scared the **** out of me and I made some small changes, then I backslid, but then I got back on track. After I changed my eating habits and lost a few pounds, my A1c went down to 5.7. I'm still prediabetic, but very close to falling back into the normal range. You can do it too.

Maybe a professional can help you focus on one thing that you care about more than food. When I feel a craving coming on, I think to myself that I don't want diabetes and I visualize that whatever the sweet thing is, it's really a needle of insulin. I'm sure that sounds crazy, but I'm trying to do whatever it takes to change my thoughts. You can do this, but you just need the support. Don't give up