Sadness due to my increase in weight.
During my time in college, I ate very poorly, drank a bit too much, and went from 135 pounds and size 30 jeans, all the way to 160 pounds and size 34 jeans. Every time I look at my beer belly, and how my chest has some what fat (boobs) I get very depress and feel like a hallow version of myself. I just get angry and upset every time I shower and see my stomach and how it has grown, and how my chest has grown. At times I just do not want to get out of bed. I do not want to be super skinny but atleast around 130-140 pounds again and mainly lose my beer belly out of everything. It be nice to be a size 32 jean too, I do not feel I was at a healthy stage being my age and still a size 30, I would fee much comfortable and happier at that size. I feel my goals are realistic but still feel like no matter how hard I try I wont get there which makes me even more depress.
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