Hi there!
I'm Pigeon, 34/female. I used to read this forum years ago when I was losing weight, and found it very motivating, but never joined.
Long story short - after losing 20kg, I slipped back to my old habits and gained 30. My BMI went up to well over 32. For a long time I thought I didn't care anymore, that I should just accept my body as it was. And I have nothing against that sort of thinking, I believe in health at every size, but sometime ago I started a new hobby I found incredibly rewarding and soothing and soon realized my weight was holding me back, so I figured I might just try again, and this time, not repeat the past mistakes.
I have been on psych meds for years, and the last medication gave me insane sugar cravings that must have also fuelled the rapid weight gain. Now I am on new meds and in addition to vastly improved mood, my cravings are pretty much gone. I have bit by bit honed my diet, recording what I have eaten in a day every now and then and gone through the numbers to make out where the energy comes from. I will not go hungry, but I eat a lot of veggies, beans, whole grain rye, things like that. Last time I lost weight I was running meticulously, but the truth is that I always _hated_ running, so now I have taken up nordic walking and I am really enjoying it. I don't own a scale yet (I'm in the process of getting one), but in the last month and a half I have lost about 7cm from my waist.
I hit a minor plateau recently, but got past it by noting that in addition to lost centimetres, there are other changes - my skin looks great, and my blood pressure has gone down by several notches (there's blood pressure and heart problems running on both sides of my family). I don't have much money, so I have been able to buy some nice things with the money that would before gone to ice cream. So even when the weight is not going down, I'm still reaping the benefits of this new, healthier life style.
My goal weight is under 60 kg (around 130 pounds). I think it might be quite achievable, as I am quite short and small framed. As I am in my mid-30s, I'm also thinking about aging. I don't care about "looking good" that much anymore, I am quite happy with my imperfect looks are they are, but I hope that by leading a healthier lifestyle I can add to the years I can be actively moving about. I want to add to the chances that when I'm an old lady, I can still play with children and move about in nature. I want to add to the chances that I can still go and see my favourite sceneries when I'm in my 80s.
Whoa, that became long! Sorry! Strawberries to anyone who read it all! But yes now I decided to join the forum for motivation, knowledge and support.
Cheers!