[MrsMichael]

...but right now, I'm terrified!!!!

Hello. I'm Mrs Michael, I'm 230lbs and exhausted at feeling unhealthy, unconfident and unhappy. I'm one of those people who sits at home watching Biggest Loser whilst scoffing back tubs of ice cream, browsing online at dresses 5 sizes too small, pretending they've got control of their eating and then discovering their clothes no longer fit. I'm one of those people who pretend to the outside world that everything is fine and then spend the entire weekend locked away binge eating. I'm one of those people who won't see friends or attend parties because they feel so ashamed about their size. I'm one of those people who know of every diet under the sun but live exclusively off beige, fatty foods.

My health is spiralling out of control. The back pain is starting to affect my mobility, I've been to hospital 3 times for heart trouble and I become heavy winded during even the lightest of exercise. Every morning when I roll over to get out of bed and feel the SLAP of my stomach as it flops over, my heart sinks and I think "how did i get here? How do I stop this?"

I've been lurking on 3FC for a few months now and have so far managed to lose 20lbs. I'm hoping that by signing up and becoming an active member of this fantastic, supportive community it will help me on my journey down to 150. I feel scared but excited!

Thank you for taking the time to read this. It's much appreciated! x

[penmage]

Welcome!

[flashfacts]

::Gives you a giant hug::

Welcome and congrats on losing 20 lbs already!

[Jennifer1966]

Welcome! Congrats on the 20 pounds. You can do it!

[Mozzy]

Welcome and good luck on your journey!!!

[phinny99]

Good luck to you! It sounds like you're on your way!

[graciaincito]

This really kind of hit home for me. I was one of those people too. I lost alot of friends, even kind of became a bit of a recluse because of my weight and the lack of confidence that comes with it.
I haven't had heart trouble, but this past January(a year ago) I had a pulmonary embolism, which, I've come to realize, I was lucky to have survived. So I can understand its not always easy to take that first step and start dieting. You've done great so far and I wish you all the best and further success along your journey!

[ImImportant]

Congratulations on your 20 pound loss. I love this site. The people here have really helped me to stay on track.

[the shiv]

Welcome, and congrats on the 20lb loss!

I can't speak highly enough of this forum. Whatever I'm going through, someone has been there, someone understands it! I have yet to find a weight loss experience that nobody understands on here, I hope you get on great and wish you continued success *hugs*

[deepbreath]

Welcome! I'm new around these parts as well, and I DO absolutely think that the fact that you signed up and are getting active on the board means you are taking control. Something I always tell myself is "Success is not permanent, failure is not fatal." yes we have to keep on striving on this journey, BUT little slip-ups or bad days does not sink us forever. I wish you all of the best!

[countingmylosses]

Welcome! And congrats on the weight loss! I hope you reach all your goals!

[cadiza]

I'm new too! 20 lbs is alot!! be sure to give yourself credit for that. Good luck and i'll see you are the boards!