[UnderTheMoon]

I, with advice from many people here, decided to maintain the last couple weeks while I did all my finals, had all my performances, and graduated. I did not pay much attention to diet at all, the only exercise I had was from the shows. My theater family and I went out a lot; Applebee's, bars, lounges, etc. We partied. The show was a success and we all had so much fun together. I had everyone constantly buying me drinks, and food, etc as a congratulations on my graduation, congratulations on making it through another semester, etc. I LOVE my theater family, and I had the BEST TIME! AND I am a graduate, I walked that stage proud of my accomplishments!

AND I SURPRISINGLY DIDNT GAIN A POUND!!! WOW! Im glad, and I did watch myself (sort of). I tried for healthier stuff over fried stuff (No easy task when your out). But the alcohol! OH MY!

But would I trade all of that celebrating for the world, never. It is a beautiful memory that I will cherish, all of it.

But, I am sad that two and a half weeks have gone by and I havent LOST a pound. I was doing so well and I am so proud of that, then I paused and its the pause and the loss of time that I am sad about. I love stepping on the scale every week and losing weight!!! I spend over 2 weeks ignoring my scale and I dont like that!!!

Its summer break, and my schedule went from so full that I could die to OPEN, and it happens so suddenly that I think I get the blues So all I think about is weight weight weight.

Am I back on my diet? YEP!!! And im relieved and happy (who would have thought?) I work all weekend, so going to the gym starts up Monday. I feel guilty not going though... I hate that too. Im going anyway though! So, I know soon enough time will fix how I feel, I just hate the feeling. I dont know exactly what Im trying to say. FRUSTRATED!!!

[nataliegm]

I think that given everything you said you were doing over the past two weeks you should feel amazing. You didn't give into emotional eating when you were stressed (i would have) and you kept in mind what you needed to eat and what not to eat. You should also feel really blessed at the relieved feeling to be back on your diet. I can understand the thinking about how you could have lost some weight over the past two weeks but I think you did a great thing

[UnderTheMoon]

I do feel relieved I am back on my diet! Who would have thought being on a diet makes you feel this way?!

Thanks I just dont feel satisfied, I feel like im lacking and Im not completely sure why, or what I must be missing?

[LeilaJey]

Ha, I know the feeling! I think the numbers going down can be quite addictive and we learn to expect them. You did a great job not gaining anything so now that you're back on plan I'm sure the weight will fall off again

[dstalksalot]

It sounds to me like you might just be a little blue after ending your performances and graduating. I have had separation anxiety from shows that I love and had mixed emotions after recitals..when you throw in the diet expectations and weight loss no suprise you feel the way you do. give it a couple of week and you will feel better.

[pixelllate]

Because we are our own worst critic! I find myself disappointed with a "small loss" but any loss or not gaining is an accomplishment! Sometimes our emotions don't correlate with our logic no matter how much we reason with ourselves.

[DaugT]

Hugs UndertheMoon and congrats on all you have accomplished!!!!

Not gaining in that circumstance is absolutely amazing and a wonderful thing to have kept control of!!!
Definitely be proud of yourself, for it all!!

That all said, putting myself in your shoes, I know I would feel the same way. Something about when you are on that mission to lose lose lose, and then like you said, time goes by and you don't.... it just feels like a waste... like I could've been that much further along by now if I had last over that time period. So I get it for sure.
And on top of that you were go go go and then came to a screeching halt so you have time to think back on it now, which probably makes the feelings amplified.

After the next time you get on the scale and see it moving again hopefully it passes and then onward from here.
As you said, you have made memories over the last couple of weeks that will last a lifetime. And as the weight comes off that 2 weeks off won't seem as big of a deal as it does now.

[freelancemomma]

As far as I'm concerned, maintaining during festive times is more of an accomplishment than losing during "normal" times. You have every reason to pat yourself on the back!

F.

[UnderTheMoon]

Your all amazing Thanks so much for the support and understanding, its what gets me through it all. Im having trouble readjusting to summer, Im not busy anymore and what do I like to do when im not busy? munch on stuff and be lazy, and most of all I like to think and when I think I dwell on things I cannot change instead of working on what I can.

I can figure it out, I dont know how yet, but I can and I will

I have goals, and I am not going to give up on them! I think I need to find another challenge, I feel like those keep me on track