[surfergirl2]

It's the TOM so hopefully that's why...but i've been binging for the last three days...which is not normal...usually i binge one day and i get right back on track. Right now i'm at work and had a mini-binge for lunch...actually went to the vending machine for cookies which i NEVER do...and kinda want to go home and binge after work. I read some people's stories here and i really have NO excuses...i have no stress in my life, nothing is falling apart, but at the same time, it feels like EVERYTHING is. Really, everything is going great except that i went for a long run yesterday and now my knee is in so much pain that i can barely walk. Big deal...i just pushed it too hard...not that big a deal. But really i just feel depressed and want to eat more. Nothing motivates me at all right now. I almost want to take the rest of the day off work and call it a mental health day...but what i'll probably end up doing is just binging.

There are other reasons that i'm depressed but nothing new...such as...no dates and pretty lonely. But when i'm doing well on my diet and exercising, i feel good about that...i don't need a guy. But right now i just feel soooo fat and it depressed me because i feel like i'm not NOT dating out of choice, but because no one would want me right now.

I can't even articulate why i'm depressed, it seems. And my problems totally pale in comparison to the stuff other people here deal with..being much more overweight, having kids, having abusive spouses...i have none of that...and yet i can't seem to stop stuffing my mouth!!

[VermontMom]

aw...sorry you're feeling that way..all I can say is some days are like that!! It does sometimes help to 'count your blessings' and you obviously know that..sometimes we just feel that way and you've got to ride it through. Try not to do 'too much damage' with any bingeing that you will regret tomorrow. When I feel this way, I log on here and read through dozens of pages of posts..that helps me some

[LockItUp]

Other people's problems don't negate your own, it's ok to feel down if that's how you feel. I think the trick is to try to figure out something other than food to make yourself feel better. I do think it's probably TOM related, I know Saturday I was a basketcase, cried and cried and cried over stuff that I would normally shrug off, that night TOM came. "AH HA" I exclaimed, it was TOM all along. Luckily I avoided binging, I think just allowing myself to cry helped that, I typically tell myself "Self, suck it up you big baby", but this time I just let it all out and I felt better the next day.

Let yourself feel however you feel! Ya sure, people have it worse, of course, doesn't mean you aren't allowed to feel down about your own stuff. Just figure out how to console yourself without food, and if you can't you can't, try again next time.

[surfergirl2]

Thanks for making me feel normal!! That really helps. It's almost like my life is so easy, i don't even know what to do to make myself feel better, because i already have it so good. I mean for example, i could take half the day off work to "de-stress" and lay around at home, or whatever...but i'm already so un-stressed that that would be meaningless!! It's like the only thing i CAN think of to make myself feel better is FOOD.

[Alyj89]

its ToM for me too right now and I feel exactly the same way. I haven't binged but I was a total mess yesterday. I ended up crying myself to sleep because I felt so sad that I didn't exersize. and then i felt really worthless over that. my fiancé had to deal with my rough night and I kept him up even though he had school. ToM also made me gain back all the weight I had lost and all the inches !!! I know that's what it is and it was just bloating but gods that didn't help my weird mood yesterday !

when I woke up this morning (well... I slept until 4pm because I was up so late crying :s ) I felt better and my weight weight was back down. I couldn't tell myself this last night but I'm doing fantastic and it's just my hormones raging out of control.

I didn't binge hut I was having intense craving for things - it ended up at chocolate so I ate a sugar free fudge pop and it was withing my calories so it was manable. this might sound very silly but ever since I was a little girl I told mysel something when I got hurt so I wouldn't cry so much. I would think "pain is just a feeling." and it would always seem to take the edge off and let me deal with it - falling, stopping my toe real hard, getting a scraped knee etc. I still do it to this day and I do it when I'm stretching and it honestly helps me keep my positions. I altered the saying a bit last week to, "hunger is just a feeling." and if I was at my max for the day or already had my snack and couldn't afford another one, I will think this. And like I thought it helps me to ignore. I don't expect this to help anyone else but maybe it will!

[stoogeswoman]

Hi - I feel for you, especially the knee part. 3 weeks ago I twisted my knee at the gym and am still struggling with the pain.

I'm telling this to myself as well as to you - hang in there! It may take a while before it gets back to normal so be patient - and be good to yourself!

[surfergirl2]

Thanks everyone. I'm feeling a bit more like my old self today. Not without gaining 5 pounds of bloat though. My knee still hurts but at least i went swimming this morning. I guess i was just really depressed because even when i've been really bad with diet (which is often), i've always kept up with exercise. And when i couldn't exercise the last two days AND all i wanted to do was binge, i felt like i was headed toward a really bad place.

My attitude sucks. Toward life in general. I am feeling down because i emailed a friend with a question about something, and he hasn't answered in 2 days. I let stupid stuff like that get me down. I'm going to try to be just a LITTLE more positive today.

Also i'm going to try to eat light today. Seeing the scale at 159 this morning did NOT help my spirits (though i did feel a lot better after swimming). I know it's mostly water weight and i just need to eat light so my body can shed the water weight.