It's the TOM so hopefully that's why...but i've been binging for the last three days...which is not normal...usually i binge one day and i get right back on track. Right now i'm at work and had a mini-binge for lunch...actually went to the vending machine for cookies which i NEVER do...and kinda want to go home and binge after work. I read some people's stories here and i really have NO excuses...i have no stress in my life, nothing is falling apart, but at the same time, it feels like EVERYTHING is. Really, everything is going great except that i went for a long run yesterday and now my knee is in so much pain that i can barely walk. Big deal...i just pushed it too hard...not that big a deal. But really i just feel depressed and want to eat more. Nothing motivates me at all right now. I almost want to take the rest of the day off work and call it a mental health day...but what i'll probably end up doing is just binging.
There are other reasons that i'm depressed but nothing new...such as...no dates and pretty lonely. But when i'm doing well on my diet and exercising, i feel good about that...i don't need a guy. But right now i just feel soooo fat and it depressed me because i feel like i'm not NOT dating out of choice, but because no one would want me right now.
I can't even articulate why i'm depressed, it seems. And my problems totally pale in comparison to the stuff other people here deal with..being much more overweight, having kids, having abusive spouses...i have none of that...and yet i can't seem to stop stuffing my mouth!!



