[mariamherrera]

I had sort of a rough day - started out with me be being majorly late for work.. I don't know why but it stressed me out because I hate being late and just set a bad tone for the day.. I ended up driving through McD's which I haven't done in over a month... I didn't totally pig out but I did get two breakfast sandwiches- which afterwards I felt like a total piggy for... I still was with in calorie range but I felt like I could have spent my calories a little better than on McDonald's and I'm mad at myself for falling into a bad old habit just randomly driving through with out thinking about it first..Then at training today I started doing some new upper body exercises mostly with my arms and pecks and I am SO Weak and I just felt like a failure because I couldn't lift much or do many reps..I know it was my first time doing these particular exercises so I'm probably just being hard on myself but still....on top of that He (my trainer)had me stand in front of a mirror to watch my form better so I could see myself.. and what I saw was this big fat blog staring at herself looking totally out of place exercising..I mean I see myself in the mirror every day I KNOW how big I am but sometimes it's that one picture or looking at your reflection in a different mirror, or seeing yourself on video and you then you see the REAL you the person that every one else probably sees... anyways it was looking at myself in this big wall of mirrors watching myself lift weights that was sort of my :O "oh my god how did I ever let myself get this bad moment".. I almost started panicking and thinking things like I just get surgery or start drastically cutting my calories even more, cutting out all carbs.. etc.. what ever I can do to get this weight off as quickly as possible.. even though I know logically that , that is not the right way to do this to make it a habit and lifestyle change and keep off for life.. anyways I'm done with my pity party I think But I just needed to vent! sorry this was long!

[4star]

I've had days like that and still do sometimes. Just chalk it up to a bad day. But congratulate yourself for your perseverence, you stayed within calorie range and did your work out. Not too shabby for a bad day!

Ya know, I really waver between being happy with my progress and overwhelmed by how far I still need to go but things happen like finding a new muscle poking through or seeing the tape measure go down and I know I am getting where I want to be. Reassuring myself that I am not going back, I am going forward, sometimes helps. When I look at where I've been, with all of the medical issues I've overcome and how happy my doc is, I almost get proud of myself. My body functions better and with a lot less pain than it used to! Yay Me! It's hard on your bad days to see the big picture but I think it's important in times like this to zoom out to that big picture so you can be proud of what you've accomplished.

You still ate within range and did your workout. Those are new healthy habits that are replacing the old ones! Yay for you!

[mariamherrera]

Thank you! It's so nice to know others are on the same journey and feel the same way I do. And you are right about the the little things they make me feel so much more accomplished and know that I'm heading and pacing myself in the right direction... I didn't get where I was over night I'm not going to get where I want to be overnight either, I figure it took me 29 years of abuse and neglect to my body to get it as out of shape as it was even if it takes me a year or two that's not so bad in the long run.

[4star]

It's takes time and that's frustrating but don't worry about where you are today, think about where you'd like to be in one month or one year. It helped me to set my goal to be healthier and stronger in a year's time, I was. Now I am going on 2 years and I hope to be at goal by then, if not, I will keep working at it. I have to work around an arthritic body that has had several surgeries and injuries so I know I have to work hard but be careful. I can manage it. Not running any marathons but I can still be in great shape, eventually.

[rachaelm]

I am glad you vented. I hope you are feeling better, and have stopped beating yourself up for a bad food choice.

Hey, it was one bad food choice. As opposed to the years of bad food choices that took place before you started working your plan. And darn it, you didn't even go over your daily calories. Let go of the guilt. To me, that is the beauty of calorie counting. There are no forbidden foods on my plan.

[mariamherrera]

thank you all! I am feeling so much better about my bad food choice and falling into a my bad habit! I weighed in to day and I actually lost some weight since it happened! life is good again! lol

[4star]

I love your siggy pic BTW, very romantic.

[mariamherrera]

Originally Posted by 4star

I love your siggy pic BTW, very romantic.

awww thanks!!! I love it too! we took that on our 5 year anniversary cruise two years ago! they have fantastic photographers on those cruises!

[panshrmu]

vent.....vent....vent.....it is awesome that we can come here and others know what we feel.

Last week I had a rough time as my TOM was approaching, which means migraines and out of commission for like 2 days....felt bad for not exercising and not eating right. Then kicked myself for not sticking with it.

THEN my exercise videos came in the mail...major hint!LOL! So, I just got back on track, that is all we can do. I think it is so hard for women to stay on track cause PMS and TOM bloating and attitudes mess us up

I have my dad's side of the family big butt genes!! seriously, I just wonder if I can ever get rid of this humungous thing!!! it is hard at times just working hard and then seeing my self in the mirror....quite depressing at times.....but I am going for the health factor, if looking good comes into it, hey, a major benefit right but health is the main thing.

Hang in there and VENT whenever you want!

[Lee NZ]

Maria I just wanted to thank you for venting

I admire that you got back on track instead of allowing the hiccup to lead to days..weeks...months of being off track (does that make it sound like that's something I am familiar with? LOL!)

I am learning that "climbing back on" as quickly as you can is the key. So thank you for your post and I wish you every success!!

Lee

[peachypeg]

Originally Posted by mariamherrera

awww thanks!!! I love it too! we took that on our 5 year anniversary cruise two years ago! they have fantastic photographers on those cruises!

me too!!!! such a sweet picture.

[4star]

Originally Posted by peachypeg

me too!!!! such a sweet picture.

That's one of those cherished pics that really capture a beautiful moment. I just love those!