Determined to lose 100 pounds and a bunch of bad habits. No more self sabotage!
I was going to write out the story of how I got to be 265 pounds, but then I realized that I probably don't need to. Overweight people often have some of their story in common, and mine is probably fairly typical. Childhood criticism, unhealthy emotional dependence on food, slow but steady weight gain, insecurity and denial, etc.
About a year and a half ago, I made my first real attempt to lose weight. And, to my amazement, it worked. I lost 45 pounds in 6 months and if I had just kept doing exactly what I was doing, I would have been at my goal weight by now. But I didn't. I got lazy, I got sidetracked, and that got me right back where I started. I'm so frustrated for myself for abandoning my success, for sabotaging myself. I knew I needed to get back to work, and after months of promising myself I would start "soon" I am finally doing it.
I just turned 30 and I'm in the middle of changing careers. I'm lucky enough to have a membership at a gym I like, and I have access to healthy food and there are supportive people in my life. I have no excuses, and I just need to get to work.
I know that the last time I lost weight, having a supportive weight loss community was key to my success. My old forum haunt has been taken over by new moderators who are taking the site in a terrible fad-diet direction, so I'm hoping to find a new home here.
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