[KeenJoy]

So I used to be able to say at my fittest "I used to weigh 200 pounds, NEVER AGAIN!" and laugh.

But then I got hurt and now I am depressed and needless to say, I am back at 200 pounds.

I started trying to exercise more, and eat less back in August of last year. But I would only loose 2 pounds after working my a$$ off at the gym and eating low fat at home. Then my dad died and I got really depressed and when I weighed myself at the doctor and they said I weighed 200 pounds I started to cry.

All the predisone for being sick, the anti-seizure medication, the ER trips for my father and for myself... I looked at myself in the mirror and hated what I looked like.

So I did a lot of thinking and decided that I probably could eat even better, and that maybe I wasn't doing the right kind of exercising.

I talked to my nutritionist and she told me if I was working out that much that I should have been eating 1200 calories a day instead I was eating around 900.

She told me to start tracking my eating online, and my weight training and exercise.

I was doing great up until I realized my thighs now are chafing, and for some reason despite having a great workout today and eating good, I feel like crap.

So my friend again said "You need to go online to other people who struggle with weight, you are not the only one."

So here I am and I will try to be regular.

KJ

[Lovely]

Glad to have you join us

Yep. We all know what it's like to need to lose weight. There are ups and downs along the way, but it's worth it.

Look around. Post where you're comfortable. You can do this.

[theox]

Welcome! I hope to see you around the boards.

[KeenJoy]

Thank you for the welcome. I am hoping to get a "penpal" who has the same height, and weight loss goals as me. I have special needs because I have a spinal cord injury (but am ambulatory) I had a terrible weekend and am trying to fight feeling depressed. Not having a job and being broker than broke is adding fuel to the self hatred fire. But the good thing is I KNOW being active makes me feel better, I LIKE low fat foods (I was vegan and vegetarian for 15 years) and I know how to cook (dad was a Sous Chef)

Just need to stay positive.

KJ

[Liliann]

Good luck with your efforts!!