Oh man,
I haven't posted for a while about my binge eating. I almost felt like if I didn't think about it, it would go away, but who was I kidding? Well, for the last 3 days, I've been eating as if I was going into hibernation for the winter.
The trigger?
A combo of sleep deprivation and feeling sorry for myself. You see, I have chronic daily migraines. I also have a child with special needs and the stress of that has probably given me my migraine problem. Now, to make matters worse (I didn't think that was possible), I have now discovered that I have Vertigo. Yep. I had a major episode where I completely lost balance and was very sick and that happened about a week before Thanksgiving and I have never fully recovered. I feel like I'm almost always on a boat in rough waters. It really is terrible. I try to workout but it's no fun, as you can imagine (as if it's fun anyways
).
I have this weird psychological problem where when I feel sick, I feel that eating will make me better. This isn't true, of course, but I can't stop feeling this way. So, when I'm sick and when I'm stressed I want to eat. Usually it's from low grade stress/anxiety where I feel like the problem might never go away.
Fellow listmates, I would really appreciate any words of wisdom. I'm going to try SO hard to stay on track tomorrow. I feel like if I can have one good day, I can have another and another. I"m going to try not to hate myself. The problem is that since I hate SO MUCH, I will wake up with a food hangover and feel very sick. It's really horrible.
Thanks so much for reading this and for your support.
Three days of crazy bingeing...must stop
