I know how you feel , me 2 i was in a good place and ready to beat the bulge. then wooshhh 2stone piled on. I lost focus , fell in love , and just had a good time eating out , more feel good naughty food, holidays , alcohol etc etc. Ive been with my BF coming up 2 years and it sorta crept up on me that neither of us really noticed. UNTILL a few of my dresses i was wearing when we first got together , hang snuggly on my gut or just dont fasten anymore
The feeling is like noting before as then i realised , im not actually as attractive as i was when we 1st got 2 gether

(thats what i think anyway)
wasnt untill i started trying 2 lose weight that i realised , how much id actually put on, as exercise became sooo much harder. Ive pondered losing 5lbs n putting it on since November , joined slimming world and was waste of money , my mind set just diddnt seem with it.
1st May this year something jus clicked and i actually felt like now i really have to do something , and so far i have lost 10lbs i need 2 lose so much more but it the most ive lost in a long time and that motivates me seeing results on the scales. Exercise is getting better.
My advice would be keep going and get with it, your mind will take you further as my BF says. Focus on a aim and keep it. We all fall of the wagon sometimes and all deserve a treat..............everything in moderation i say
Good luck xxx