So I get on the scale this morning and it's 275, so I took my weight again and again and again because there was just no way this could be right. I then precede to my closet and start pulling clothes out left and right, I'm going to prove that the scale is wrong by the clothes that still don't fit. Well, figs to me because they did. I got my 28 shorts on and zipped, I still won't wear them for another 10 pounds or so, but I could breathe and bend.
And then it hits me, 25-35 pounds from now I'll be able to fit into 50% of my closet and instead of jumping for joy, I'm standing there like a deer in headlights. This can't be true, I'm waiting for the roof of my house to split open and for aliens to beam me up to an alternate universe because this can not be happening. It's almost as if I'm shocked this is unfolding, even though it shouldn't, I exercise my butt off and have embraced a loving attitude towards food, so why I am freaking out and waiting for the other shoe to drop.
For those of you who've already been there, how do you begin to accept the accomplishments with the same grace as the struggle?
I've been in this position lol when I lost weight, I could fit into an 18 and I was like "Naah. Its just a big pair!" And even at 300, I can still fit into an 18 in some things.
Realization that you are losin like a bandit will hit you and you will be jumping for joy! WAY TO GO!
That is great! Just keep sticking to it and remind yourself of your goals and achievements and it will start to feel more real. I can completely relate as I bought a pair of 16-18 pants today and was shocked, it was all i could do not to jump up and down in the store.
Enjoy reaching that goal! Onwards and down from here! Congrats!
sweetcakes736 - That's awesome congrats!!! It just keeps getting better too. I was 250+ my entire adult life. I don't even remember being anything smaller then a 14... and the other day I managed to get into a roomier size 10. WHAT? T-E-N. Is that even possible?
Like heather said you have to want to pinch yourself.
Just keep up the hard work and good things will keep happening!
Thanks everyone for such great support! To think I could be in the 260's by next month is just so exciting and scary. Every fall, I work in with Rainlady's high school band, this fall will be our last year, my girls graduate in the spring of 2011 and to think I will be about 75 pounds thinner than the same time last year is astonishing. Now that I've made it a daily part of my life, I can't believe how fast the time passes. I'm already 146 days in and it only seems like yesterday that I started.
Why was this so hard before? Now it seems so silly. I know this isn't everyone's feelings but for me-exercise feels GOOD!! Yoga leaves me feeling light and refreshed.
I'm actually looking forward to the next few months and the thought I could have 100 pounds off by Christmas is remarkable. I believe being here works wonders, you all are my courage, my dedication, my commitment, and my friends.
I am truly blessed.
I have lost a little over a hundred lbs. and I still go straight for the extra large sizes. I'm now a size 14 tall, and I still go straight for a size 22.
I was actually trying on dresses yesterday for a wedding. and I was grabbing from the rack at ross, and my friend Sarah says "Jessykah, thats an 18!" I really dont know if its like this to everyone, but for me its like something that I wanted is actually happening, but my mind refuses to register my body as being what it is. I got used to being in my chubbagub shell, and now its no longer there, and i'm in denial about it. the only thing that has helped me is to bring a friend shopping with me. they stop me from buying baggy clothes by telling me to try it on first or something like that.
Ok, now it's my turn-I need a push!!
