The General Goes to War
Hello... let me tell you where I'm at....
I have been here before. Two years ago. I was 163 lbs, 5'7", and I felt awful. I love food. In fact, it's what keeps me happy. It is what I travel for, what I learn for.
After having to buy clothes 1 size larger, I decided to go on a diet. I ate 1200 cal/day for 6 mos, then 1400 cal/day for another six mos. (I did not feel faint. I know 1200 cal/day seems like very little but I function fine on it. I am quite the sloth.) I lost 25 lbs and weight 139 at my lowest (I don't remember ever weighing that much beforehand... I was 145lbs in 7th grade. That was the first time I remember thinking about my weight.)
After that, I made the mistake of thinking once you reached your goal, you could do whatever you wanted.
Eventually, the years went by, the summers came, the holidays came, and my baking skills got better and better.
My friends recommend P90X, so I began working out with Tony Horton. Mistakenly I thought the P90X claim of building muscle wouldn't be the case for me and it would help me lose weight. After 45 days of working out, my thighs were as big as a horses, I was 200% more flexible, I had a lot of confidence in my abilities, but I didn't like the way I looked. I also got tired with watching a DVD and repeating exercises every week. It was difficult to motivate myself.
Now, I am back at the 160s and I would like to be 145 again.
I think I look good. The weight doesn't look bad on me. I'm a bit curvier, but in no way do I think of myself as 'fat.' I just feel better at a lower weight, and I don't want to buy a whole new wardrobe just to cater to my unhealthy habits. It's a waste of money and effort. And it can lead to worse things if I gave in that easily.
So tomorrow, on the first day of my last year of college, I will begin eating 1200 cal/day again, and will consider upping the calories based on how I feel.
If I can go through 6 years of giving up my life for my profession, I can give by X calories a day for my body.
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