I have been doing well but I feel trouble brewing. I usually get here and fall apart. I'm doing well and them "IT" happens. Subconsciously, I will start feeling like I can slack up on being so intense and then BOOM I self destruct, quit and it all goes to pot. I tried to explain to my husband where I am and he didn't understand and couldn't help me. I was telling this is what happens. I get in a groove and then this feeling comes and because I don't know how to handle it I fall off and gain all the weight back plus some. This is the smallest I've been but I know I have to push past it. When I started back in January I told him this happens and I seem to talk to the wrong people because no one understands and I have a hard time moving forward. I knew I was in trouble last night because when I had my evening snack I had about 200 calories or so and I ate a 100 calorie bag of popcorn, then I went back and got some rice crackers that are about 130. I wanted more than I had. I had the thought that I can go back in there and get a couple more. But somewhere in my head I heard "I can go in there because no one would know" and that was my clue. Feeling like I needed to sneak to get something. I knew at that moment this is how the other attempts ended in failure. I'm planning to go to the gym after work, I have my meals as usual but I need someone that has been here to tell me how they coped because I have to make it to goal.
Step one: STOP TELLING YOURSELF THAT THIS IS WHERE YOU FAIL!!
I see this all the time here, people work themselves into a tizzy when they're doing perfectly well, fretting about past patterns and how they might apply to now. If this makes sense, it almost serves as an excuse of kinds..."Well, I always screw up here, so it makes sense that I ate that cookie and skipped my workout today". Or they get themselves so worried that the extra anxiety and stress start making it way harder to stay on plan. That leads to a self-fulfilling prophecy...you worry about this particular spot in your journey, and so this particular spot in your journey becomes a problem again and again
What worked for *me* was to see this as COMPLETELY different than all of those other times. And that I was just as capable of staying on plan NOW as I was 10 lbs ago, and if I slipped, I was just as capable of getting back on plan immediately.
It's good to be aware of your patterns. But right now, by your own admission, you're doing well, and managing those past patterns as best you can, so stop telling yourself that "trouble's brewing" and that you're about to fall apart.
You are doing a great job, as you said yourself. It sounds like you're in a rut. With Spring just around the corner, this is the perfect time to break out of that rut. Find some new Springy recipes to try. On the next gorgeous day, get out and do something outside, soaking in the vitamin D. Go buy something that doesn't fit...yet.
Mandalinn & Eliana, Thank you so very much. I talk to myself all them time about making it to goal. I need that swift kick . (You were swift)!! Thanks for not wasting any time. Your first sentence was right on point. I know better!!! THANK YOU!!!!
mandalinn put it perfectly... I was recently thinking that I was having issues and one of the girls on here told me basically to stop thinking so much about the past and how big I was or how many struggles I *used* to have and think about *now*. At this point, you have lost so much and are doing so well. Forget about the past when you've messed up - It's different *this* time! This time you will lose it all and keep it off. Stay on track you're doing great!!
I know exactly where you're coming from. I've felt those old feelings bubbling up and I have been reminding myself that this time is going to be different because it's THE LAST TIME! No going back.
I have started getting in a rut too, so I'm learning some new recipes to plug into my routine.
OMG... I was just starting to have this kind of thinking this morning. I ate more than I should have last night (I did the I will just eat this... then I "just" ate a 100 calorie bag of popcorn and then it was "just" a cheese stick... etc.) Then this morning, after my mid-morning snack, I really wanted to walk over to the vending machines and get a soda and a baggie of something. And I started with the bad thoughts of "I am never going to lose this weight" "I am going to be fat forever" BLAH! I said 'F' this and I got up, and went down to the gym and did 4 miles on the treadmill. *poof* Craving for crap gone. Attitude is improved.
Ok... sorry, I am rambling! I agree with everyone else - just 'cause this is the point were you (we) have slipped before doesn't me you (we) are going to this time! When you start thinking this way - go for a walk to clear your head - sip on some hot tea - do anything - just do something different than what you did before.
I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE this website. I'm back to being my get to goal self. I've been eating on plan working out like a gym rat and having big fun. I appreciate all that was said to keep me moving. I was telling my friends about how mandalinn replied to me and how awesome I thought her response was and they were laughing and said she sounds like you. It's so WONDERFUL!!!
Parkedout - I'm so glad you stopped through and got what you needed.
The plan you have for yourself will work if you work it. So as long as I keep working my plan goal is sure. No need to fall apart now.
Last edited by jigglefree; 03-04-2010 at 01:30 PM.
I really wanted to walk over to the vending machines and get a soda and a baggie of something. And I started with the bad thoughts of "I am never going to lose this weight" "I am going to be fat forever" BLAH! I said 'F' this and I got up, and went down to the gym and did 4 miles on the treadmill.
THIS IS AMAZING! you should be so happy! and hold tight to the memory of that moment and the GOOD choice you made.
I want to also point out something Eliana has in her signature -
Long term goal: To still be calorie counting 11/9/2010 (Look for 12 smilies)
yes, she's got goals that involve the scale. But the most important one is to just keep working the plan. I try to emphasize that for myself too. I can't control the scale but I can control whether or not I eat on plan, drink my water and get in my activity. I won't lie- it's more fun to do all those things when the scale is rewarding you. But even when it's not, the commitment has to be to do the right things, and let the weight loss be the result of that.
I feel trouble brewing!!
I self destruct, quit and it all goes to pot. 
When I started back in January I told him this happens and I seem to talk to the wrong people because no one understands and I have a hard time moving forward. I knew I was in trouble last night because when I had my evening snack I had about 200 calories or so and I ate a 100 calorie bag of popcorn, then I went back and got some rice crackers that are about 130. I wanted more than I had. I had the thought that I can go back in there and get a couple more. But somewhere in my head I heard "I can go in there because no one would know" and that was my clue. Feeling like I needed to sneak to get something. I knew at that moment this is how the other attempts ended in failure. I'm planning to go to the gym after work, I have my meals as usual but I need someone that has been here to tell me how they coped because I have to make it to goal. 
. (You were swift)!! Thanks for not wasting any time. Your first sentence was right on point. I know better!!! THANK YOU!!!!
I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE this website. I'm back to being my get to goal self. I've been eating on plan working out like a gym rat and having big fun. I appreciate all that was said to keep me moving. I was telling my friends about how mandalinn replied to me and how awesome I thought her response was and they were laughing and said she sounds like you. It's so WONDERFUL!!!
